Who am I
H.O.P. Lyrics

Just a reminder to myself that Ain’t perfect
Acknowledging that I have flaws and imperfections

Just a reminder to myself that I Am worth it
Reminding myself that I am valuable and deserving

Just a reminder to myself that I Don’t need em’
Realizing that I don't need the validation of others

Just a reminder to myself that I Can beat em’
Believing in my ability to overcome obstacles

Welcome to my thoughts
Introducing the listener to the artist's inner thoughts

Apologize it’s very cloudy
Apologizing for the unclear and confusing nature of the thoughts being expressed

Dealing with the feeling
Expressing the struggle of dealing with overwhelming emotions

Like I feel like I’m nobody
Feeling unrecognized and unimportant

Don’t know where I’m headed
Feeling lost and directionless

I got no sense of direction
Lacking clarity and guidance in life

Riding very steadily
Continuing on despite the struggles

Did I forget to mention
Adding to the list of difficult experiences

I’ve been riding on my own
Feeling alone in the journey

For a while now
Experiencing this feeling of isolation for an extended period

Got many thoughts in my head
Struggling with a racing mind

It’s getting wild now
Feeling overwhelmed and out of control

Hate to feel this way
Disliking the negative thoughts and emotions

Wanna leave but I don’t know-how
Desiring to escape the negative thoughts but feeling stuck

Dealing on a daily
Enduring these difficulties daily

And it always follows me around
Feeling like the struggles are always present and inescapable

Can’t accept who I am
Struggling with self-acceptance

And Somehow I find that crazy
Recognizing the irrationality of this struggle, but still experiencing it

Asking God for guidance
Seeking spiritual guidance to overcome these challenges

Then Continue being lazy
Feeling like despite asking for help, the artist is still stuck in the same place

Pick up the phone
Addressing someone on the other end of the line

Where are you going
Wondering where the listener is headed or where they stand regarding the artist's struggles

Don't leave me alone
Asking for support and connection from the listener

Let me finish the story
Requesting to continue expressing these thoughts and feelings

Why don’t I know who I am
Expressing confusion and uncertainty about one's identity

I do not
Acknowledging that the artist doesn't currently know who they are

My perspective is different
Noticing a difference in how the artist views the world

When I’m sad it hits different
Noticing how sadness affects the artist's perspective

Always stay reminiscing
Frequent thoughts about the past

I need help I’m not kidding
Expressing the need for support and assistance

You think it’s easy
Addressing misconceptions about the artist's struggle

Think it’s easy being myself
Acknowledging the difficulty of being true to oneself

I’m kinda lost Please help
Expressing confusion and seeking guidance

Please check my mental health
Requesting a mental health evaluation or support

In a place that’s deserted
Feeling abandoned or isolated

Not so sure that the heard me
Lacking confidence that others will listen or understand

Cause they keep commenting
Feeling vulnerable to judgment and criticism

And almost all of it hurts me
Experiencing emotional pain from the negative comments

I have feelings too
Asserting that the artist is capable of experiencing emotions

Well at least I think I do
Feeling unsure of the legitimacy of one's emotions

Not knowing what to do
Feeling lost and unsure of how to proceed

Always falling through
Experiencing failures or setbacks

And lately
Recently experiencing these struggles

I feel like the only one trying
Feeling alone in one's efforts

I been devoured by my fears
Feeling consumed by fear and anxiety

And lied to by my silence
Feeling like one's silence or avoidance is misleading and untruthful

If I’m feeling lost
Acknowledging feelings of confusion and being directionless

Then have I found regret
Feeling regret for not having a clear path

Show me Where I’m wrong
Asking for constructive criticism or feedback

Show me where I flipped
Asking for guidance in identifying areas for improvement

Maybe then and there is where I’ll start understanding
Acknowledging that identifying weaknesses and mistakes is the first step to growing and improving

Meanwhile I’m out the zone Not Quite comprehending
Feeling disconnected and confused

I’m sorry I didn’t mean to bother you
Apologizing for expressing these thoughts and feelings

I only need a minute
Requesting a brief moment of time and attention

Never mind I’ll keep it quiet
Deciding to keep these thoughts to oneself

Keep it silent I won’t bother
Acknowledging the burden that expressing these thoughts can have on others

Maybe things are meant to be this way and that's ok
Speculating that the struggles and challenges are part of a greater plan

Been doing it so long can’t expect you to relate
Expressing understanding that not everyone will understand one's struggles

I have been looking for myself for the longest and I still wait
Expressing the long and ongoing struggle to find one's identity

Til’ the day I can wake and say that I’m doing great
Hoping for a future where the artist can feel confident and successful

Until then I’ll keep writing
Continuing to express these thoughts and emotions through music

Always staying strong
Persevering through challenges and hardships

Keep on fighting
Continuing to struggle and work towards improvement

Even when things go wrong
Resiliently pushing through failures and setbacks

Keep my eyes up above
Seeking guidance from a higher power

Looking for his mercy
Searching for compassion and kindness

Looking for solutions
Seeking answers and ways to overcome the struggles

That I can not find in humans
Acknowledging that the answers and solutions may lie outside of human influence