Insane
Gnash Lyrics

I drink my coffee in the morning
I engage in routine activities to start my day

I brush my teeth before bed
I maintain basic hygiene in my daily routine

I fake a smile to keep the sad thoughts
I put on a facade of happiness to avoid dwelling on negative emotions

Out of my head
To prevent the sad thoughts from consuming my mind

I sit outside and watch the world spin
I observe the world around me while feeling disconnected from it

I bet you probably moved on
I assume that you have moved on from our past

But I still can't seem to sing
Despite time passing, I am still incapable of expressing myself freely

Hmm, anything but this song
I am tired of this song and its associations, I crave a change

I've asked my therapist, my mom and dad the same
I have sought guidance and validation from my therapist and loved ones

I've asked my friends and fam, they all say I'm to blame
Even my friends and family point out that I am responsible for my own problems

I've spent all this time pretending I'm okay
I have devoted significant time to pretending that I am fine

Well, I'm not okay
The truth is, I am not okay despite my efforts to convince myself otherwise

Today might be the day I go insane
Perhaps today is the day when I reach my breaking point mentally

The day I go insane-ane
The day when my sanity completely unravels

That'll be the day, today might be the day
If it happens, today could be the day

It'll probably be the best day in my life
Ironically, going insane might bring relief from my problems and seem like a positive experience

I'll be rid of all my problems, I'll be rid of my strife
In my insanity, I believe that all my issues and struggles will vanish

And I can't even fix an issue by just sayin' 'Good night'
Merely saying 'Good night' cannot resolve the deep-seated problems I face

And I don't even got to worry if I'm wrong or I'm right
In a state of insanity, the concept of right or wrong becomes irrelevant

And when I argue with my darkest side, it's comin' to light
Engaging in a battle with my own inner demons brings these struggles to the surface

I'd rather have 'em call me crazy, than have another fight with you
I prefer being labeled as crazy than experiencing further conflicts with you

This mind of mine is mine to lose, it's true
My own mind is the only thing I truly possess, and I may be on the verge of losing it

If today's the day I go insane
If today is indeed the day when I lose my sanity

Please tell my mom and dad I'm not in pain
Inform my parents that despite my insanity, I am not experiencing physical pain

And tell my sister not to do the same
Request my sister to avoid following the same path of mental instability

It's just, these lonely days get lonelier with rain
The presence of rain intensifies the loneliness I feel during these isolated days

And then the feelings come and go and pass in waves
Emotions rise and fall in unpredictable patterns, like waves

(pass in waves)
Reiteration that emotions pass through me like waves

And I can feel myself start to get swept away
I sense myself being overwhelmed and carried away by these emotions

(swept away)
Repeated emphasis on being taken away by emotions moving forcefully

I guess if your heart can break, then your head can do the same
Just as emotions can cause heartbreak, the mind can experience a similar breaking point

(do the same)
Reiteration of the mind's capability to break

It's hard to explain
Describing the intricacies of this mental state is challenging

Yeah, it hurts, but it's true, I shouldn't care, but I do
Although it hurts, the truth is I shouldn't care, yet I still do

I hide who I'm inside, like I've got something to prove
I conceal my true self, as if I need to prove something to others

But what I've learnt is that pretending ends up bad for my health
I have realized that pretending and putting up a facade is detrimental to my well-being

What's the point of being if I'm not being myself?
I question the purpose of existence if I am unable to be authentic