Ester Dean (born December 15, 1981) is an American singer-songwriter, and r… Read Full Bio ↴Ester Dean (born December 15, 1981) is an American singer-songwriter, and record producer signed to Zone 4 Records/Interscope Records. She is most notable for U.S. hit single "Drop It Low" in 2009, which featured singer Chris Brown. Dean has also written songs for many artists including Christina Aguilera, Soulja Boy Tell 'Em, Ciara, Rihanna, Usher, and R. Kelly.

Dean was born in 1981, in Muskogee, Oklahoma, then in her late teens, she moved to Omaha, Nebraska after graduating from Omaha North High School, she moved to Atlanta, Georgia, until relocating to Los Angeles, California, where she became a successful songwriter, and was introduced to Polow da Don, and later signed to Zone 4 Records/Interscope Records. During her tenure, Dean has amassed a catalog of songs she has written or co-written for other artists, such as Mary J. Blige, Monica, Keri Hilson, Keyshia Cole, Kelly Rowland, Katy Perry, Trey Songz, Christina Aguilera, Usher, Chris Brown, Teyana Taylor, Nicki Minaj among many others.

In 2009, she recorded and released her first single, "Drop It Low" which features singer Chris Brown, off the LeBron James documentary, More Than a Game, which peaked at #38 on the US Billboard Hot 100, becoming her first US Top 40 single. The song received positive reviews, and the song was remixed by artists such as Lil Wayne, Trey Songz and Diddy. She was featured on Nicki Minaj's song Super Bass, a bonus track for the rapper's debut album Pink Friday. The song was received well, with many fans stating it was better than many of the main tracks, and should've been on the standard album, and was good enough to be a future single.

Dean is currently working on her debut studio album set to be released in the first quarter of 2011.

Love Suicide
Ester Dean Lyrics

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Our love suicide
Our love suicide
Our love suicide

Ah, love suicide is killing me,
You’re getting into my head like a guillotine,
You’ve got me grasping for air in your
And now you’re saying some things

That you don’t really mean, that’s really mean,
How the hell I’m cut up between?
I forgot, trying not to intervene,
Putting up a fight like it ain’t a thing to me!
I swear it’s gotta be the worst position to be in, be in,
I guess you thought like you’ve been ignored,
And the ? turning to a jigsaw,
Cause when you’re down you gotta let
And we just can’t seem to find time to sit and talk,
I know she is in shock!
Ah, what happens when the hourglass of love runs out?
Under one roof and one house,
And everything becomes so cold,
Baby, that’s the only thing I wanna know!

Tell me the reason why
You commit a love suicide
I think you want our love to die
You did it on purpose
I'm all out of tears
Tell me get outta here
You made it very clear

You did it on purpose
Our love suicide
Our love suicide
Our love suicide

I feel like I’m about to break down,
Why you’re acting like kid up on the playground?
If you gonna sat on your mind, why don’t you let it out?
So the end of us is coming any day now, any day!
I thought we’d never separate,
I could be the.. but no defeated on the…
You know is probably for the best, anyway,
Cause my suspicions now…
What happens when the hourglass of love runs out?
Under one roof and one house,
And everything becomes so cold,
Baby, that’s the only thing I wanna know!

Tell me the reason why
You committed a love suicide
I think you want our love to die
You did it on purpose
I'm all out of tears
Time to get outta here
You made it very clear

You did it on purpose, purpose
Our love suicide
Our love suicide
Our love suicide
Why would you hurt us?
Our love suicide
Our love suicide
Our love suicide

Does it make you happy to see me down?
Does it make your day to see me drown?
I guess I'm your entertainment
You don't know what you wasted
But soon you will see!

What happens when the hourglass of love runs out?
Under one roof and one house,
And everything becomes so cold,
Baby, that’s the only thing I wanna know!

Tell me the reason why
You committed a love suicide
I think you want our love to die
You did it on purpose!
I'm all out of tears
Time to get outta here
You made it very clear

You did it on purpose, purpose!
You did it on purpose, purpose!
You made me feel worthless, worthless
Why would you hurt us, hurt us!
You did it on purpose, purpose!
You did it on purpose, purpose!
You made me feel worthless, worthless
Why would you hurt us, hurt us!

What happens when the hourglass of love runs out?

Under one roof and one house,
And everything becomes so cold!

Overall Meaning

The song "Love Suicide" by Ester Dean (Feat. Chris Brown) is about a relationship that is falling apart as a result of the two partners hurting each other intentionally. The title "Love Suicide" represents the idea that the couple's love is the cause of their downfall. The singer laments the fact that they are both hurting each other and questions why his partner is doing this.

