Eighteen
Half Hearted Lyrics

Remember we were eighteen
Reflecting on a time when they were young and thought they had everything figured out

We thought we had it all figured out
They believed they had their lives and relationship sorted

In a world with love all we'd need is us
They thought love and each other would be enough to get by

We'd make it work without a doubt
They were confident their love could conquer all problems

Well who knew you were fucking crazy
Realization that the other person was not who they thought they were

And the worlds a god damn mess
An acknowledgement of the chaos and messiness of life

Wish your heart of stone would have opened up
Regret that the other person was emotionally closed off

Like you opened up your legs
A negative reference to the other person's sexual behavior

You knew the words to make me hate me
The other person had a way of manipulating and hurting them

So do your worst I'll let you break me
The person is vulnerable and willing to let the other person hurt them

I've tried I can't let it go
They can't let go of the pain and hurt caused by the other person

I'm a slave to the anguish and forced just
The pain of the past is still dominant in their life

To live with the pain that I'll never know
They are doomed to live with emotional scars from their past

If I gave it a shot would a life still been lost in the wake?
Questioning whether things could have been different if they invested more in the relationship

Didn't know didn't know how bad you needed me
They were not aware of their partner's true needs and desires

I couldn't handle the fall I wasn't listening
They were not equipped to deal with the consequences of the relationship and ignored warning signs

Could have been could have been the drug I know you need
The love they had for each other could have been addictive like a drug

Instead I thought of myself just like you'd expect from me
Their selfishness contributed to the failure of the relationship

Now that you fucking hate me
Their partner now resents them

Because I slept with my favorite ex
They had an affair with an ex, which hurt their partner

I can break apart from the battle scars that you left inside my head
They are trying to heal and recover from the trauma and pain caused by their partner

Well who knew she would go and OD
Their ex tragically overdosed

And I would be a wreck?
The death of their ex has a significant emotional impact on them

Had a change or heart
They had a shift in perspective

Now her open arms
They imagine their ex welcoming them with open arms in death

Are being buried in an X
Their ex is being laid to rest

You don't get it you just don't get it
The other person doesn't understand

The smoother it tastes, the bigger mistake you let in
The better things seem, the more dangerous they can be

You're running away but you don't know where you're headed
The other person is aimlessly avoiding their problems

So sweet you can't let it in
They are too guarded to let love into their life

I know you need to escape
The other person wants to run away from their problems

So sweet you can't let it
Their sweetness is preventing them from confronting their issues

Remember sex outside?
A nostalgic reference to a past sexual encounter

We didn't even hide it
The encounter was not kept private

Pretending they would find us
The excitement of the possibility of being caught made it more thrilling

Was half the fun
The anticipation and fear was part of the enjoyment

No no couldn't wait till night
They were eager to be together as soon as possible

We never wanted to
They wanted to be spontaneous and not overthink things

I always wanted you
Their desire for each other was unrelenting

We didn't call it love we knew it was enough
Their loveless sexual encounters were satisfying for them

You thought I was the one
The other person believed they were meant to be together

I thought that it was lust
For them, the relationship was purely physical