Oceans
Fear and Wonder Lyrics

I stopped making deals with God
I stopped bargaining with the divine

Right around when you left
After you departed, I lost my inclination to ask for divine interventions.

I said that I would start believing
I promised to have faith if I got back what I lost.

If they made you well again
If only they could cure you of your illness.

Guess they knew it was bullshit
Perhaps they've realized the empty nature of my promises.

Never hold up my end
I always fell short of fulfilling my vows.

All the walls are stained in your nicotine
Everything around me reminds me of you and your habit.

I could feel closing in
I feel suffocated and trapped by your absence.

I heard somebody cry
I realized I'm not the only one who's suffered.

I thought I was alone
I felt isolated in my despair.

I came to numb my lungs in the salt air
I went to the beach to forget my pain by breathing salty air.

Let the breakers heal my bones
I hope that the waves can wash away the hurt and heal me.

I wish that the current would carry me home
I hope the tide takes me where I can be at peace, far from my troubles.

I've been running for a decade now
I've been evading my pain and fears for a long time.

And I think I'm ready to go
Now, I feel like I am ready to face my challenges instead of escaping.

Oh, I'm ready to go
I am eager to face my problems without fear or avoidance.

When the light finally died
When all hope is gone.

I'm gonna guard what's left of the good in us
I'll do my best to preserve the remaining positive things in our relationship.

When the ash blocks out the sky
When the world becomes unrecognizable and grim.

And hold you with my left hand
I vow to be there for you unconditionally if you are still alive.

And ball up my right
I'll be ready to fight anyone who tries to harm us.

And if the bastards come for both of us
If evil forces threaten to destroy us.

I'll be right there by your side
I will remain a loyal partner by your side in the face of adversity.

When I was in shambles
When I was in ruins.

When I got too weak
When I was too frail to carry on.

The ocean grew hands to hold me
The sea became my savior and shelter.

I stopped blaming God
I don't assign any blame to higher powers anymore.

When you said you were sick
When you revealed your ailment to me.

I learned to lean on the people who love me
I found support and comfort in the kindness of loved ones.

When the sutures start to split
When my attempts to mend the relationship fail.

I trust in the current to pull you back in
I hope our future together will be pulled by our love and shared experiences.

I miss everyone at once
I long for everyone I've lost in my life, all at once.

But most of all, I miss the ocean
I yearn to be embraced again by the restorative power of the sea.