Invincible
H.A.A.R.P Lyrics

My gender so diverse
I identify with a wide range of gender expressions

I feel like I'm submerged
I often feel overwhelmed by societal expectations and pressures

Used to struggle with this urge
I used to have difficulty accepting and expressing my true self

Could it be a purge?
Is this a process of releasing and letting go of societal norms?

I'ma get my purse
I will embrace my feminine side

Match it with a skirt
I will dress in a way that aligns with my true identity

Got that liner on me first
I emphasize my eyes with makeup before anything else

In the mirror as a lurch
I confront my fears and insecurities when looking at myself

All these lines are blurred
The boundaries of gender are not clear-cut for me

I can't find the words
I struggle to express my experiences and emotions

My life is on the verge
I feel like my existence is hanging in the balance

Are my worlds about to merge?
Will I finally integrate all aspects of my identity?

I'm conflicted even though
I experience inner turmoil despite knowing what I truly want

I know exactly what I want now
I have a clear understanding of my desires

In the mirror as I woo
As I look at myself, I express joy and excitement

Picked on during lunches
I was bullied and targeted during school meals

They had all these assumptions
Others made presumptions about me without understanding

And beat me up on weekends
I faced physical abuse and violence outside of school

I never threw no punches
I chose not to fight back physically

All of this dysfunction
The toxic environment and experiences affected me deeply

I soaked it up like sponges
I internalized the negativity and pain

Shackles in my mind
I feel mentally trapped and restricted

Locked inside this dungeon
I feel imprisoned within my own thoughts and emotions

Kicking back a prisoner inside
I am trying to relax while still feeling confined

No momentum all my tires punctured
I lack motivation and feel constantly drained

Yet I still survived
Despite everything, I have managed to endure

Thriving on my energy that's something
I find strength and resilience within myself

Mama wants makeup on me
My mother expects me to conform to traditional femininity

I said no and fuck off please
I assert my refusal to fulfill those expectations

Who you tryna put on show?
Why do you want me to perform for others?

As a boy no love for me?
Am I not deserving of love as I am?

Girlfriends liked me pretty tho
Despite societal expectations, I found acceptance from my partners

Both of us some pretty hoes
We both embraced our femininity and beauty

Private with our selfies
We kept our intimate moments private and cherished

I kept all the videos
I hold onto these memories and moments of self-expression

Trust no one will ever know
I am cautious about sharing my true self with others

They may go hysterical
Others might react with excessive emotion or disapproval

Keep it on the hush hush
I keep my identity a secret

From dinner to through to cereal
Throughout my daily activities and routines, I remain guarded

Perceptions could be pitiful
Others may judge and perceive me negatively

Really that's just miniscule
Ultimately, their opinions are insignificant

For me to take a risk and be accepted is a miracle
Being vulnerable and accepted is a rare and cherished experience for me

I had never thought that I could ever be so critical
I never imagined being so self-aware and introspective

My self-talk work against me
My internal dialogue often undermines my self-confidence

And I know that this is typical
I recognize that many face similar struggles

In the mirror as I woo
As I look at myself, I express joy and excitement