Stranger
GAIDAA Lyrics

I feel like a stranger
I feel disconnected from myself

trying to face what's left of my own
I'm struggling to confront the parts of myself that remain

And there is no later
I can't wait any longer to make changes

Too many changes
I'm going through a lot of transformations

I'm trynna grow
I'm trying to improve myself

I thought I knew
I believed I had everything figured out

All the colours and the hues
All of the complexities that make up life

Thought I had it figured out
I felt confident that I understood my life

Cause in my head it seemed so true
Because I believed it to be true in my mind

But I really don't
But now I realize I didn't know as much as I thought

There's so much left untouched
There are many things I have yet to explore or uncover

Still figuring out what
Still learning about myself and my life

But I'm closer than I was
But I've made progress and am more aware of myself

Feel like I stopped running away
I feel like I've stopped avoiding my problems and fears

Once I recognised my own face
Once I became aware of myself and my issues

In too deep
I'm heavily invested in my situation

We're stuck in this maze
We're lost and unsure how to find our way out

Still I don't know what to do oh
Despite being aware of my issues, I'm still unsure of how to handle them

You feel like real life
You feel like the embodiment of everything I want in life

Or my imagination of what real life should be
Or you represent my ideal version of life that I've imagined for myself

Is as clear as the sky could be
You're very clear and distinct in my mind

You the future all I could see
You represent my future goals and aspirations

So who knew you would frighten me
Unexpectedly, you've caused me fear or anxiety

I don't pretend to have the answers
I'm not claiming to know everything

Like talking to sacristies
Like talking to a religious sanctuary (i.e. with reverence and respect)

And I'm usually in your head
I'm often on your mind or in your thoughts

But you're growing a part from me
But now you're becoming more distant from me

I think lately you getting farther and farther apart from me
I feel like we're growing apart more and more as time goes on

And I know I'm a part of you
I know that we're connected in some way

And once you are a part of me
And because you represent my ideal future

A part of me thinks that I'm making excuses
A part of me believes that I'm making excuses for not achieving my goals

Like pardon me
Like I'm begging for forgiveness

For you and for the future you foolish for tarnishing
For not living up to the expectations I've set for you and my future

Im torn apart thinking about independence autonomy
I'm struggling with the idea of being independent and having autonomy

With my head up higher than higher
Despite my struggles, I'm trying to maintain a positive attitude

The ceiling get hard to reach
My goals or aspirations are becoming harder and harder to achieve

Every 3 months you a new person
Every few months I feel like a new version of myself

This feeling is quarterly
I experience this same feeling every few months

Around here it get hard to stay grounded like carpentry
It's difficult to stay focused and grounded in this situation

I lost me once
At some point, I lost touch with myself

It got me feeling like I got an alter ego
It made me feel like I have a split personality

Going till its gone like 1 on 1 it's all for keeps
I'm going to keep going until I achieve my goals, no matter what

A lot of different sides to this story but they all of me
There are many facets to my life and struggles, but they're all a part of who I am