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HKFiftyOne Lyrics

Tell me why I'm so afraid to let you go
I cannot explain why I fear to let you go

I just wanna keep you but you'll never know
I wish to keep you but cannot tell you

You left and now you're gone and I'm six feet below
You left and I feel like I am buried six feet under

Wonder where you went and if you're coming home
I wonder where you went and if you will return

I'm still haunted day and night by the memory of you
I am tormented by memories of you both day and night

I just gotta move along and let you do what you do
I must move on and let you continue as you are

I'm just tryna find some peace, I'm just tryna make it through
I am striving to find tranquility and survive

Yeah, you said you wouldn't leave and I wish that it was true, yeah
You promised you would stay so much that I wish it was true

You've been on my mind like a bad dream
I've been unable to forget about you, like a nightmare

You were supposed to be everything I need
I thought you would fulfill all of my needs

Got me feelin' down on my self esteem
You have lowered my self-esteem

Left me so broken, and I want to scream
You have caused me so much pain, I want to scream

I've been trying to get past
I have been attempting to move forward

All the things I feel I lack
The things I believe I am missing

Find some comfort in the back
Finding solace in the rear

Of a cheap dirty old beat up hatchback
In an old, run-down car

That's why I'm so scared, yeah
That is why I am so afraid

To fall in love again, yeah
I am scared to love again

A new girl she makes me dare, yeah
A new girl makes me bold

To feel it when she cares, yeah
To allow myself to feel when she cares

You know it isn't fair, yeah
You know it is not reasonable

Want your hands all in my, hair
Desiring your hands in my hair

Hope this feeling doesn't wear, yeah
Wishing this sensation does not disappear

And I wish that I was there
And I desire to be there

I've been grinding I've been working I've been tryna be distracted
I have been persistently working and trying to stay busy

I've been thinking all my life and now I'm thinkin' bout my actions
I have been pondering my existence and now my current behavior

And I finally got a feeling that all things have been retracted
Finally, I experience the realization that everything has been taken back

When I felt something like love and
When I experienced a sensation akin to love

Then my heart has been attracted to
My heart was captivated by

Your soft green eyes
Your tender green eyes

And your warm replies
And your kind responses

And your whispered sighs
And your quiet exhales

And your warm goodbyes
And your affectionate farewells

Don't know why I'm scared I've been down this road before
I don't know why I am afraid, I have been down this path already

Conflict in my heart and it's feeling like a war
Internal struggle inside me making it seem like a war

I've been down so low and I'm sinking through the floor
I have been at my lowest, and it feels I am sinking through the ground

I want to be okay I don't want this anymore
I want to be fine, I don't want this any longer

Sometimes I feel fine and I'm getting thru the day
On some days, I am good and pushing through the day

Been talking to a girl and she make me feel okay
Been conversing with a girl, and she makes me feel fine

Been tryna move along but some things just make me stay
I have been trying to progress, but certain things keep pulling me back

The memory of you haunts me each and every day
The remembrance of you troubles me every single day