Selfish
GRAACE Lyrics

In the first verse, GRAACE expresses her struggle with finding herself and dealing with the darkness that consumes her when the lights go out. She had hoped that she would be okay and find solace in self-discovery, but instead, she feels like she is living in a personal hell. She contemplates whether time alone could help, as she read somewhere that it might, but it becomes difficult when the lights turn off and she runs out of the pills that might bring her temporary relief. This verse highlights the internal turmoil and loneliness she experiences.

In the second verse, GRAACE shifts her focus to someone else, asking how they are doing and expressing concern particularly for their mother. She also inquires about their panic attacks, wanting to know if they have become easier or harder to deal with. By asking these questions, GRAACE shows that even in her own struggles, she still cares for the well-being of others and maintains a sense of empathy.

The bridge introduces a sense of frustration and loneliness. GRAACE compares the difficulty of finding connection and having meaningful conversations to pulling teeth out, emphasizing the silence and lack of communication she experiences. She confesses to speaking to herself more often, which may give the impression to others that she is going crazy. This suggests that she is craving genuine connection and feels isolated in her experiences.

In the final lines of the song, GRAACE reveals her inner conflict. She asks about the person's job, knowing that they previously expressed dissatisfaction with their boss. However, she admits that it is selfish of her to feel resentful when she sees them smiling, realizing that her own happiness is lacking. By acknowledging her own selfishness, she conveys her struggle with wanting the best for others while simultaneously longing for her own happiness. It showcases her vulnerable and introspective nature as she grapples with her own emotions.