Delusion
Form Rank Lyrics
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More of the same old thing
Always back pedaling
From a nightmarish dream
I can't help but think
I'm the only one that sees
That I'm lost, that I've drowned
And I've really got to get away
I feel better when I feel worse
I feel better when I get what I deserve
When we try it never works
Everyone laughs at these chewed up words
Well I tried to stuff it down
But it would not budge
Well I lied when I said
Nobody needs love
The lyrics of "Delusion" by Form Rank depict a sense of disillusionment and dissatisfaction with the monotony and emptiness of life. The opening lines illustrate a feeling of being trapped in a never-ending cycle, constantly repeating the same actions and routines. The mention of "back pedaling" suggests a struggle to escape a nightmarish existence. The singer acknowledges that they are aware of their own lost state, feeling overwhelmed and suffocated, and desperately needing to break free from their current circumstances.
The song then delves into a contradictory emotional state. The line "I feel better when I feel worse" expresses a paradoxical sensation of finding solace or relief in moments of despair or self-inflicted pain. This self-destructive behavior is further elaborated with the line "I feel better when I get what I deserve," suggesting a belief in deserving punishment or hardship. The lyrics highlight the futility and frustration of trying to change or improve one's situation, as depicted in the line "When we try it never works." This is followed by the perception of others ridiculing the singer's words, indicating a lack of understanding or dismissal of their struggles.
The final lines refer to the difficulty of suppressing one's need for love and affection, even if the singer claims that nobody requires it. This reveals a vulnerability and a longing for connection, despite the facade of independence. The overall interpretation of the lyrics portrays a sense of isolation, disillusionment, and frustration with the repetitive and empty nature of life, as well as the internal conflict of desiring both pain and love.
Line by Line Meaning
Regiment, routine
Stuck in a monotonous and predictable life
More of the same old thing
Continuously encountering similar experiences
Always back pedaling
Constantly retreating or going backward
From a nightmarish dream
Escaping from a frightening and distressing situation
I can't help but think
I am unable to stop considering
I'm the only one that sees
I'm the lone observer of the truth
That I'm lost, that I've drowned
Feeling directionless and overwhelmed
And I've really got to get away
Strongly desiring to escape from it all
I feel better when I feel worse
Finding solace in feeling worse emotionally
I feel better when I get what I deserve
Experiencing relief when facing deserved consequences
When we try it never works
Our attempts always end up in failure
Everyone laughs at these chewed up words
People mock and ridicule these overused expressions
Well I tried to stuff it down
I attempted to suppress it
But it would not budge
However, it refused to move or disappear
Well I lied when I said
In truth, I was dishonest when I claimed
Nobody needs love
No one truly requires affection
Lyrics © DistroKid
Written by: Matthew Davis
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