Confession
G-Whizz Lyrics

Father crying on his knees begging me to stay
My father is upset and begging me not to leave.

Hand in hand cheek to cheek tears down his face
He is crying and holding my hand as tears stream down his face.

When I look up at the sky all i see is grey
I'm feeling hopeless and everything seems bleak.

I know I won't survive if I make all of his mistakes
I've seen how my father's mistakes have affected our family, and I don't want to make the same ones.

But that's the sword i live by so it will defeat me
I know that my decisions and actions will ultimately lead to my downfall.

Don't see no light when I look through the tunnel I see empty
I don't have any hope or optimism for the future.

Ive been caught up in the nonsense that's whats gonna get me
I've been consumed by meaningless things that will be my downfall.

Been in my fair share of problems trust me those were plenty
I've had my share of difficulties and struggles.

And to my mom whose losing sunshine as the days pass
My mother is losing her joy and happiness over time.

Used to feel so sound but when we move she's stumbling in the back
My mother used to be healthy, but now she struggles to keep up when we move.

Bad health fucking round with everything we had
My family's health issues are causing problems for us.

Sad tale it's brought us down a path we can't come back
Our struggles have led us down a path that we can't turn back from.

Can't come back from the despair and all the rough emotions
We can't overcome the negative emotions and feelings of hopelessness that we're experiencing.

Detrimental to our health which makes us lose focus
Our health issues are causing us to lose sight of our goals and priorities.

Just a kid who's got no plan or choice on where I'm going
I'm young and don't have a clear direction or plan for my future.

But I feel closed off from the rest I can't keep my heart open
I feel isolated and disconnected from others, and I can't be vulnerable or open with my emotions.

Dont Worry if we fall
Don't worry if we make mistakes,

In love
In our journey through life.

We will never touch the ground
We will always pick ourselves up and keep moving forward.

Time to talk about my sisters now that's my dilemma
Now it's time to talk about my sisters, which is a difficult topic for me.

They've been in my life for forever since I could remember
My sisters have been a part of my life for as long as I can remember.

I know I'm not the greatest brother wish i could be better
I'm aware that I'm not the best brother and I wish I could do better for them.

I'll be here for you girls from January to December
I'll always be there for my sisters, no matter what time of year it is.

Unfortunately they can't love themselves that great
My sisters struggle with self-love and self-esteem issues.

It's hard when they don't feel like anyone will fill their plate
It's difficult for them when they feel like no one can provide for them emotionally.

I try my hardest to bring light I try through all debates
I do my best to bring positivity and optimism into their lives, even when we have disagreements.

But they're just sick of feeling like they'll never find their way
My sisters are tired of feeling lost and directionless.

But then my grandmother yells and steps up to the stage
My grandmother takes control of the situation and becomes confrontational.

Disrespects my father while she spits all in my mothers face
My grandmother shows disrespect towards my father and is verbally abusive towards my mother.

Big part of why my family doesn't feel okay
My grandmother's behavior is a major factor in our family's unhappiness.

But maybe we're the reasons why we can't become complete
Our family's issues and conflicts may be preventing us from becoming a whole, happy family.

Onto me i feel the guilt is coursing through my veins
I feel guilty and it's weighing heavily on me.

Disrespect my family until they don't look at me the same
My disrespectful behavior has caused my family to look at me differently.

Try to hide behind an front I act like I'm okay
I try to hide my true feelings and emotions from others by pretending everything is okay.

But I don't recognize the man I have become today
I don't feel like myself anymore and I'm not proud of the person I've become.