Purpose
Enkay47 Lyrics

If I'm being honest... I'm not a good person
I don't always do the right things, and I'm not proud of it.

Everyone saying I'm great but... they don't know me as a person
People see my achievements but they don't know who I really am.

They don't know me as a person
People see what I show them, not who I really am.

To everybody that's saying I'm worthless, I know I'm worthless
I'm aware of my own shortcomings, don't need others to remind me.

I have to see myself every day, I look inside of the mirror and observe it
I am introspective and reflective of my own actions and flaws.

You don't deserve this, nobody's perfect
No one deserves to be judged, since we all have flaws.

Yeah, I know I smile a lot but... that's on the surface
My happy face doesn't always represent how I feel inside.

What's under the surface?...
There are things about me that I keep hidden below the surface.

And that's when I turn to the bottle
When my emotions get overwhelming, I try to escape through alcohol.

If you saw inside of me I would be hollow
There are times when I feel empty inside.

And I'm doing all of this shit for a following That doesn't care about me or my problems and
I'm striving for a social media following who don't actually care about who I am or what I'm struggling with.

I know that one day that I'll finish college and I'm not the type to ever get a scholarship
I know that I'll graduate from college without getting scholarship since I'm not that kind of exceptional.

That doesn't mean that I don't try my hardest with Everything that I do, I'm just an artist And lately I...
Just because I'm not naturally gifted doesn't mean I don't work hard at everything, particularly as an artist.

I don't know my purpose I've been feeling worthless Every night I go to bed and know I don't deserve this Is life really worth it?
I'm struggling to find my purpose in life and every night I feel unworthy and uncertain if life is worth it.

We see these celebrities and we Thinking they're perfect... ain't nobody perfect Everybody's hurting
We often idealize celebrities as perfect, but everyone has their own pain and struggles.

I've had my ups, and I've had my downs One minute I smile, the next then I frown
I've had both good and bad times in life, often fluctuating between happy and sad.

And no I ain't seeing no love in my town I bet that'll change when I get the crown
I feel unappreciated in my hometown but I hope to gain recognition and love when I become successful.

Where are my friends why ain't they around They're busy as fuck but they're saying they're proud
My friends are distant as they're busy, but they support and root for me privately.

I know how to swim but I feel like I'd drown I'm getting deep in this bottle of crown
I know how to cope with my problems, but I feel overwhelmed and end up drinking alcohol to ease the pain.

I wanna change, but I don't know how It's kind of ironic I sing about how I know you can pick yourself up when you're down I cannot pick myself up when I'm down
I want to improve myself but I struggle to find motivation, despite singing about it in my music.

And I feel like I'll never make it, I hope and I pray but even as I say This, yo I feel like I have been drowning!
I'm scared I won't achieve my goals, despite hoping and working for them. It feels like I'm struggling and barely staying afloat.

I know I'm hopeless I know I'm broken Why the fuck you think you need to remind me?
I'm aware of my own flaws and don't need others to point them out.

Dammit I wrote this with my emotions I don't need you to believe in me, I will be Fine on my own
I wrote this song as an outlet for my emotions, not for anyone else's validation. I believe in myself and my ability to handle things on my own.

Fine by myself I don't need nobody, I don't need help But that's what I say when I lie to Myself... that's what I say when I lie to myself
I tell myself I don't need anyone's help, but deep down I know I sometimes struggle and need support.