Chandelier
Gia Lyrics

Party girls don't get hurt
I put on a facade of being a party girl who doesn't let anything affect her, but in reality, I am hurting.

Can't feel anything, when will I learn?
I've become so desensitized to everything that I can no longer feel anything, and I question when I will learn to confront my emotions.

I push it down, push it down
When I sense any feelings coming up, I try to push them down and hide them from myself and others.

I'm the one "for a good time call"
I am the person others call when they want to party and have a good time.

Phone's blowin' up, ringin' my doorbell
I am receiving countless calls and visitors, but they are all superficial and do not fulfill me.

I feel the love, feel the love
Despite the superficiality of these interactions, I still feel some sort of love and connection.

1, 2, 3, 1, 2, 3, drink
I am drowning my emotions and any discomfort with alcohol.

Throw 'em back 'til I lose count
I am drinking excessively until it becomes difficult to keep track of how much I've had.

I'm gonna swing from the chandelier, from the chandelier
I want to live recklessly and take risks, symbolized by swinging from a chandelier.

I'm gonna live like tomorrow doesn't exist, Like it doesn't exist
I want to live in the moment and forget about tomorrow and its consequences.

I'm gonna fly like a bird through the night, feel my tears as they dry
I want to experience the freedom and purity that comes with flying like a bird while still acknowledging and processing my emotions.

But I'm holding on for dear life, won't look down, won't open my eyes
Despite my desire for recklessness, I am still holding on tightly to my current lifestyle and avoiding any self-reflection.

Keep my glass full until morning light, 'cause I'm just holding on for tonight
I am clinging to my current way of life and filling my glass with alcohol to avoid confronting the reality of tomorrow.

Help me, I'm holding on for dear life, won't look down, won't open my eyes
I am crying out for help to escape my current lifestyle, but it is difficult to take that step forward and acknowledge my emotions.

Sun is up, I'm a mess
When I wake up the next day, I am still struggling with my emotions and the reality of my life.

Gotta get out now, gotta run from this
Despite this struggle, I am still trying to escape my emotions and current lifestyle.

Here comes the shame, here comes the shame
As time goes by, I am starting to feel more ashamed about my lifestyle and my behavior towards myself and others.

On for tonight
I continue to put off confronting my emotions and the reality of my lifestyle for another night.

'Cause I'm just holding on for tonight
I am still trying to avoid the reality of tomorrow and holding on to my current lifestyle just for tonight.