Chaos
Emily Vaughn Lyrics

Lately I've been going out my mind
Recently, I have been feeling extremely overwhelmed and losing control of my thoughts.

And it stays on rewind
These feelings keep replaying in my mind, never letting me move forward.

But did you even notice?
But did you ever take notice or pay attention?

If you cared, you never showed it
If you truly cared about me, your actions never reflected it.

Breaking down, we fight over nothing
We argue and quarrel about insignificant matters, causing our relationship to deteriorate.

It's my bad my trauma
It is my fault that my past experiences and scars affect me in the present.

Is showing and I know it
These issues are apparent and I am aware of them.

I do this shit over and over
I repeat these patterns and behaviors repeatedly, unable to break free from them.

I'm outta focus i'm kinda broken
I am feeling unfocused and emotionally shattered.

But I'm learning and baby to be honest
However, I am in the process of learning and being completely transparent with you.

If you wanted peace, you know it won't be me
If you were seeking tranquility or harmony, I cannot provide it.

If you wanted love I got love
If you desired love, I am capable of offering it.

But that shit is gon' be
However, it will come with complications and difficulties.

Chaos and you know it
It will lead to chaos, and deep down, you are aware of it.

Yeah, that shit is gon' be
Yes, it will bring about chaos and turmoil.

Know that you believe, believe the best in me
Understand that you have faith in me and believe in my potential.

If you need some love I got love
If you are in need of affection, I am capable of providing love.

And you ain't even see me at my lowest
And you have not witnessed me at my absolute worst, when I am at my lowest point.

You never see it on my face
You never see the turmoil and emotions I am experiencing through my facial expressions.

'Cause I know just how to hide it
Because I have become skilled at concealing my inner struggles.

Think I'm alone here in this space
You believe I am isolated and alone in this emotional state.

'Cause I don't know just how to fight it
Because I do not know how to combat or overcome these feelings.

I need someone to show me
I require someone to guide and support me through this process.

Patience, if that's you, it's great
I need someone who is patient, and if you possess that quality, it would be wonderful.

Love you just the same
I still love you with the same intensity.

Even when we need a break
Even when we require some time apart from each other.

Right now I just need some
At this moment, all I need is

Right now I just need some space
Right now, I simply need some personal and emotional distance.

And you ain't even see me at my lowest
And you have not witnessed me at my absolute worst, when I am at my lowest point.