Hurt
Gregorian Lyrics

I hurt myself today
I intentionally caused physical pain to myself as a means of confirming that I am still capable of feeling sensations.

To see if I still feel
The pain I inflicted upon myself was an experiment, to verify that my emotions can still be triggered by physical stimuli.

I focus on the pain
The only subject on which I choose to concentrate my thoughts is the physical discomfort that I am experiencing.

The only thing that's real
The pain is the tangible truth in my life, everything else may be illusionary or fleeting.

The needle tears a hole
The hypodermic needle I use to create pain is powerful and invasive, breaking through my flesh and muscle.

The old familiar sting
The pain I experience through the use of the needle is one that I have experienced before, familiar and deeply connected to me.

Try to kill it all away
I attempt to destroy the pain through whatever means necessary, be it numbing myself through drugs or ignoring my thoughts and feelings.

But I remember everything
Regardless of my attempts to block out or forget the pain, the memory of it remains within me and cannot be eradicated.

What have I become?
I question the identity and nature of who I am, as my focus and actions appear to be harmful and self-destructive.

My sweetest friend
Although I perceive myself to be alone and without companionship, the source of my suffering could be seen as my closest ally or confidante.

Everyone I know
Regardless of the relationships I have fostered with others, they all eventually leave or depart from my life.

Goes away in the end
The inevitability of loss is a constant theme in my life, as all connections to others are temporary and fleeting.

You could have it all
Even though my current situation may appear bleak and hopeless, I would be willing to offer everything I have, including my possessions and achievements.

My empire of dirt
Despite the outward appearance of power and success, my life is essentially a wasteland of decay and brokenness.

I will let you down
Although I may make promises and commitments to others, I cannot guarantee that I will be capable of keeping them in the future.

I will make you hurt
As a result of my own pain and inner turmoil, it is possible that I may cause pain and suffering to those closest to me.

If I could start again
Given the opportunity to begin my life anew, with a fresh perspective and unburdened by my current situation, I would make different choices and take a new path forward.

A million miles away
To fully escape and start anew, I would need to completely distance myself, physically and emotionally, from my current reality and circumstances.

I would keep myself
In order to prevent myself from becoming trapped in my current mindset and situation, I would prioritize my own well-being and self-preservation.

I would find a way
Regardless of the obstacles or challenges in my path, I would seek out a new way of living and experiencing life, free from the pain and darkness of my past.