I Tried
Geto Boys Lyrics

She don't want to be with me no mo'
My significant other no longer wishes to be with me.

Ain't her fault she just tired of this dumb shit that she don't know
It's not her fault, she's just tired of the confusion and uncertainty in our relationship.

Whether to, throw in the towel or if he gon' grow
She's hesitant about whether to give up on our relationship or give me a chance to improve.

And if he do, where is he gon' go?
If I do improve, then what's the next step? Where do we go from here?

Got a letter from an old friend, I read it and cried
I recently received a letter from a friend, and upon reading it, I became emotional.

When he told me that his girl just died
He informed me that his girlfriend recently passed away.

Right out of the blue, breast cancer, wasn't nothin to do
Her breast cancer diagnosis was unexpected, and there wasn't anything that could have been done to prevent it.

Now I'm sittin here and thinkin of you
I'm sitting here, thinking about my own relationship and what I could have done differently.

Tryin to come to amends, 'cause really I done wanted you in
I'm trying to reconcile with my significant other because I truly wanted her to be in my life.

You the only one I trust as a friend
I consider my significant other to be my closest friend and confidante.

I know I'm on my last leg limpin with this bullshit written
I acknowledge that my behavior and mistakes have put our relationship in jeopardy.

But I still gotta bring it to light
However, I still think it's important to address these issues and try to make amends.

Spent half of a lifetime missin 'cause I would not listen
I've spent a significant portion of my life missing out on opportunities because I refused to listen or learn from my mistakes.

Confused about my wrong and my rights
I'm unsure about what I've done wrong and what I've done right in this relationship.

They tellin me that time heals wounds though
People often say that time heals all wounds.

This wound gon' need some stitches; I got testimony for niggaz
However, this wound is serious and requires more than just time to heal. I have a story to share with others who may be going through similar experiences.

You doin what you do but when the shoe gets flipped
You may be doing what you think is best, but the situation can quickly change and you could find yourself in a similar situation.

Standin on the other foot got your boots and shit
If you were in my shoes, you would understand how difficult this situation is.

When you back up and analyze, fix shit and finalize
It's important to step back and look at the situation objectively, and then make adjustments and come to a resolution.

Before you leave the shit alone just try
Don't give up on the situation too quickly, rather try to work through it first.

Maybe there's somethin you can do to rectify what's did
There may be a chance to fix what has been done and make things right with the other person.

And plus you gotta think of the kids
It's important to consider the impact that our actions have on any children involved.

That's kinda just the way life is, you either gotta live or you die
Life is unpredictable, and we have to make the most of every moment.

At least that I can say that I tried
Regardless of the outcome, I can say that I tried my best in this situation.

'Cause I tried, I tried to do the best I could
I did my best in this situation.

Sometimes I guess my best ain't good enough
However, my best efforts were not sufficient to achieve the desired outcome.

'Cause when it's over, said shit done
When it's all said and done, the situation will be resolved.

You sittin by yourself mixed up
In the end, it can be a confusing and uncertain time.

Faster than a crackhead, can pawn yo' shit
Things can go downhill very quickly, even faster than a crackhead can sell your possessions.

Willie d'll put a foot in you bitch
I'm willing to take physical action if necessary to protect myself and my interests.

I sold dope, robbed folks, had to make ends meet
I have engaged in illegal activities in the past to make ends meet.

Since 5th grade, I been up in these streets, tryin to get it
I've been hustling and trying to survive since I was in fifth grade.

Raised by a single mother, two sisters two brothers
I was raised by a single mother, along with my two sisters and two brothers.

I used to think she didn't love us
At times, I felt like my mother didn't care about us due to her actions.

'Cause she beat us so much, plus she came home drunk
She often physically disciplined us and would come home intoxicated.

But every now and then she'd knock on wood, and say
However, every once in a while, she would demonstrate her love and concern for us.

I tried to do the best that I could - and I believe her
She expressed that she did her best to raise us, and I trust and believe her.

'Cause she was treated evil out the box
I understand that my mother had a difficult life and was mistreated from the very beginning.

You can't get what you ain't got
She could only give us what she had, and couldn't provide more than that.

Momma I was young, hittin licks, started helpin you out
I was still young and often made bad decisions, but I began to assist my mother financially.

'Bout the closest that you came to a man of the house
I was the closest thing we had to a father figure in the household.

I was talkin back, walkin through the do' gettin smacked
I wasn't always well-behaved and often received physical discipline from my mother as a result.

You used to brag to your friends on how, well I rapped
However, my mother was proud of my passion for rapping and would boast to her friends about it.

We never really got along but when you took sick
We had our differences, but when my mother became sick, I was there for her.

I was at your side 'til you died
I remained by my mother's side until she passed away.

I wasn't the best son but I tried
I didn't always act like the ideal son, but I made an effort to be there for my mother when she needed me most.

I've always been crook, never given up
I've always had a tough upbringing, but I've never given up despite the hardships.

But the past few years has been really rough
However, recent years have been particularly difficult for me.

Felt like givin up a couple of times
At times, I've felt like giving up and ending my struggle.

Take a jump or plant a slug deep, up in my mind
These feelings have driven me to consider drastic measures, even contemplating suicide or violence.

Fuck it I'm dyin, done wit strugglin for mine
Sometimes it feels like the struggle isn't worth it and like I'm going to die trying to get ahead.

Sleepin on fans, knowin there ain't no use to me lyin
I've slept on fans, meaning that I've slept in jail or prison, and I'm not going to lie about it.

Change my name for anonymity's sake
I've changed my name to remain anonymous and avoid scrutiny.

But a four feet dwarf that be on television's hard to miss
However, it's difficult to remain anonymous when I'm a public figure due to my size and appearances on television.

I get pissed over little shit, little shit drive me crazy
I tend to get angry over minor things, which can drive me to the brink of insanity.

Then I start thinkin 'bout my babies
However, when I think about my children, it puts everything in perspective and reminds me why I need to keep going.

I cain't go to jail, I cain't die
I can't afford to go to jail or lose my life, as I have too much at stake and too much to live for.

Who better to teach 'em 'bout this cruel world than i?
I believe that I am uniquely equipped to teach my children about the harsh realities of the world.

Their mommas won't let me see 'em, I still pay my support
Unfortunately, my children's mothers won't let me see them, but I still support them financially.

'Cause once you give life, life is bigger than yours
When you become a parent, your life becomes about your children and their well-being, not just your own.

Maybe I'm not all you expect me to be
Perhaps I don't meet the expectations of others or even myself.

But when it's done and said ultimately, daddy tried
Regardless, I can say that I tried my best as a father and in life.