Headlights
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And though you say the days are happy
Why is the power off and I'm fucked up?
And mom, I know he's not around
But don't you place the blame on me
As you pour yourself another drink, yeah
I guess we are who we are
Maybe we took this too far
I went in headfirst, never thinkin' about who what I said hurt
In what verse, my mom probably got it the worst
The brunt of it, but as stubborn as we are, did I take it too far?
'Cleaning Out My Closet' and all them other songs
But regardless I don't hate you 'cause, ma
You're still beautiful to me, 'cause you're my mom
Though far be it from you to be calm
Our house was Vietnam, Desert Storm
And both of us put together can form an atomic bomb
Equivalent to chemical warfare
And forever we can drag this on and on
But agree to disagree
That gift from me up under the Christmas tree don't mean shit to me
You're kicking me out? It's fifteen degrees
And it's Christmas Eve, "Little prick, just leave"
Ma, let me grab my fucking coat
Anything to have each other's goats
Why we always at each others throats?
Especially when dad, he fucked us both
We're in the same fucking boat
You'd think that'd make us close (nope)
Further away it drove us, but together headlights shine
And car full of belongings, still got a ways to go
Back to grandma's house, it's straight up the road
And I was the man of the house, the oldest
So my shoulders carried the weight of the load
Then Nate got taken away by the state at eight years old
And that's when I realized you were sick and it wasn't fixable or changeable
And to this day we remained estranged, and I hate it though, but
I guess we are who we are
Headlights shining in the dark night, I drive on
Maybe we took this too far
'Cause to this day we remain estranged, and I hate it though
'Cause you ain't even get to witness your grandbabies grow
But I'm sorry, mama, for 'Cleaning Out My Closet', at the time I was angry
Rightfully? Maybe so, never meant that far to take it though
'Cause now I know it's not your fault, and I'm not making jokes
That song I no longer play at shows and I cringe every time it's on the radio
And I think of Nathan being placed in a home
And all the medicine you fed us
And how I just wanted you to taste your own, but
Now the medications taken over and your mental states deterioratin' slow
And I'm way too old to cry, that shit's painful though
But, ma, I forgive you, so does Nathan, yo
All you did, all you said, you did your best to raise us both
Foster care, that cross you bare, few may be as heavy as yours
But I love you Debbie Mathers, oh, what a tangled web we have 'cause
One thing I never asked was where the fuck my deadbeat dad was
Fuck it, I guess he had trouble keepin' up with every address
But I'da flipped every mattress, every rock and desert cactus
Owned a collection of maps, and followed my kids to the edge of the atlas
Someone ever moved them from me
That you coulda bet your asses
If I had to come down the chimney dressed as Santa, kidnap 'em
And although one has only met their grandma once
You pulled up in our drive one night as we were leaving to get some hamburgers
Me, her and Nate, we introduced you, hugged you
And as you left I had this overwhelming sadness come over me
As we pulled off to go our separate paths and
I saw your headlights as I looked back
And I'm mad I didn't get the chance to
Thank you for being my mom and my dad
So, mom, please accept this as a tribute, I wrote this on the jet
I guess I had to get this off my chest
I hope I get the chance to lay it 'fore I'm dead
The stewardess said to fasten my seatbelt, I guess we're crashin'
So if I'm not dreaming
I hope you get this message that I will always love you from afar
'Cause you're my mom
I guess we are who we are
Headlights shining in the dark night, I drive on
Maybe we took this too far
I want a new life (start over)
One without a cause (clean slate)
So I'm coming home tonight (yeah)
Well, no matter what the cost
And if the plane goes down
Or if the crew can't wake me up
Well, just know that I'm alright
I was not afraid to die
Oh, even if there's songs to sing
Well, m children will carry me
Just know that I'm alright
I was not afraid to die
Because I put my faith in my little girls
So I'll never say goodbye cruel world
Just know that I'm alright
I am not afraid to die
I guess we are who we are
Headlights shining in the dark night, I drive on
Maybe we took this too far
I want a new life
The song "Headlights" by Eminem is an apology to his mother for his abusive behavior towards her in his earlier songs, particularly "Cleaning Out My Closet". The lyrics express regret for not appreciating her enough and understanding the challenges she faced while raising him and his younger brother, Nathan. The song also reflects on the impact of his parents' troubled relationship on their family and his own relationships. The repeated line "Headlights shining in the dark night, I drive on" indicates that despite the emotional turmoil, life goes on, and one must move forward.
