Her self-titled debut album was released on Friday, November 30, 2018, shortly following lead single "Romance," released the previous Tuesday.
Speaking about the new record, Elena said: “Although the record is written for someone, a lot of the time it’s about the space without that person in it. In every scenario, there’s either the person in memory or the noticeable absence of that person in the present moment. I suppose it is a break-up record, however I do not talk about the relationship at all, and he hardly features in the scenes. He is only felt as a ghostly presence.”
My Heart
Ex:Re Lyrics
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And you mocked all my words
I knew then you were worse, you'd forgotten to love
In your hands, in your hands, my heart
And the sun was unclean
And the morning was same
Contorting in the dark
The first of the stars, too bright for your eyes
And in your hands, my heart
And the morning's your curse
And the sun's still unwashed
Oh, we loved till it hurt
It was crushing me, love
In the night, I knew was the last
In your hands, in your hands, my heart
And, of course, you went there
Like vertigo on a bridge
That river drunk howling like dogs
And I'm running on fumes spat flames till it scarred you
Fall away, go find your escape route
In your hands, in your hands, my heart
When you sheltered yourself
And cut off the phone
Well, I knew then you weren't hurt
You've forgotten how to love back
Oh the artist shall suffer
'Cause he's scratching his back
Till there's blood on his nails
Will you make yourself ill with the lies that you tell?
Still, in your hands, in your hands, my heart
My heart, my heart, my heart
The lyrics of Ex:Re's song "My Heart" convey a story of a relationship that has fallen apart due to one partner's inability to love. The first verse begins with the singer knowing that there is something wrong with their partner, who mocks and dismisses their plans and words. The partner has "forgotten to love," which has left the singer's heart in their hands. In the second verse, the morning sun is "unclean," and the bedroom is a painful reminder of their broken love. The singer reflects on the last night they spent together and knows that it was the end. The partner went away, leaving the singer alone with nothing but their crushed heart.
The chorus describes the partner's escape as "vertigo on a bridge," while the singer is running out of fuel and "spat flames till it scarred" their partner. The partner has left with their heart still in their hands, and the singer is left with nothing but the pain of lost love. The final verse talks about the lies that the partner continues to tell themselves to avoid facing the truth about their inability to love. The singer acknowledges that the artist, like themselves, will suffer for chasing something that will leave them with nothing but bloody nails. Despite all of this, the partner still has the singer's heart in their hands.
Overall, "My Heart" portrays the sadness and pain of a love story that has gone awry. It speaks to the universal experience of a relationship failing due to one partner's inability to give and receive love.
Line by Line Meaning
When you laughed at my plan
I realized you had no interest in supporting me or being in a loving relationship when you laughed at my plan.
And you mocked all my words
By mocking my words, you revealed your lack of respect for me and our relationship.
I knew then you were worse, you'd forgotten to love
Your behavior made it clear that you no longer knew how to love and had become something worse than your former self.
In your hands, in your hands, my heart
Despite all this, my heart was still in your possession.
And the sun was unclean
The world around us had become tainted and unclean, just like our relationship.
And the morning was same
Each day felt the same as the last -- hopeless and full of pain.
Contorting in the dark
We were both twisting ourselves into knots, trying to make our doomed relationship work.
And the bedroom you made
Even the space where we once shared love and intimacy had become a cold, dark, and unpleasant place.
The first of the stars, too bright for your eyes
You couldn't handle the beauty and intensity of our love and abandoned it instead.
And in your hands, my heart
Despite your rejection of our love, my heart remained in your hands.
And the morning's your curse
Waking up only reminded us both of the pain we were experiencing.
And the sun's still unwashed
The world continued on, unwashed and unchanged, while we remained stuck in our misery.
Oh, we loved till it hurt
Our love was painful and caused us both great suffering.
It was crushing me, love
The weight of our love, and its failure, was bearing down on me heavily.
In the night, I knew was the last
During our final night together, I knew it was the end of our relationship.
And, of course, you went there
You did exactly what I feared you would do -- you walked away from our love.
Like vertigo on a bridge
Your departure felt just like the dizziness and disorientation of vertigo while standing on a high bridge.
That river drunk howling like dogs
As you left, it felt like the world was in chaos and tumultuous like a drunk river with howling dogs in the distance.
And I'm running on fumes spat flames till it scarred you
In my distress over losing you, I lashed out and burned you with my words.
Fall away, go find your escape route
I knew it was time for you to leave and find a way to escape from our failed relationship.
When you sheltered yourself
You withdrew from the world, hiding and protecting yourself from the pain of our separation.
And cut off the phone
You went so far as to cut off communication with me, severing our relationship completely.
Well, I knew then you weren't hurt
Your actions made it clear that you weren't actually hurt by our breakup, just relieved to escape it.
You've forgotten how to love back
Your lack of empathy and efforts to protect yourself revealed you had forgotten how to love and be in a loving relationship.
Oh the artist shall suffer
As an artist, I know the pain and suffering that can come from creating and expressing oneself.
Till there's blood on his nails
Our relationship had become painful and difficult to maintain, like an artist scraping his nails until they bleed to create a masterpiece.
Will you make yourself ill with the lies that you tell?
Would you rather keep lying to yourself about your feelings and continue making yourself ill, or would you rather face the truth about our relationship?
Still, in your hands, in your hands, my heart
Despite everything that has happened, my heart remains in your hands, still hoping for love and healing.
My heart, my heart, my heart
My heart is the only thing of value that I have left, and it still longs for your love and warmth.
Lyrics © Universal Music Publishing Group
Written by: Elena Tonra
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