Lonely
God Lyrics


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Mountains
As far as the eye can see
My home is nine million miles away
I'm dying of loneliness
All the days and months seem the fucking same
I count the minutes
For another supply ship
Another
Brief interaction
With a human
My body and mind
Continues to shrivel
In the fucking sun
Can I
Believe in myself anymore?
Can I?
Believe in myself anymore?
Forty six more years of this cruel
Punishment
Can I
Believe in myself anymore?
Can I?
Believe in myself anymore?
Forty six more years of this cruel
Punishment
I can't stand this loneliness one more day
Can I believe in myself
Gifted an illusion
But all I wanted was a pardon
I can't stand this loneliness one more day
Can I believe in myself
Little do I know she will become
My salvation
Little do I know she will become
My deliverance
A machine by the name of
Alicia
Eleven months of this bizarre Relationship
She has become
An extension of me
I've grown to love her
Now that I've been granted a pardon
I have become torn
Not enough space on the ship for us all
The pilot reveals she isn't real
Just a lie
This is just a bad dream
And when I awake I'll
Be home on earth




This is just a bad dream
That's what I must continue to tell myself

Overall Meaning

The song "Lonely" is about the emotional turmoil of a relationship that is on the rocks. The lyrics describe a couple who fight and argue but still can't bear the thought of being alone. The singer is well aware of the toxicity of the relationship but can't help but feel the need for their partner's presence in their life. The lyrics also touch upon the vulnerability and loneliness they feel without their partner. They even go as far as to confess that they hate their partner but cannot be alone at this moment. The song showcases how unhealthy relationships can seem impossible to walk away from, even when we know it's better for us.


Line by Line Meaning

Oh Oh Oh
Repetition of the phrase serves as a musical interlude.


Yeah we might fuck around and fight
Our relationship is sometimes tumultuous and argumentative.


But I don't think I should really be alone right now
Despite our issues, I fear being by myself in this moment.


We argue back and forth all the time
Our disagreements are frequent and seem to have no end.


I'm trying but I can't really be alone right now
I'm attempting to make things better, but I still can't bear to be alone.


I try to see from your side
I make an effort to understand your perspective.


You don't get me but bae I need you in my life right now
You may not fully understand me, but I still need you in my life at this moment.


I'm sick and tired of your shit
I'm exhausted from dealing with your negative actions and behavior.


I hate you but I can't really be alone right now
Despite my anger towards you, being alone is not an option for me right now.


Right now right now
Repetition of the phrase serves as a musical interlude.


Okay we're screaming again, don't wanna break down
We're arguing again and I fear our relationship is close to falling apart.


And every time you're upset I wanna see smiles
I want to make you happy, even when you're upset with me.


And yea I'm toxic as fuck but I'm lonely right now
I acknowledge that my behavior can be harmful but I still feel alone.


Cause even though it hurts me I need you
Despite the pain you cause me, I still need you in my life.


And you look right through my heart cause it's see through
You don't truly understand my feelings because they are transparent and easily ignored.


Yeah baby I'm bad and you're evil
Our relationship is complex and both of us may have negative qualities.


But everything's fine when I see you
Despite our issues, when I'm with you, everything seems to be okay.


Everytime I get up, you just knock me back down
Every time I try to move forward, our relationship issues set me back.


On the phone hearing other guys in the background
I suspect you of talking to other men behind my back.


Trying not to hit this pussy boy with these MAC rounds
I'm struggling to control my anger towards the man I suspect you're talking to.


Six-one-nine Ray gun bullets, he get smacked down
A reference to a violent act if the suspected man were to be confronted.


Keep my car at the crib, hey why you gotta act out
I keep my car at home and wonder why you act out in our relationship.


Everything we had, you just threw it in the trash now
Our relationship problems have caused you to disregard everything we've built together.


Left me bitch, I can see you're in your bag now
You left me and seem to be thriving without me.


You made me hate you, and I can't deny it
Your actions have caused me to feel intense hatred towards you.


Everyday fucking and fussing led to the crying
Our everyday fights and disagreements ultimately led to tears.


