Fairytale
Ferguson Rebecca Lyrics

OK so I call about a thousand times
Despite constantly calling and waiting outside for you, you don't seem to have time for me.

I wait outside and I join the line
I'm hoping to be noticed and get the chance to talk to you.

With a million girls that are just like me, ooh
I'm just one of many girls who are all vying for your attention.

I got your name saved on my screen
Your name appears frequently on my phone and computer.

It says how much that you love me
Your messages and posts make it seem like you care about me deeply.

And I know that it's not a dream
Despite the fantastical idea of you and me being in love, I know that it's just a delusion.

It's like I keep on giving with nothing in return
I put a lot of effort into our one-sided relationship without receiving any reciprocation.

Just a constant burning
It hurts to continually feel like I'm not good enough for you.

I'll never learn
Despite the disappointment, I can't help but keep holding onto the hope that you'll love me back someday.

But let me just fairytale that we are in love
It's easier to pretend that we're in a loving relationship than to face the harsh reality that we're not.

I'd rather live my life this way
I prefer to escape into my perfect fairytale rather than confront the heartbreak of reality.

I close my eyes and you kiss me
In my imagination, we share a deep connection and affection.

You say how much that you miss me
You express emotions towards me that you, in reality, don't actually feel.

And no one compares to what we've got
I believe that our imaginary relationship is superior to any actual connections in my life.

Then I wake up and it's just a dream
Reality hits hard when I realize that what I had imagined was only a fantasy.

Somehow I wish it was reality
The disappointment of waking up from my imaginary world is overwhelming - I would give anything for it to really come true.

Trying to deal with the fact it's not
It's a struggle to accept that what I want so badly doesn't exist.

And I ain't ever gonna learn 'cause
Despite the cycle of disappointment and heartbreak, I know deep down that I won't ever stop hoping for something more.

I keep on giving with nothing in return
I keep pouring my heart out to you, but you never give me the validation and affection I need.

It's my life anyway
Despite the disappointment, I'm going to continue living my life and holding onto my fairytale, as it's the only thing that brings me some semblance of happiness.