The band released its first demo in 2001, which caught the attention of Lee Barrett and the band was quickly signed onto Elitist Records, a branch of the infamous Earache. The bands debut album A Warm Glimpse was released in the year 2003. It turned out to be a success, especially among the progressive metal circles, and Farmakon was widely noted by the metal press as a band to keep an eye out for.
Farmakon was signed onto by the Finnish FS Records after Elitist Records came crashing down. The band's second album Robin was released in early 2007. The album continues with the band's trademark twist, but also introduces a darker and more focused side of Farmakon.
In 2010 they split-up.
Band line-up (as of october 2007):
Marko Eskola - Vocals
Toni Salminen - Guitars
Pekka Kauppila - Bass
Riku Airisto - Drums
Pearl of My Suffering
Farmakon Lyrics
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I have no chance but to turn back
I'll face what I was bound to before
Whatever the sickness might be
I don't mind
I'll face the void ahead
And I'm the one trying to pry it open
I'll face the fact that I've come too far
All my of my life,
I have surrounded myself with emptiness
I'll face my overwhelming loneliness
Hold tight, inner strength
Or the line that still holds me
I'll face the thing that's embracing me
I'll change my destination
I'll trade the force that's pulling me
I'll face my final destitution
When I'll fall
I will force myself to fly
I'll face the divine might deep inside
After the night of my soul
After the new dawn
I'll face the pearl of my suffering
The opening lines of the song, "Knowing that I'm all lost now, I have no chance but to turn back, I'll face what I was bound to before," indicate a state of realization and acceptance by the singer. Despite being lost, there is a sense of determined resignation that allows him to face whatever situation he is in. The lines that follow, "Whatever the sickness might be, I don't mind, I'll face the void ahead," epitomize his resolution to face the challenge head-on, even if it may be difficult. The track's lyrics conveys the idea of coming to terms with one's past, reconciling with it, and finding closure in one's suffering.
Later on, the singer describes his sense of loneliness and abandonment, "All my of my life, I have surrounded myself with emptiness, I'll face my overwhelming loneliness," which highlights the bleakness that one may feel as a result of self-imposed isolation. However, the song's tone shifts towards a more positive outlook as the singer urges himself to "hold tight, inner strength, or the line that still holds me," indicating that there is hope amid the despair. The song concludes with the line, "After the night of my soul, after the new dawn, I'll face the pearl of my suffering," suggesting that the singer has found meaning and resilience in his ordeals and is poised to emerge stronger because of it.
Line by Line Meaning
Knowing that I'm all lost now
I am aware that I am completely lost and directionless.
I have no chance but to turn back
I am left with no option but to go back to where I came from.
I'll face what I was bound to before
I will confront whatever I was destined to face earlier in life.
Whatever the sickness might be
No matter how dire the situation may seem.
I don't mind
I am unaffected by the gravity of the ordeal.
I'll face the void ahead
I will confront the abyss of the unknown future.
There's a window between me and who I was
I feel like there is a gap between my current self and my past self.
And I'm the one trying to pry it open
I am the only one attempting to break through that barrier.
I'll face the fact that I've come too far
I will acknowledge that I have come a long way from where I started.
All my of my life,
Throughout my existence.
I have surrounded myself with emptiness
I have occupied myself with a lack of meaning and purpose.
I'll face my overwhelming loneliness
I will confront the overpowering feeling of being alone.
Hold tight, inner strength
I must hold on to my inner strength.
Or the line that still holds me
Or the last remaining hope that keeps me going.
I'll face the thing that's embracing me
I will confront whatever is holding me back.
I'll change my destination
I will redirect myself to a new goal.
I'll trade the force that's pulling me
I will give up the current force that is driving my actions.
I'll face my final destitution
I will confront my ultimate downfall.
When I'll fall
When I am defeated and broken.
I will force myself to fly
I will push myself to pick myself back up and rise above the situation.
I'll face the divine might deep inside
I will confront the sacred, powerful force inside me.
After the night of my soul
After a period of deep darkness and struggle with my inner self.
After the new dawn
After a refreshing new beginning.
I'll face the pearl of my suffering
I will confront the valuable lesson or growth that came from my painful experiences.
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