Eclipse
Final Fantasy XIII-2 Lyrics

Feel it every night
I experience this feeling of despair every night

Nothing is alright
Everything is wrong and nothing is going well

I just wanna die
I feel so overwhelmed that I desire to end my life

I'm losing this fight
I am being defeated in my struggle against these overwhelming emotions

Gamble with my life as I throw in my chips
I am taking risks with my own life, like a game of chance

She closes her eyes while I'm holding her hips
In moments of intimacy, she closes her eyes and I hold her tightly

Not sure if this is right but I'm hoping it is
I'm uncertain if what I'm doing is correct, but I hope it is

My lights gone dark it's a solar eclipse
My inner light has faded, symbolized by a solar eclipse

Feel it every day but the pain don't go away
I experience this pain and despair every day, and it never subsides

Stays in my brain so I pray and I hope for change
The pain remains in my mind, so I pray and hope for something to change

Try to explain but they say you're okay though man
When I attempt to express my struggles, people dismiss my feelings and claim I'm fine

I can't be okay when these chains hold my like a slave
I cannot be okay when I feel trapped and constrained like a slave

I'm a slave to my guilt I'm slave to my stress
I am controlled by my feelings of guilt and stress, unable to break free

I'm a slave to the weight putting pressure on my chest
I am enslaved by the heaviness and pressure weighing on my chest

I'm a slave to the grind I'm a slave to my mind
I am enslaved to the relentless work and to my own thoughts

I'm a slave to time like I'm never gonna rest
I am enslaved by time, feeling like I will never find rest or peace

Other times I feel that I rest too much
At times, I feel guilty for taking time to rest and relax

Like I'm a fail if I don't get stuff done
I believe I am a failure if I am not constantly accomplishing tasks

Gotta be productive to measure up
I feel the need to be constantly productive in order to meet expectations

To my own standards to get better yuh
I strive to improve and meet my own standards of success

But am I getting better 'cause I feel worse
I question whether I am truly making progress because I still feel worse

I backtrack back yeah living in reverse
I find myself going backward, reliving previous mistakes and regrets

'Bout to drop the world like this Rebirth
I am on the verge of giving up and letting go of everything

But not on your head I mean leave Earth
I don't mean to burden others, but rather to remove myself from this world

The darkness creeps and I feel beat
The darkness and despair slowly overwhelm me, making me feel defeated

I cannot sleep when do I dream
I struggle to find restful sleep, and even when I do, I am plagued by distressing dreams

Honestly I want to scream
Honesty, I have a strong desire to scream and release my emotions

But if I do they'll know it's me
I fear that if I express my pain, others will discover my true struggles

I don't want them to know that I struggle though
I don't want others to be aware of the difficulties and challenges I face

The pain I cannot show I'm tryna be humble yo
I conceal my pain and try to appear humble and composed

Wonder if they find out will they love me or
I wonder if others would still love and accept me if they knew the truth

Will they just clown me and say your troubled bro
Or would they just mock and belittle me, dismissing my problems

I mean I am but not like that
I acknowledge that I do struggle, but it's not the way they imagine

I can't describe when I get mad
I struggle to articulate my emotions when anger takes over

The anger comes out but really I'm sad
Behind the anger, deep down, I am truly filled with sadness

You'll never understand why I write these raps
Others will never comprehend the reasons why I express myself through rap

So I'll just laugh and hold it back
To cope, I put on a facade, pretending to laugh and suppressing my true emotions

And act like I never wrote this track
I pretend as if I never wrote this honest piece of music

But when I'm alone where no one's at
But when I am in solitude, away from others' judgment

It's a solar eclipse 'cause the sun goes black
I experience a metaphorical solar eclipse where my inner light disappears