Heavy
Elli Ingram Lyrics
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Nobody wanna told me up
Ain't asking for help
I'm stubborn and I know myself
I've gotten heavy
Nobody wanna hold me up
Ain't asking for help
But I haven't slept in weeks
Not a wink
It must be all the drink
Yeah it keeps me up
Makes me think
Too much too deep
I'm too young to feel this shit
I wonder how I can hold my breath
I think the sky looks pretty
Even though the weather's shitty
I bet you right now
That behind all the clouds are blue
I'm telling you
I think there's hope up there for me
Maybe I can finally meet Amy
Just gotta get out of this
Old city
Trying to relax
Kick back put on the tv
Gave up on myself
Started writing my CV
And Jackie didn't help
She's always talking money this and money that
Get a job instead of sitting round and getting fat
I haven't slept in weeks
Not a wink
It must be all the drink
Yeah it keeps me up
Makes me think
Too much too deep
I'm too young to feel this shit
I wonder how long I can hold my breath
I think the sky looks pretty
Even though the weather's shitty
I bet you right now
That behind all the clouds are blue I'm telling you
I think there's hope up there for me
Maybe I can finally meet Amy
Just gotta get out of this old city
What’s meant to be will be
If I go under don’t save me
I’m not afraid
No I’m not afraid
Coz I bet I’ll get played
Better get paid
Send it to my mumma and my family estate
Hit a billion plays
Label gets paid
From another dead singer but now you know my name
I think there's hope up there for me
Maybe I can finally meet Amy
Just gotta get out of this old city
What’s meant to be will be
If I go under don’t save me
I’m not afraid
No I’m not afraid
In Elli Ingram's song "Heavy," the lyrics portray a sense of emotional weight and the struggle to carry that burden alone. The opening lines of the song express a feeling of heaviness, as the singer acknowledges that nobody wants to uplift or support them. The singer recognizes their own stubbornness and self-reliance, implying a reluctance to ask for help. This refusal to seek assistance may be fueled by a desire to prove their strength and independence.
The following lines suggest that the singer's emotional weight has negatively affected their sleep. They attribute their sleepless nights to excessive drinking, with the alcohol keeping them awake and leading to introspective thoughts. The lyrics reflect a sense of feeling overwhelmed, of thinking too deeply and being too young to experience such emotional turmoil. The mention of holding their breath hints at the singer feeling suffocated or trapped by their circumstances.
Despite the challenging circumstances, the singer maintains a perspective of hope. They find beauty in the sky, even when the weather is bad, symbolizing a belief that there is always a brighter side to things. They express a desire to escape their current environment, represented by the "old city," in search of a fresh start and potential opportunities. The reference to meeting "Amy" could signify the possibility of finding a new connection or support system.
The second verse introduces the concept of trying to distract oneself from the heaviness by relaxing and watching TV. However, the singer acknowledges that they have given up on themselves, as reflected in their decision to start writing a CV (resume). The mention of Jackie, who emphasizes the importance of money and getting a job, suggests the external pressures and expectations that the singer is facing.
The closing lines of the song express a sense of uncertainty about the future but also a willingness to embrace whatever comes. The singer acknowledges the potential for being played or taken advantage of, yet the pursuit of financial security remains a priority. They mention sending money to their family and fantasize about achieving success and recognition in the music industry. Despite the ups and downs, the singer holds onto the hope that there is something better waiting for them beyond their current circumstances.
Line by Line Meaning
I've gotten heavy
I have become burdened by my own emotions and struggles
Nobody wanna hold me up
No one is willing to support or lift me up
Ain't asking for help
I am refusing to seek assistance
I should be strong enough to do it myself
I believe I should be capable of handling things on my own
But I haven't slept in weeks
I have been unable to sleep for several weeks
Not a wink
I haven't slept at all
It must be all the drink
The reason for my sleeplessness might be due to the alcohol I consume
Yeah it keeps me up
The alcohol keeps me awake
Makes me think
It leads to deep contemplation
Too much too deep
The thoughts and emotions are overwhelming
I'm too young to feel this shit
I believe I shouldn't be burdened by such heavy emotions at my age
I wonder how I can hold my breath
I am unsure of how long I can endure this situation
I think the sky looks pretty
Despite the unfavorable weather, I find beauty in the sky
Even though the weather's shitty
Although the weather is unpleasant
I bet you right now
I am confident that at this moment
That behind all the clouds are blue
There is hope and positivity hidden behind the gloomy circumstances
I'm telling you
I am assuring you of this
Maybe I can finally meet Amy
Perhaps I will have a chance encounter with someone named Amy
Just gotta get out of this old city
I need to leave this familiar place
Trying to relax
Attempting to find a state of calmness
Kick back put on the tv
To unwind, I sit back and watch television
Gave up on myself
I have lost faith in my abilities
Started writing my CV
I have begun to update my resume
And Jackie didn't help
Jackie, a person I know, hasn't been supportive either
She's always talking money this and money that
She constantly emphasizes the importance of money in conversations
Get a job instead of sitting round and getting fat
She suggests finding employment instead of being idle and unproductive
What’s meant to be will be
The outcome that is predetermined will come to pass
If I go under don’t save me
If I sink or fail, please do not attempt to rescue me
I’m not afraid
I am not fearful
Coz I bet I’ll get played
Because I believe I will be taken advantage of or deceived
Better get paid
It is preferable to receive payment
Send it to my mumma and my family estate
I will send the money to my mother and the inheritance of my family
Hit a billion plays
If my music reaches a billion plays
Label gets paid
The record label will receive financial compensation
From another dead singer but now you know my name
The label will capitalize on my success even after my death, but at least my name will be known
Lyrics © O/B/O APRA AMCOS
Written by: Elli Ingram, Kwaku Kusi, Aston Rudi Hardacre, Aston Rudi
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