New Salt
Emily Weisband Lyrics

If I wasn't lonely in a hotel room, I wouldn't have answered
I only answered because I felt lonely and vulnerable.

If you weren't drunk on the West Coast, you wouldn't have called
You only called because you were under the influence and feeling emotional.

I've put in a lot of time and cryin', tryna cut out the cancer
I've spent a lot of time and effort trying to move on from the pain you caused me.

But hearing your voice, yeah, it's like you never killed me at all
Hearing your voice brings back all the memories and pain as if no time has passed.

Ah-ah, you say it was just like a movie
You try to romanticize our past relationship as if it was a perfect love story.

Do you remember the things you did to me?
Do you even realize the hurt and damage you caused me?

'Cause I remember
I still vividly remember and feel the pain you caused.

And just for a second those days were better
For a brief moment, I allowed myself to think things could be good again.

But I know better
However, I know that our relationship was toxic and not worth going back to.

Why are you so good
Why are you so skilled or experienced

At making it hurt so bad?
At causing so much pain in me?

Sending me spiralling
Causing me to spiral or spin out of control emotionally.

Right back down a broken road
Back to the same painful and broken place we were before.

Saying things you should've said years ago
Bringing up issues or expressing feelings that should have been dealt with a long time ago.

Making it burn
Causing me intense emotional pain or discomfort.

So excuse me if I'm mad
I have every right to be angry or upset about what you did.

Coming in lying, making it sound like the truth
You try to manipulate me into believing your lies as if they are the truth.

Ain't it just like you
Isn't this behavior typical of you?

Putting new salt in an old wound?
Reopening old emotional wounds and causing new pain to surface.

Why do pretty words make it so hard
Why are your sweet words causing me so much difficulty?

To remember you're selfish? Oh no, yeah
To acknowledge that you only think about yourself and don't care about my feelings.

You don't really wanna have me
You don't truly desire a committed and loving relationship with me.

You just wanna know that you could, oh no, yeah
You only want to use me for your own emotional gratification and satisfaction.

The way that it stings is so familiar
The pain and hurt of our past relationship is all too familiar to me.

So many things, too familiar
So many aspects of our past relationship are painfully familiar and recognizable.

Don't wanna be stupid, yeah, but
I don't want to make the same mistakes again, but...

Now I'm falling asleep, thinking 'bout you
You are on my mind as I try to sleep.

Like I forgot how to dream without you
I have become so accustomed to thinking about you that it's hard to imagine dreaming or thinking without you.

That 2 a.m. call
The middle-of-the-night phone call.

Breaking down my, down my walls
Breaking through my emotional defenses and barriers.

New salt
New pain or hurt caused by old issues or past experiences.