Insane
Eminem - [2009] Eminem - Relapse Lyrics

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I was born with a dick in my brain, yeah, fucked in the head
My stepfather said that I sucked in the bed
'Til one night he snuck in and said
"We're going out back, I want my dick sucked in the shed"
Can't we just play with Teddy Ruxpin instead?
"After I fuck you in the butt, get some head
Bust a nut, get some rest"
The next day, my mother said

"I don't know what the fuck's up with this kid
The bastard won't even eat nothing he's fed
He just hung himself in the bedroom, he's dead"
"Debbie, don't let that fucker get you upset
Go in there, stick a fuckin' cigarette to his neck
I bet you he's fakin' it, I bet you
I bet he probably just wants to see how upset you would get
I'll go handle this ,of course, unless you object"
"Ah, go fuck his brains out, if any's left in his head"

If you could count the skeletons in my closet
Under my bed and up under my faucet
Then you would know I've completely lost it
Is he nuts? No, he's insane

If you could count the skeletons in my closet
Under my bed and up under my faucet
Then you would know I've completely lost it
Is he nuts? No, he's insane

"Did you get him?" Nah, fucker tried to bite my face off
I just got fuckin' chased off with a chainsaw
Then he took the chainsaw, bit the fuckin' blades off
Ate the blades, stuck a baseball in a slingshot
Then he aimed at his own face, let the thing pop
Took his eye out, picked it up and played ping pong
Then he played ping pong with his own ding-dong
That motherfucker's got nuts like King Kong
Then he set the lawn mower out on the dang lawn
And he laid all up underneath it with the thing on
Then he took his pants, he took every fuckin' thing off
Everything, except his tank top and his training bra
Ain't he raw? Yeah maniac, that's Shady, dog
Man, that motherfucker's gangsta, ain't he, dog?
Shady, dog, what be going through that fuckin' brain of yours?
Say no more, what the fuck you waitin' for? Sing along

If you could count the skeletons in my closet
Under my bed and up under my faucet
Then you would know I've completely lost it
Is he nuts? No, he's insane

If you could count the skeletons in my closet
Under my bed and up under my faucet
Then you would know I've completely lost it
Is he nuts? No, he's insane

Don't you know what felch means? (Yeah), well, then tell me
Would you rather get felched or do the felching?
Fuck him in the ass, suck the cum out while you're belching
Burp, belch, then go back for a second helping
Can you dig what I'm sayin', man? Can you smell me?
I want you to feel me like my stepfather felt me
Fuck a little puppy, kick the puppy while he's yelping
"Shady, what the fuck you saying?" I don't know, help me
What the fuck's happening? I think I'm fucking melting
"Marshall, I just love you, boy, I care about your well-being"
No, Dad, I said no, I don't need no help peeing
I'm a big boy, I can do it by myself, see
I only get naked when the babysitter tells me
She showed me a movie like "Nightmare on Elm Street"
But it was X, and they called it "Pubic Hair on Chelsea"
"Well, this is called ass rape, and we're shooting the jail scene"

If you could count the skeletons in my closet
Under my bed and up under my faucet
Then you would know I've completely lost it
Is he nuts? No, he's insane

If you could count the skeletons in my closet
Under my bed and up under my faucet

Then you would know I've completely lost it
Is he nuts? No, he's insane

Overall Meaning

Eminem's song "Insane" from 2009's Relapse album is a deeply disturbing track that showcases the rapper's mental instability. The opening lines hint at a traumatic childhood, as he reveals that he was born with a "dick in his brain" and that his stepfather was sexually abusive. The lyrics become darker and more violent as the song progresses, showcasing Eminem's obsession with murder, rape, and self-harm.

The chorus of the song, "If you could count the skeletons in my closet, under my bed and up under my faucet, then you would know I've completely lost it," is a nod to his mental instability and the skeletons in his closet – both literal and figurative. He raps about his love for violence and his sense of boredom with everyday life, leading to his need for increasingly taboo and disturbing behavior. The song is highly controversial for its graphic language and explicit themes, and it is not recommended for those who are easily disturbed.

