Pariah
G.P.I Lyrics

To feel non-existent is so hard, hard to abide
It's incredibly difficult to endure the feeling of being invisible and unimportant

Always on my own, it doesn't feel alright
Being constantly alone is not a pleasant or desirable state

I don’t want to feel like this and be normal like everyone else
I don't want to feel empty and insignificant like this, I want to feel like a normal, valued human being

All I feel is emptiness, my self-esteem melts
I only experience a sense of nothingness and worthlessness, my confidence fades away

Always in the shadow, never to be seen
I am constantly overlooked and ignored, never brought into the spotlight

Never in the light, I feel so in between
I am never given the chance to shine, I exist in a gray area

Can you see me
Do you see me for who I really am and recognize my worth?

Can you see what I have become
Are you aware of the person I have transformed into?

Do you hear me
Are you truly listening to what I have to say?

Do you hear what I have to say
Are you paying attention to my words and acknowledging their importance?

Dark is all I see, this life is not for me
I can only see negativity and despair, this existence is not suited for me

How I wished for brighter days
I have longed for better experiences and a more positive outlook on life

I thought of a million ways
I have contemplated countless scenarios and potential solutions

Do I really have to hit rock bottom
Must I reach my lowest point before anything changes for the better?

Before I turn this place into Sodom
Before I become consumed with bitterness and anger towards the world around me

I can’t let go what you did to me and how you made me feel
I am unable to forget or move past the way you treated me and how it affected me

I can’t forget what you did to me, what you did to me
The actions you took against me have left lasting scars on my psyche

I will crawl out of this darkness
I am determined to escape this place of despair and negativity

That is holding, holding me down
These negative emotions are weighing me down and preventing me from making progress

I am so fucking sick of this emptiness
I have had enough of feeling worthless and insignificant

That is bringing, bringing me down
These feelings only serve to deplete my energy and motivation

You can't wear my crown
You are not entitled to the same level of respect or admiration that I have earned for myself

Now you will
Starting now, things will be different for both of us

You will drown, in my misery
You will be engulfed in the same negative feelings that have plagued me for so long

Pay for all the fucking shit you did to me
You will face consequences for the hurtful actions you took against me

Scream and beg, it won’t change a thing
No matter how much you plead for leniency, the outcome will be the same

Drown in my misery
Experience the same painful emotions that I have felt for so long

I’ve had enough
I have reached my breaking point and no longer wish to endure this pain