Grayson is a non-binary American singer/songwriter who grew up in the Mormo… Read Full Bio ↴Grayson is a non-binary American singer/songwriter who grew up in the Mormon Church. They have been singing in front of audiences since they were three years old. At seventeen they relocated to Seattle where they co-founded the indie synth-pop band Neu Yeuth. A fashion chameleon who changes their look on a weekly basis- they are a social media darling, in-demand model, make-up artist, and fashion stylist. When not collaborating with sought after creatives on various projects they are recording their forthcoming EP. Grayson currently resides in Los Angeles where they enjoy hikes in Elysian Park while trying to perfect their lifelong dream of whistling through their teeth.

Illusion
Grayson Lyrics

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I have
I have a terrible
I have a terrible
I have a terrible feeling
It might be like this forever
I have a terrible feeling
No one will hear me oh
I feel so terrible

Wish I was a child
Not because I hold illusions
Know what it be small
Queer and unloved and unheard oh
But it doesn't feel too different now
I have a terrible
But it doesn't feel too different now
I have a terrible

I can't breathe
My sisters are falling and I can't sleep.
Fire's inside of me
Keeping me warm at night
I can see
No one's protecting me
I don't think you'll hear me but
What is that terrible feeling
Tears streaming down as I'm healing
I am a star that is shooting
But don't they burn out in the
Don't they burn out in the
Don't they burn out in the end?

I have a terrible feeling
It might be like this forever
I have a terrible feeling
No one will hear me oh
I feel so terrible

But it doesn't feel too different now
I have a terrible
But it doesn't feel too different now
I have a terrible

This has been weighing on me
Weighing one me heavy
It's the end of the world and I'm not close to ready

Can't keep my feet steady
Head and my soul sweaty
Don't know what to do with
The fatalist inside me
Outside the air's deadly
Inside my thoughts scare me
End of the world and I'm not close to ready
I have some friends but I don't have too many
It's the end of the world and I'm not close to ready
Don't know if we'll make it out of our twenties

I have a terrible feeling
It might be like this forever
I have a terrible feeling
No one will hear me oh
I feel so terrible

But it doesn't feel too different now
I have a terrible
But it doesn't feel too different now
I have a terrible

But it doesn't feel too different now
I have a terrible

Overall Meaning

The lyrics to Grayson's song "Illusion" convey a sense of overwhelming despair and a feeling of being trapped in a never-ending cycle of pain and loneliness. The repetition of the phrase "I have a terrible feeling" emphasizes the intensity of these emotions. The singer expresses a longing to return to a state of innocence and naivety, symbolized by wishing to be a child again. However, they also acknowledge that even as an adult, the feeling of despair persists, suggesting that life's challenges and disappointments can be reminiscent of childhood hardships.

The song also touches on themes of vulnerability and the fear of not being heard or understood by others. The lines "No one will hear me oh, I feel so terrible" highlight a deep sense of isolation and a lack of support. The singer's struggle to find solace and protection is represented by the imagery of fire inside them, providing warmth but also leaving them feeling alone. The mention of tears streaming down as they heal suggests that this feeling of despair is a part of their ongoing journey of self-discovery and growth.

Line by Line Meaning

I have
I possess

I have a terrible
I possess an extremely unpleasant

I have a terrible feeling
I possess a strong and negative emotion

It might be like this forever
This unpleasant situation could potentially last indefinitely

I have a terrible feeling
I possess a strong and negative emotion

No one will hear me oh
No one will listen to what I have to say

I feel so terrible
I experience great sadness or distress

Wish I was a child
I desire to be a young person

Not because I hold illusions
Not because I have false beliefs or fantasies

Know what it be small
Understand what it feels like to be insignificant or unimportant

Queer and unloved and unheard oh
Different, unloved, and ignored

But it doesn't feel too different now
However, the current situation is not significantly distinct

I have a terrible
I possess an extremely unpleasant

But it doesn't feel too different now
However, the current situation is not significantly distinct

I have a terrible
I possess an extremely unpleasant

I can't breathe
I am unable to inhale and exhale properly

My sisters are falling and I can't sleep.
My female siblings are experiencing decline or failure, and it prevents me from sleeping

Fire's inside of me
There is a burning passion within me

Keeping me warm at night
Providing comfort during the night

I can see
I am able to perceive

No one's protecting me
No one is safeguarding or looking out for me

I don't think you'll hear me but
I do not believe you will listen to me, however

What is that terrible feeling
What is the nature of this intense negative emotion

Tears streaming down as I'm healing
Crying continuously while I am in the process of recovering

I am a star that is shooting
I am like a celestial object that is rapidly moving

But don't they burn out in the
However, don't they extinguish or fade away during the

Don't they burn out in the
Don't they extinguish or fade away during the

Don't they burn out in the end?
Don't they extinguish or fade away eventually?

This has been weighing on me
This has been burdening or preoccupying me

Weighing one me heavy
Pressing down on me heavily

It's the end of the world and I'm not close to ready
The world is coming to an end, and I am not prepared

Can't keep my feet steady
Unable to maintain stability on my feet

Head and my soul sweaty
My head and soul are perspiring

Don't know what to do with
Uncertain about how to handle

The fatalist inside me
The person within me who believes in the inevitability of fate

Outside the air's deadly
The atmosphere is hazardous or lethal

Inside my thoughts scare me
Internally, my thoughts terrify me

End of the world and I'm not close to ready
The world is coming to an end, and I am not prepared

I have some friends but I don't have too many
I possess a few friends, but not an excessive number

It's the end of the world and I'm not close to ready
The world is coming to an end, and I am not prepared

Don't know if we'll make it out of our twenties
Unsure if we will survive beyond our twenties

I have a terrible feeling
I possess a strong and negative emotion

It might be like this forever
This unpleasant situation could potentially last indefinitely

I have a terrible feeling
I possess a strong and negative emotion

No one will hear me oh
No one will listen to what I have to say

I feel so terrible
I experience great sadness or distress

But it doesn't feel too different now
However, the current situation is not significantly distinct

I have a terrible
I possess an extremely unpleasant

But it doesn't feel too different now
However, the current situation is not significantly distinct

I have a terrible
I possess an extremely unpleasant

But it doesn't feel too different now
However, the current situation is not significantly distinct

I have a terrible
I possess an extremely unpleasant

Lyrics © DistroKid, JO RON 2000 PUB
Written by: Ben Dawson-Sivalia, Claire Grayson, Danny Denial, Stepha Murphy

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