How Much I Lied
Elvis Costello & The Attractions Lyrics


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Darling, there is one thing I must tell you, you must know
It's so hard to say the words I feel
This fancy that I'm on has been going on too long
It's time to stop pretending things are real

'Cause I've been living deep in sin, I've been living blind
And I just don't know what's right or wrong
To take a chance on losing you is such a silly thing to do
A chance I might wake up and find you gone

Blue, so blue, my love is burning blue
Any private flame could be a lie
Blue, so blue, my love still burns for you
But I know I'll only make you cry

A thief can only steal from you
He cannot break your heart
He can never touch the precious things inside
Someone like you should surely be

Miles and miles away from me
Then you'd never care how much I lied
So try to understand the pain
It takes so long when I explain




Please don't you forget how much I lied
How much I lied

Overall Meaning

Elvis Costello & The Attractions’s song ‘How Much I Lied’ is a heart-wrenching ballad featuring vulnerable lyrics about a man who is struggling to reconcile his own inner turmoil with his love for his partner. In the opening of the song, the man confesses that he has been living a lie for far too long. He has been pretending that his fancy is true and that his love is pure, but in reality, he has been living deep in sin and has lost his ability to distinguish between right and wrong. The man is aware that taking a chance on losing his partner would be foolish, but he fears that he might wake up one day and find that his partner is gone.


The chorus of ‘How Much I Lied’ emphasizes the pain and anguish of the man’s situation. He describes his love as ‘blue’ and burning, but he understands that any private flame could be a lie. He acknowledges that his love for his partner is still strong, but he also realizes that he is only going to make her cry. The man compares himself to a thief who can steal but cannot break a heart or touch the precious things inside. He seems to believe that his partner deserves someone better than him, someone who will not lie and deceive her.


The song concludes with the man acknowledging that he knows he will never be able to be with his partner in the way that he wants. He believes that she should be miles away from him, far from the pain and hurt that he might cause her. The man understands that explaining his pain and difficulties will take time, but he begs his partner not to forget how much he lied.


Line by Line Meaning

Darling, there is one thing I must tell you, you must know
I have something important to confess, please listen carefully


It's so hard to say the words I feel
I find it difficult to express how I truly feel


This fancy that I'm on has been going on too long
This act I'm putting on has been going on for too long now


It's time to stop pretending things are real
It's time to stop pretending that what I'm doing is real


'Cause I've been living deep in sin, I've been living blind
I've been doing things that are immoral and wrong


And I just don't know what's right or wrong
I'm having a hard time distinguishing right from wrong


To take a chance on losing you is such a silly thing to do
It's foolish to risk losing you


A chance I might wake up and find you gone
I fear that I may wake up one day and find out that you left


Blue, so blue, my love is burning blue
My love is filled with sadness and burning blue


Any private flame could be a lie
Any private feelings I have could be deceitful


Blue, so blue, my love still burns for you
I still love you, despite the sadness


But I know I'll only make you cry
I fear that I'm only causing you pain


A thief can only steal from you
A thief can only take away material things from you


He cannot break your heart
He cannot cause the same amount of pain as a broken heart


He can never touch the precious things inside
He cannot reach the valuable things inside you


Someone like you should surely be
Someone like you deserves to be happy and loved


Miles and miles away from me
Far away from me


Then you'd never care how much I lied
Then you wouldn't have to endure my dishonesty


So try to understand the pain
Please try and understand the pain I'm going through


It takes so long when I explain
It's taking me a long time to explain


Please don't you forget how much I lied
Please don't forget that I've lied to you


How much I lied
I've lied so much




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Written by: David Rivkin, Gram Parsons

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