Despite the subject matter of "Insane," it has been noted as one of Eminem's most technically impressive songs. The rapper showcases his impeccable flow and rhyme schemes, using multisyllabic rhymes and complex internal rhyme structures. Overall, while "Insane" is a deeply disturbing song, it is also a testament to Eminem's skill as a rapper.

Line by Line Meaning

I was born with a dick in my brain, yeah fucked in the head
I have always had a warped mind

My stepfather said that I sucked in the bed
My stepdad used to insult me and belittle me

'Til one night he snuck in and said
One night, he victimized me sexually

We're going out back, I want my dick sucked in the shed
He took me outside and demanded a sexual act

Can't we just play with Teddy Ruxpin instead?
I was scared and looking for a way out

After I f*** you in the butt, get some head
He sexually abused me in a disturbing way

Bust a nut, get some rest
He used and abused me in a way that caused me pain and trauma

The next day my mother said "I don't know what the f***'s up with this kid!
My mother didn't understand how traumatized I was by the abuse

The bastard won't even eat nothing he's fed
I was so affected by the abuse that I lost my appetite

He just hung himself in the bedroom he's dead"
I felt driven to suicide by the trauma

"Debbie don't let that f****r get you upset
My mother was trying to stay calm and keep control

Go in there, stick a f***in' cigarette to his neck
My mother was so frustrated that she wanted to hurt me

I bet you he's fakin' it, I bet you
She didn't believe the severity of the situation

I bet he probably just want's to see how upset you would get
She thought I was playing games with her

I'll go handle this of course, unless you object"
She wanted to take control of the situation

"Ahh go f*** his brains out, if any's left in his head"
She was angry and couldn't control her emotions

If you could count the skeletons in my closet
I have so many secrets and traumas in my life

Under my bed and up under my faucet
My secrets and traumas are hidden everywhere in my life

Then you would know I've completely lost it
I am mentally unstable and struggling to cope

Is he nuts? No! He's insane!
I am dealing with intense mental and emotional challenges

Don't you know what felch means? Yeah, well then tell me
I am lost and looking for answers in taboo and disturbing places

Would you rather get felched or do the felching
I am obsessed with taboo and disturbing acts

Fuck him in the ass, suck the cum out while you're belching
I am engaging in vulgar and harmful sexual fantasies

Burp, belch, then go back for a second helping
I am engaging in disturbing and harmful behaviors

Can you dig what I'm sayin' man, can you smell me?
I am desperate for someone to understand and connect with me

I want you to feel me like my step father felt me
I want someone to empathize and connect with my traumatic experiences

Fuck a little puppy, kick the puppy while he's yelping
I am engaging in even more disturbing and harmful fantasies

"Shady what the f*** you saying?" I don't know help me!
I am struggling and need help

What the f***'s happening, I think I'm f***ing melting
I am overwhelmed and having a mental breakdown

"Marshall I just love you boy, I care about your well being"
Someone is trying to support me and help me

No Dad, I said no, I don't need no help peeing
I am trying to assert my independence

I'm a big boy, I can do it by myself see
I am trying to project a sense of strength and control

I only get naked when the baby sitter tells me
I have a history of sexual abuse and trauma

She showed me a movie like "Nightmare on Elm Street"
I was exposed to harmful and disturbing content at a young age

But it was X, and they called it "Pubic Hair on Chelsea"
The exposure had sexual and disturbing themes

"Well this is called ass rape, and we're shooting the jail scene"
I am engaging in disturbing and harmful fantasies

If you could count the skeletons in my closet
I am haunted by my secrets and traumas

Under my bed and up under my faucet
My secrets and traumas are hidden in every part of my life

Then you would know I've completely lost it
I am struggling with intense mental and emotional challenges

Is he nuts? No! He's insane!
I am dealing with extreme mental instability and struggles

Lyrics © DistroKid, BMG Rights Management, Universal Music Publishing Group, Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC, Kobalt Music Publishing Ltd., Warner Chappell Music, Inc.
Written by: Trevor Lawrence Jr, Mike Elizondo, Mark Batson, Marshall Mathers, Dawaun Parker, Andre Young

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