From the good to bad babe, can we stop lying
We need to acknowledge both the good and the bad in our relationship and stop pretending everything is fine.


I know I hate you, but without you I'm lifeless
Despite my hatred for you, I feel empty without you in my life.


Babe I'm hurting, can you please pick up the phone right now
I'm in pain and need you to talk to me.


I ain't sorry baby, but I can't be alone right now
I'm not sorry for my actions, but I still need you with me.


Can't really be alone right now
Repetition of the phrase emphasizes the singer's inability to be alone.


Oh Oh Oh
Repetition of the phrase serves as a musical interlude.




Lyrics ยฉ O/B/O DistroKid
Written by: Anthony Goff, Michael Jimenez, Roberto Gonzales, Thomas Farris

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@Jeanelle.Mishkina

I was attending church regularly for almost a year and told leadership also I'm struggling and wanted like a mentor or some type of discipleship and they also didn't care enough to help and that never happened.

Jesus also helped me heal because I still love the broken people like myself but come on we need to do better as the body of Christ. When someone needs help and vocalizes, help us.

I recently moved to new city so will look for a new church. I love the bride of Christ, Jesus my Savior died for His church and shed His blood. Although people are unfaithful, Jesus is Faithful.

We may feel lonely sometimes but we are not Alone.

We walk by Faith not by our feelings.

The truth is that The Holy Spirit lives in us.โค

I'll look for a Bible study I love the word!