Line by Line Meaning
Mom, I know I let you down
I acknowledge that I have disappointed you, Mom
And though you say the days are happy
Even though you claim that our days are filled with joy
Why is the power off and I'm fucked up?
Why are we experiencing a power outage and why am I struggling with personal issues?
And mom, I know he's not around
And I understand that he is not present in our lives
But don't you place the blame on me
However, please do not hold me responsible
As you pour yourself another drink, yeah
While you continue to drink, adding to your troubles
I guess we are who we are
I suppose we cannot change our true nature
Headlights shining in the dark night, I drive on
Continuing to move forward despite the darkness surrounding me
Maybe we took this too far
Perhaps we have gone too far in our actions
I went in headfirst, never thinkin' about who what I said hurt
I acted impulsively without considering the impact of my words on others
In what verse, my mom probably got it the worst
In my songs and lyrics, my mom likely endured the harshest criticism
The brunt of it, but as stubborn as we are, did I take it too far?
She bore the majority of the criticism, but did I push the limits too much?
'Cleaning Out My Closet' and all them other songs
Referring to my song 'Cleaning Out My Closet' and other similar tracks
But regardless I don't hate you 'cause, ma
Nevertheless, I do not hate you, Mom
You're still beautiful to me, 'cause you're my mom
You will always be beautiful to me because you are my mother
Though far be it from you to be calm
Although it is difficult for you to remain calm
Our house was Vietnam, Desert Storm
Our household was filled with conflict and chaos, resembling warzones
And both of us put together can form an atomic bomb
When we unite, our combined emotions can explode destructively
Equivalent to chemical warfare
Our conflicts are akin to a chemical war, causing harm to both of us
And forever we can drag this on and on
And we can prolong this contentious relationship indefinitely
But agree to disagree
Let's accept that we have different opinions and move forward
That gift from me up under the Christmas tree don't mean shit to me
The present I gave you for Christmas holds no sentimental value to me
You're kicking me out? It's fifteen degrees
Are you really evicting me? It's freezing cold outside
And it's Christmas Eve, 'Little prick, just leave'
And it's Christmas Eve, you're calling me names and telling me to leave
Ma, let me grab my fucking coat
Mom, allow me to get my coat before leaving
Anything to have each other's goats
Anything to annoy or provoke each other
Why we always at each others throats?
Why do we constantly argue and clash with each other?
Especially when dad, he fucked us both
Especially since our father caused harm to both of us
We're in the same fucking boat
We are in the same difficult situation
You'd think that'd make us close (nope)
One would assume that would bring us closer together, but it didn't
Further away it drove us, but together headlights shine
Instead, it pushed us further apart, but our headlights still illuminate the path ahead
And car full of belongings, still got a ways to go
Despite having a car full of possessions, we still have a long journey ahead
Back to grandma's house, it's straight up the road
Returning to our grandmother's house, which is nearby
And I was the man of the house, the oldest
I was the one who had to take charge and be responsible as the eldest
So my shoulders carried the weight of the load
I bore the burden and responsibility for the family
Then Nate got taken away by the state at eight years old
Then Nate (my brother) was removed from our custody by the government when he was eight years old
And that's when I realized you were sick and it wasn't fixable or changeable
That's when I understood that your illness was not something that could be easily cured or altered
And to this day we remained estranged, and I hate it though, but
And to this day, we are still distant from each other, and I despise it, but
'Cause to this day we remain estranged, and I hate it though
Because we are still disconnected, and I dislike it
'Cause you ain't even get to witness your grandbabies grow
Because you never had the chance to see your grandchildren grow up
But I'm sorry, mama, for 'Cleaning Out My Closet', at the time I was angry
But I apologize, Mom, for the song 'Cleaning Out My Closet', I was angry back then
Rightfully? Maybe so, never meant that far to take it though
Perhaps it was justified, but I never intended for it to escalate that much
'Cause now I know it's not your fault, and I'm not making jokes
Because I realize now that it's not your fault, and I'm not mocking you
That song I no longer play at shows and I cringe every time it's on the radio
I no longer perform that song at concerts, and it makes me cringe whenever I hear it on the radio
And I think of Nathan being placed in a home
And it reminds me of Nathan being put into a foster home
And all the medicine you fed us
And all the medication you gave us
And how I just wanted you to taste your own, but
