Beats for the Times
Evan Lyrics

Yesterdays over
The past is behind me

But I'm feeling that it's not okay
However, I sense that something is wrong

You say you don't know her
You claim to be unfamiliar with her

But I'm hearin' its a different way
But others tell me otherwise

You know I always thought you loved me
I believed you truly cared for me

'Cause you told me it was so
Because you explicitly expressed your love

Well I thought I knew the difference
I believed I could distinguish

Between hopes to lose
Differentiating between desires to let go

And lies and truths
And falsehoods and realities

But now I know they're all the same
But now I realize they are indistinguishable

Chorus

I'm trying to pretend that this isn't real
I'm attempting to deceive myself into believing this is not happening

I'm trying to comprehend how you make me feel
I'm struggling to understand the emotions you evoke in me

I ask myself is this what I really need
I question if this is truly what I require

I'm begging on my knees cause you make me plead
I'm pleading desperately because of your actions

Just figure it out
Please understand the situation

'Cause time's a wastin' so quickly
Because time is passing swiftly

But I'm tired of you
Yet, I am fatigued by your presence

I need some time for me
I require personal time to reflect and recharge

Reachin' for the sunshine
Yearning for happiness and positivity

In the corner of my cold dark room
In the isolated space of my gloomy existence

Its there but won't be mine
It is present, but I cannot attain it

So I guess I'll have to call back soon
Therefore, I suppose I must try again later

So I tried to find the answers
Thus, I attempted to discover the solutions

To just what did I do wrong
To understand precisely my mistakes

But I came back empty handed
Yet, I returned without any answers

Cause I just can't win
Because I seem to always lose

I'm lost in sin
I am engulfed in wrongdoing

But now I know that nothings worth this
However, now I comprehend that nothing is worth this agony

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I'm on the edge
I am on the verge

I can't pretend
I cannot feign

That I've got it figured out
That I have solved it all

You won't understand
You will not comprehend

It's not the end
This is not the conclusion

But I'm tired why can't you see?
Nevertheless, I am exhausted, why do you fail to perceive it?

I'm tired of you; I need some time for me
I am weary of your presence, I crave solitude and self-reflection

Repeat Chorus