Devil's Bread
Flame Lyrics

I can't ignore it man
I am unable to overlook this matter, man

No
There is nothing further to be said about this

Man
Addressing another individual or emphasizing a point

I don't wanna put away
I do not wish to abandon this desire or action

But I don't want to ruin my life
However, I am mindful of the possibility of damaging the course of my existence

I'm trying to live my own theology but I'm still confronted by my own hypocrisy
I aspire to follow a distinct set of beliefs, yet I am frequently met with my own inconsistency

I've lost count of all the ways I contradict the things I say in things I pray
My numerous contradictions of my spoken and prayed words are countless and increasingly hard to track

And when I recite from my own Bible against my own Christ
During times when I read, speak, or repeat passages from my Bible, it may seem that I am going against the teachings of Jesus Christ

Man I love Him to the core but it's still a struggle trying to love Him even more
My affection for him is profound, yet I'm still wrestling with the challenge of loving him more deeply

Yes I wanna finish well never bring shame
My desire is to conclude life triumphantly without disgrace

And never sprinkle dirt on the son of God's name
I pray to never belittle or disrespect Jesus Christ in any way

I wanna stand firm I wanna end strong
I wish to remain unwavering and persistent, finishing my course resiliently

But I be so afraid that I'm gonna end wrong
Despite my aspirations, I am sometimes afraid I might conclude fatefully

And provide for my self again and supply for my selfish sin
I can be susceptible to nourishing my own greedy and sinful desires

In spite of the knowledge You are a perfect friend
Despite recognizing your perfection, I can still struggle with temptation

Lord hold me up I know You hear me praying saying
I call upon you to provide support and help, and I have faith that you will hear me

How is it that if something being loved with the taste scrape crumbs off the plate
Why is it that even though I enjoyed a meal, I'm still scratching the bottom of the plate?

Let none go to waste keep eating in it eating in it take a drink eating in it
I do not want any portion of this meal to go to waste, so I continue consuming it and drinking from it

Bout a week later put none to your face exact same ingredients numb to the taste
After a few days of consuming the same meal, it becomes unappealing and no longer satisfies my taste buds

Is my tongue in the way am I dark am I fake
I am uncertain whether my attraction to this thing is authentic or merely a shadow of my true intentions

Or am I just exhausted appetite lost it is my heart cold or is it just frosted
I wonder if my lack of interest in this thing is due to fatigue or complacency, or if my heart has turned cold

How long is my crave is is my hunger my thirst is
I do not know for how long I will desire or crave this, if it's truly an emotional or physical need

Having a relapse for idol God worship
I may be returning to a state of idolatry or putting something else above God

I know this is dangerous wrong and deceit but it's looking so sweet like bon-a-petit
I acknowledge that this is harmful and false, but it is so tempting and appears satisfying

I know God is my Father and I am His son
I have an understanding that God is my protector and supporter, and I am his child

He provides for me I should not jump the gun
Because he takes care of me, I should not rush or act too hastily

Said I know this is dangerous wrong and deceit but it's looking so sweet like bon-a-petit
I reiterate my conclusion that this is harmful and dishonest, but its allure is tempting and seems tasty

Voila
Here goes nothing

Then I have to tell myself He was tempted to provide for Himself too
I remind myself that even Jesus Christ was tempted to think of himself purely

Dry desert no food forty days forty nights think His appetite
Amidst harsh, barren conditions and a lack of nourishment, Jesus must have thought of his hunger

Wasn't like Eve's or the Israelites or like yours or like mine
But his condition was distinct from that of Eve, the Israelites, or mine or yours

Then the serpent came right time right lies
At a moment when he was vulnerable and pressed, Satan came with cunning deception

But He chose to be father not fed make the same choice resist the devil's bread
Instead of manifesting his physical needs, Jesus chose to follow the path of fatherhood and avoided temptation, so I will also try to resist deceit and temptation

I don't wanna put away
Once again, I do not want to abandon this desire or action

Don't wanna put away
A repetition of my reluctance to relinquish my desires or actions

I don't want to ruin my life
I reiterate that I am mindful of the risk of damaging the course of my existence