@tiredofliars

This was also when I learned that the CURRENT BIBLE used to be three separate works. The Holy Torah, The NOT HOLY Hebrew Bible, and The NOT HOLY New Testament. It was Gutenberg who first printed the Catholic Bible, but it is certainly NOT the same bible you read today. Over the last 500 years, since the invention of the printing press, the bible has evolved. Books added and removed depending on who was the MAN OF GOD at the moment. Then the protestant cults started printing their own bibles, saying what THEY wanted them to say. I found out there were not only different versions of The Bible, but that there were HUNDREDS of versions, some no longer printed, but they still existed and called themselves The Holy Word of God. I then studied the History of the Old Testament, when the books originated, etc. Through my search, I discovered that humans have been recording history for almost 6000 years. That we have MILLIONS of books from that long ago, all the way up to when the FIRST Torah was written. Those books are ceramic, stone, clay and wax, but we still have them to this day. Ceramics were used for books all the way up to 100 BC, so parchment didn't replace the old ways immediately, it took time.
In 478 BC. The Hebrew people noticed that great dynasties were being built around them, and people were building cities, with PILLARS and BUILDINGS of BRICK and STONE, and they were writing languages in stone, wax, clay and even Papyrus, and the newest invention, PARCHMENT. They realized that they were a splintering race, with no true HISTORY. So, to preserve their heritage, 40 Rabi from the scattered Hebrew Tribes, got together to initiate the Language of God, and The First Torah using the new technology of PARCHMENT and INK (Ink had been used for almost 1000 years on Papyrus, but despite your god's people leaving Egypt, where papyrus was so valuable it was not exported, not a one of them decided to take any Papyrus with them during the Exodus, despite it being one of the most valuable things around.)
Because until then, all their stories had been handed down by word of mouth, each tribe had found ways to make their tribe more important than the other tribes within their verbal traditions. So, when they all told their versions of the stories handed down from shaman to shaman, uh, excuse me, from Rabi to Rabi, the stories were all DIFFERENT. AND, getting 40 Rabi to agree on anything would have been miraculous indeed! But, they didnโ€™t, which is why you have different versions of the same story told with different details in the Torah just pages from the same story with different details. SOME RABI are very stubborn, so they compromised and used both or sometimes three versions. It is there in your bible, all you have to do is actually read it like a book, and not CHERRY PICK what you want to believe.
Nine months later, they had produced the 22 characters of the Hebrew Language and the first copy of The Holy Word of God, The Torah. That language, does not have any vowels. But, they used variants of 5 letters to use emphasis. Their letters are also their numbers, which is where Gematria comes from. The TORAH was first written in 478 BC. When the 40 Rabi who sat and wrote out for the first time the HOLY LANGUAGE and WORD OF GOD and they set to Velum the words, it just so happened to have occurred just 22 years AFTER the invention of Parchment (Velum is parchment made from 6 week old sheep, so the skin is white and blemish free) You see as nomads they couldn't carry around the most common medium for writing for the prior 3000 years (clay, wax, or ceramic tablets) because they were heavy and cumbersome and often fragile if not made properly (10 commandments). So when parchment was invented it was time for the creator of all to finally have his story told. There were already 3000 years of gods and such having been written about, but the Hebrews had only existed for about 500-700 years at that point, so they hadn't yet written anything.
So, anyway, they also set up the process for copying a Torah (God's Holy Word) IT is something like this.
A child is groomed to become a Rabi, his parents follow god's law and sacrifice their child's life and future to becoming a Rabi. He has to spend years learning to write the letters of God. But, there is a catch, it is not allowed to make a FALSE copy of The Word of God, so they have to spend years learning to draw the letters using utensils which prevent the touching of the surface of the scroll, because it is by that point already considered HOLY. The acolyte spends years copying the Hebrew Bible, which is the stories of the Hebrew People, the books Joshua through Malachi, THESE books are NOT HOLY so they can be copied without concern, many many copies were made, and some of them have mistakes, but the TORAH is different. They learn to make the Holy Pointer that is used once the Scriptures are Complete, a Holy Pointing Hand of pure gold. A writing Brace, a stick with a gold ball on the bottom, so they can brace their hands without touching the HOLY SCROLL. The Holy Stylus that is made from specific wood and tipped with gold. The Holy Ink, made with Holy Ingredients, Lead, Holy Water, Soot from the alter, etc. and Blessed once completed. The Holy Covering for The Torah is also completed. The Torah is NEVER to be touched by human hands once the scroll is blessed to accept the Holy Word of God.
Once the acolyte reaches about the age of 30 or so and have mastered being a scribe, they begin to prepare their own Torah. The skins must be prepared by hand, no mistakes, 54 sheets of perfect velum to accept the Holy Word of God, stitched with HOLY STITCHING and HOLY GLUE into a single scroll of exacting length. They then present the scroll to their Rabi, who must check every page and confirm it is Perfect, that Rabi MUST pass the scroll to at least three other Rabi to have them also approve and then BLESS the scroll to accept the Holy Word of God. The acolyte then carefully copies his Rabi's Torah. Each letter laid perfectly without error, not only looking the same but being placed in the exact same location on the new scroll as on the old scroll. Once he has completed copying the Books of Moses, or The Holy Word of God, he presents the Torah to his Rabi, who checks and confirms that every letter is perfect and in the perfect spot. Once he blesses it, it is passed on to at least THREE more Rabi and up to 30 Rabi, each of which COULD decline the scroll, if it has an error, or a blemish, a fingerprint, too thin a spot, too thick a spot, etc. Once the consecration process is begun, the scroll MUST NEVER BE HANDLED DIRECTLY, because it is holy.
Once the acolyte gets his Torah back with the blessings of at least three Rabi who are not his mentor, he must then painstakingly re-layer each letter exactly on top of the letters he placed before, making the ink thicker. Every letter of the Word of God placed on top of the prior writing, NO MISTAKES ARE ALLOWED. Should a scroll become soiled or corrupted during the process, it must be burned and the process started all over, THERE CAN BE NO MISTAKES IN THE HOLY WORD OF GOD.
Once he has laid it down for a second time, the acolyte presents his Torah for inspection, again no less than 3 and up to 30 Rabi read, approve and bless the scroll. This process is repeated a total of 13 times. Every letter layered, perfectly upon the other, and upon consecration of the scroll on the 13th pass, it becomes a Holy Torah, and the acolyte becomes a Rabi. The Rabi is often well into his forties by this point. The Torah is also supposed to be burned with the body of the Rabi upon his death. That is why so FEW Torah's have ever been found, but many copies of The Bible (Joshua through Malachi) have been found. The Hebrews (Orthodox) claim they have been doing this with The Holy Word of God now for 2500 years, but when that same god sent his son to Earth, he failed to have a single person record ANYTHING about his life while he was alive, leaving it to be written down no less than thirty years after he supposedly died, and as far beyond that date as to be 300 years before the information could be recorded.
Mankind began writing almost 6000 years ago, using clay, wax, and stone, and in all that time up until 478 BC, there was no record of the god of the Jews. (well, there was a god called YHWH who was a minor god of metallurgy to the Canaanites a couple of hundred years before the Hebrews moved into their territory, but that couldn't be YOUR YHWH, right? It was mentioned by a Persian king who was recording the victory over the worshipers of YHWH) HISTORY proves the fallacies, as does the modern Bibles themselves. You cannot easily get to truth by relying on fallacies and fantasies.

