River
Emil Bulls Lyrics

I've been a liar, been a thief
I have been dishonest and have stolen in my past

Been a lover, been a cheat
I have been in romantic relationships but have been unfaithful

All my sins need holy water, feel it washing over me
I feel guilty and want to cleanse myself of my wrongdoings

Well, little one, I don't want to admit to something
I am hesitant to confess something

If all it's gonna cause is pain
I don't want to cause any more pain

Truth and my lies right now are falling like the rain
Both the truth and lies are coming out and being revealed

So let the river run
I should let everything unfold and accept the consequences

He's comin' home with his neck scratched, to catch flack
He is returning home with evidence of unfaithfulness and will face criticism

Sweat jackets and dress slacks, mismatched
His clothing is a mix of casual and formal, representing his conflicting behavior

On his breath's Jack, he's a sex addict
He has consumed alcohol and has a compulsion for sex

And she just wants to exact revenge and get back
She desires revenge and wants to hurt him in return

It's a chess match, she's on his back like a jet-pack
Their relationship has become a strategic battle, with her closely monitoring his actions

She's kept track of all his Internet chats
She has been monitoring his online conversations

And guess who just happens to be movin' on to the next
Ironically, she is already moving on to another person

Actually, just shit on my last chick and she has what my ex lacks
She has qualities that his previous partner did not, which makes him regret his actions

'Cause she loves danger, psychopath
She is attracted to risky situations and has psychological issues

And you don't fuck with no man's girl, even I know that
It is universally understood that you should not interfere with someone else's partner

But she's devised some plan to stab him in the back
She has come up with a scheme to betray him

Knife in hand, says their relationship's hangin' by a strand
While holding a knife, she claims that their relationship is on the verge of ending

So she's been on the web lately
She has been active on the internet

Says maybe she'll be my Gwen Stacy, to spite her man
She suggests that she could be a source of trouble, just like Gwen Stacy in the Spider-Man comics

And I know she's using me to try to play him, I don't care
He is aware that she is manipulating him, but he is apathetic towards it

Hi Suzanne, but I shoulda said 'Bye Suzanne'
He greets Suzanne, but he should have said goodbye instead

After the first night, but tonight I am
He acknowledges that he should have ended things earlier, but he is present in the current moment

A one-night stand turned a two-night stand
Their casual encounter extended into multiple nights

It was 'come sunlight, scram, ' now we hug tight, and
They initially agreed to part ways when morning came, but now they embrace each other

He found out, now she feels deserted and used
He discovered the truth, and now she feels abandoned and manipulated

'Cause he left, so what? He did it first to her too
She believes that his actions are justified since he previously did the same to her

Now how am I supposed to tell this girl that we're through?
He is struggling to find a way to break up with this girl

It's hard to find the words, I'm aloof, nervous, and Sue
He struggles to express himself, feeling distant, anxious, and unsure

Don't want this to hurt, but what you deserve is the truth
He wants to avoid causing pain, but acknowledges that she deserves to know the truth

Don't take it personal, I just can't say this in person to you
He wants her to understand that it is not personal, but he is unable to say it directly

So I revert to the studio, like hole-in-the-wall diners
He turns to the solitude of the recording studio, comparing it to small, hidden restaurants

Don't have to be reserved in a booth
In the studio, he can freely express himself without holding back

I just feel like the person who I'm turning into's
He feels like he is transforming into someone he doesn't recognize

Irreversible, I preyed on you like it's church at the pew
His actions towards her are irreparable, as he used her like a predator in a church

And now that I got you I don't want you
He realizes that now that he has her, he doesn't actually want her

Took advantage in my thirst to pursue
He exploited his own desires to pursue her

Why do I do this dirt that I do?
He questions why he engages in such immoral behavior

Get on my soapbox and preach, my sermon and speech
He feels the need to lecture and give a speech, like a preacher on a soapbox

Detergent and bleach is burnin' the wound
The use of cleaning agents like detergent and bleach intensifies the pain of the situation

'Cause now with her in the womb
She is now pregnant with his child

We can't bring her in this world, shoulda knew
They cannot bring the child into this world, as they should have known better

To use protection 'fore I bit into your forbidden fruit (Fuck!)
He regrets not using protection before engaging in sexual activity, symbolically referring to it as consuming forbidden fruit

My name's (ooh), my name's (ooh)
He introduces himself with a sense of hesitation

River (ooh), river run
He expresses the desire for the river to flow, representing the acceptance of consequences and the unfolding of events

Call me (ooh), call me (ooh)
He asks to be called, possibly wanting to face the consequences of his actions

River (ooh), we'll let the river run
He suggests that they should allow the situation to run its course, like a flowing river

Always the bridesmaid, never 'The bride, hey!'
He always finds himself in supporting roles instead of being the main attraction

Fuck can I say? If life was a highway
He questions himself, implying there is not much he can do

And deceit was an enclave, I'd be swerving in five lanes
If deception was the path, he would be navigating through multiple lanes, indicating his lack of honesty

Speeds at a high rate, like I'm slidin' on ice, maybe
He is moving fast, similar to sliding on ice, possibly implying the lack of control in his actions

That's why I may have came at you sideways
He admits that he approached her from a different angle or with hidden intentions

I can't keep my lies straight
He struggles to maintain consistency with his lies

But I made you terminate my baby
He caused her to have an abortion, ending their unborn child's life

This love triangle left us in a wreck, tangled
Their complicated romantic situation caused damage and confusion

What else can I say? It was fun for a while
He acknowledges that their relationship had its enjoyable moments

Bet I really woulda loved your smile
He admits that he would have genuinely loved her if circumstances were different

Didn't really wanna abort, but fuck it
He expresses regret for the abortion but ultimately decides to disregard it

What's one more lie, to tell our unborn child?
He justifies adding another lie to their already complicated situation, even if it affects their unborn child

My name's (ooh), my name's (ooh)
He reiterates his name with a hint of remorse

River (ooh), river run
He once again references the river, symbolizing the acceptance of consequences

Call me (ooh), call me (ooh)
He wants to be held accountable for his actions and wants to face the consequences

River (ooh), we'll let the river run
He suggests allowing the situation to unfold naturally, like a flowing river

I'm sorry
He expresses remorse and regret

I don't want to admit to something
He is reluctant to confess and confront his actions

If all it's gonna cause is pain
He doesn't want to bring more pain by revealing the truth

The truth and my lies now are falling like the rain
Both the truth and his lies are being uncovered and revealed

So let the river run
He accepts the unfolding consequences and allows the situation to progress naturally