And how I wished you could experience the effects of your own medication, but
Now the medications taken over and your mental states deterioratin' slow
Now the medications have taken control, and your mental state is gradually declining
And I'm way too old to cry, that shit's painful though
And I'm too old to cry, even though it's incredibly painful
But, ma, I forgive you, so does Nathan, yo
But, Mom, I forgive you, and so does Nathan
All you did, all you said, you did your best to raise us both
Everything you did and said, you did your best to raise both of us
Foster care, that cross you bare, few may be as heavy as yours
The burden of foster care that you carried, not many can comprehend its weight
But I love you Debbie Mathers, oh, what a tangled web we have 'cause
But I love you, Debbie Mathers, despite the complicated and difficult relationship we have
One thing I never asked was where the fuck my deadbeat dad was
One thing I never questioned was the whereabouts of my irresponsible father
Fuck it, I guess he had trouble keepin' up with every address
To hell with it, I suppose he struggled to remember every address
But I'da flipped every mattress, every rock and desert cactus
But I would have searched everywhere, even under every mattress, rock, and cactus in the desert
Owned a collection of maps, and followed my kids to the edge of the atlas
I would have owned an extensive collection of maps and followed my children to the farthest corners of the world
Someone ever moved them from me
If anyone ever separated them from me
That you coulda bet your asses
You could have bet your lives on it
If I had to come down the chimney dressed as Santa, kidnap 'em
If I had to disguise myself as Santa Claus and abduct them through the chimney
And although one has only met their grandma once
And even though one of them has only met their grandmother once
You pulled up in our drive one night as we were leaving to get some hamburgers
You arrived in our driveway one evening as we were about to go out to get hamburgers
Me, her and Nate, we introduced you, hugged you
Both me, my daughter, and Nate (my brother) introduced you and hugged you
And as you left I had this overwhelming sadness come over me
And as you departed, a great sadness engulfed me
As we pulled off to go our separate paths and
As we drove away in different directions
I saw your headlights as I looked back
I noticed your car's headlights as I glanced behind
And I'm mad I didn't get the chance to
And I'm upset that I didn't have the opportunity to
Thank you for being my mom and my dad
Express my gratitude for being both my mother and father
So, mom, please accept this as a tribute, I wrote this on the jet
So, Mom, please consider this as a tribute, as I wrote this while on a private plane
I guess I had to get this off my chest
I felt the need to express these thoughts and emotions
I hope I get the chance to lay it 'fore I'm dead
I hope I have the opportunity to share this with you before I die
The stewardess said to fasten my seatbelt, I guess we're crashin'
The flight attendant instructed me to buckle my seatbelt, implying that the plane might crash
So if I'm not dreaming
So, if I'm not dreaming
I hope you get this message that I will always love you from afar
I hope you receive this message that I will always love you, even from a distance
'Cause you're my mom
Because you're my mother
I want a new life
I desire a fresh start in life
One without a cause
One without a particular purpose or reason
So I'm coming home tonight
So, I'm returning home tonight
Well, no matter what the cost
Regardless of any sacrifices involved
And if the plane goes down
And if the plane crashes
Or if the crew can't wake me up
Or if the crew is unable to revive me
Well, just know that I'm alright
Just know that I am okay
I was not afraid to die
I was not scared of death
Oh, even if there's songs to sing
Even if there are songs left to be sung
Well, my children will carry me
My children will be the ones to continue my legacy
Just know that I'm alright
Just know that I am okay
I was not afraid to die
I was not scared of death
Because I put my faith in my little girls
Because I have faith in my daughters
So I'll never say goodbye cruel world
So, I won't bid farewell to this cruel world
Just know that I'm alright
Just know that I am okay
I am not afraid to die
I am not scared of death
I guess we are who we are
I suppose we cannot change our true nature
Headlights shining in the dark night, I drive on
Continuing to move forward despite the darkness surrounding me
Maybe we took this too far
Perhaps we have gone too far in our actions
I want a new life
I desire a fresh start in life
Lyrics © Universal Music Publishing Group, Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC, Kobalt Music Publishing Ltd., Warner Chappell Music, Inc.
Written by: Emile Haynie, Nathaniel Joseph Ruess, Luis Edgardo Resto, Jeffrey Nath Bhasker, Marshall B. Mathers III
Lyrics Licensed & Provided by LyricFind
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me also😍
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