NOW, In REALITY, we have the Steele of Hammurabi and it is proven to have been carved by humans 1100 years BEFORE the first Hebrew called himself a Hebrew. But, when God himself decided to carve the ten commandments into stone tablets, they lasted less than one month! HUMAN written laws still exist to this day, but those written by the creator of everything were simply smashed when Moses had a fit! LOL! Does that make sense to ANYONE that a GOD, THE GOD, could carve something and it be so easily destroyed? I mean it works if you believe that god is EVIL, and intended for his laws to be destroyed, and then rewritten, slightly differently, and kills billions, sends plagues on ALL PEOPLE instead of just the one who is doing wrong, but then that one is only doing wrong because God hardened his heart, so where is the SOURCE of the EVIL? Yahweh! Plain and simple. If you READ the Torah, or even one of the over 400 versions of the Protestant bibles, you will see that Yahweh is the most Childish, Stupid, Incompetent, Immoral and EVIL god there ever was.



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@cciggarro

Whoever see's this comment may God bless you and guide you and protect youโค

@emtyy999

God bless, guide and protect you too!โค

@AngelJericho-rd2oq

same to you, may God bless your life so hard

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@johnwillsea6600

He has for much of my life, though a bit more directly in the last 2 years ๐Ÿ˜…. I hope he's done the same for you and will continue to.

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Amen

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@ctgeorgia

My 21 year old daughter...
Her feelings of loneliness have torn her apart. At this very moment she is sitting in a mental health facility broken and in despair. Her entire life she says she has felt lonely. She loves God, but she's never been able to make a friend. She is very quiet, shy, and introverted. She was the girl that nobody ever invited over, the one never invited to the dance, etc. Over the years, I've watched with a broken heart as she tried to make friends...to no avail. She sits in her room each night crying and praying to make friends. Social media makes it even worse as she sees people her age out enjoying each other and living life. Because of her loneliness she feel into deep depression and it has spiraled out of control. She has contemplated suicide and doesn't believe life will ever get better. I pray each day that God intervenes and removes this spirit of loneliness and that she finds some great friends that will love and accept her just the way she is...which is perfect. Thank you, God, for answering my prayers. I know you are in control and have wonderful plans for my girl. In Jesus name I pray, Amen.

@temari105

Oh I empathize with your daughter. In January 2023 I ended up in the mental hospital for suicidal idealations and I felt alone even when I had two friends and my husband. I felt disconnected but God saved me from my loneliess and gave me a friend who walked with Him. Father I pray that you do the same for Your child, show her that she is not alone. Allow her to open up her heart in her community in church. Lord, cover her as she walks through the valley. In Jesus' name, I pray, amen.

@ctgeorgia

@@temari105 Thank you so very much. Reading your note gives me hope for her. I know in my heart that one day she will no longer feel lonely here and that God will put good friends and a good man in her life. It's so hard to watch your child struggle through this. God bless you. ๐Ÿ™

@temari105

@ctgeorgiaย  I will keep you two in my prayers. I pray that you will stay strong, know that God has your daughter in His hands. It might not happen today or tomorrow, but it will happen. Be strong and take care of yourself.

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