The lyrics of the song speak to the pain of the situation and clarify that the singer is hurt and confused by his partner's behavior. He is in a difficult position and finds it hard to navigate their relationship when trust has been broken. There is also a sense of resignation in the song as he contemplates the end of their relationship, as he believes that their love has run out.

Overall, "Love Suicide" is a song that explores the complexity of a relationship in trouble, where both partners are hurting each other. It is a powerful ballad that expresses the feelings of the singer with honesty and vulnerability.

Line by Line Meaning

Our love suicide
The destruction of our love.

Ah, love suicide is killing me,
The ending of our love is causing pain and suffering.

You’re getting into my head like a guillotine,
You are affecting my thoughts in a way that feels harmful and irreversible.

You’ve got me grasping for air in your
You have left me feeling suffocated and trapped.

And now you’re saying some things
Your words are causing confusion and hurt.

That you don’t really mean, that’s really mean,
Your hurtful words are not genuine and are cruel.

How the hell I’m cut up between?
I am feeling stuck in a difficult situation that I do not know how to resolve.

I forgot, trying not to intervene,
I have forgotten how to get involved or take action without causing further harm.

Putting up a fight like it ain’t a thing to me!
I am fighting hard to keep our love alive despite the challenges we are facing.

I swear it’s gotta be the worst position to be in, be in,
The current situation feels like the most difficult position I have ever been in.

I guess you thought like you’ve been ignored,
You feel like your needs and concerns have not been acknowledged or addressed.

And the ? turning to a jigsaw,
Our relationship is becoming more complicated and difficult to understand.

Cause when you’re down you gotta let
When you are feeling low, you need to reach out for support and help.

And we just can’t seem to find time to sit and talk,
We are struggling to communicate and make time for each other.

I know she is in shock!
You are feeling surprised and upset by the current situation.

Tell me the reason why
Please explain why you did what you did.

You commit a love suicide
You intentionally caused harm and destruction to our relationship.

I think you want our love to die
Your actions are suggesting that you no longer want our relationship to continue.

You did it on purpose
You intentionally caused pain and destruction to our relationship.

I'm all out of tears
I have cried so much that I am no longer able to express my emotions in tears.

Tell me get outta here
Please leave and give me space to process my emotions.

You made it very clear
Your actions have made it obvious that our relationship is over.

Our love suicide
The end of our love.

I feel like I’m about to break down,
I am on the verge of an emotional breakdown.

Why you’re acting like kid up on the playground?
Your behavior is childish and immature, like that of a child on a playground.

If you gonna sat on your mind, why don’t you let it out?
If you have something to say, why are you holding it back and not expressing yourself?

So the end of us is coming any day now, any day!
Our relationship is going to end very soon, possibly any day now.

I thought we’d never separate,
I never thought that our relationship would end or that we would separate.

I could be the.. but no defeated on the…
I could have been successful in many ways, but I have been defeated by the end of our relationship.

You know is probably for the best, anyway,
You know that ending our relationship is likely the best thing for both of us, despite the pain it may cause.

Cause my suspicions now…
My fears and suspicions about our relationship have been confirmed.

Does it make you happy to see me down?
Are you enjoying seeing me sad and hurt?

Does it make your day to see me drown?
Are you finding pleasure in watching me suffer?

I guess I'm your entertainment
My pain and suffering seems to be amusing or entertaining to you.

You don't know what you wasted
You do not realize or appreciate what you had before it was gone.

But soon you will see!
You will soon come to realize the true value of what you lost.

You made me feel worthless, worthless
Your actions made me feel like I am not valuable or important to you.

Why would you hurt us, hurt us!
Why did you choose to cause us pain and suffering?

You did it on purpose, purpose!
You intentionally and willingly caused harm and destruction to our relationship.

Our love suicide
The end of our love.

Why would you hurt us?
Please explain why you chose to cause pain and destruction to our relationship.

Our love suicide
The end of our love.

And everything becomes so cold!
Our relationship has become cold and distant.

Lyrics © Universal Music Publishing Group, Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC, Peermusic Publishing
Written by: ESTHER DEAN, AMUND BJORKLUND, CHRISTOPHER MAURICE BROWN, MIKKEL STORLEER ERIKSEN, TOR ERIK HERMANSEN, ESPEN LIND, PATRICK JUNIOR CHUKWUEMKA OKOGWU

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