Growth
Hargon Lyrics

I get brazen and bold, when I'm blazing it's so
I become more confident when I'm smoking marijuana.

So typical, I know there ain't no saving my soul
I know that my behavior is typical for someone who smokes marijuana and I don't believe that it is harmful.

Late nights often turn into mornings, I'm in the lab recording
I spend long hours working in the studio, often until the morning.

'Member when I used to have to hustle for some Jordan's
I remember when I had to work hard just to buy a pair of sneakers.

Now I'm all about the luxury and finer things
Now that I'm successful, I enjoy spending money on expensive things.

Fuck a diamond bezel, perfect timing, give me diamond rings
I prefer diamond rings to watches with a diamond bezel and I like them to be perfectly timed.

I wanna be, icy like a hockey rink and solid like a hockey puck
I want to be cold and hard like ice and a hockey puck, and not care what others think.

Not worry 'bout what others think and make too much can't count it up
I don't care about other people's opinions and I'm making so much money that it's hard to keep track.

Real shit, feel this, memorize it, spit it back
What I'm saying is real and I want people to remember it and repeat it.

Unless you fam or you a fan your phone I'll never hit it back
I won't call back unless you are a friend or a fan.

Why they on my line for no reason?
I don't understand why people are trying to contact me without a good reason.

I ain't hit 'em back quick enough they changing like the seasons
People are getting upset with me for not responding to them quickly enough and they are changing their attitude towards me like the changing seasons.

Get it straight, keep it straight, when we connect you come correct
I expect people to be honest and straightforward when we interact.

Y'all see my life is taking off so fuck the stress, man I digress
My life is going well and I don't want to worry about unnecessary stress, I want to move on.

Can't sleep like I used to
I have trouble sleeping compared to how it used to be.

Shit comes and goes too soon
Opportunities and experiences come and go too quickly.

One day I'll find it
I believe that someday I will find what I am looking for.

Some day I'll feel brand new
I hope to feel refreshed and renewed someday.

Actin' brand new but I ain't feelin' it
I'm putting on a new persona but it doesn't feel authentic.

Emotions pouring out of me I don't know how to deal with it
I am struggling to manage my emotions and I feel overwhelmed.

Trust in the process Embiid said, my success impeded
I have been inspired by Joel Embiid's advice to trust the process, but I have been hindered in my success.

By my thoughts, one minute sunny out the next I'm in the dark
My mood can change suddenly from feeling positive to feeling negative due to my thoughts.

I've been living life, trying to find the meaning of it all
I have been searching for the purpose of life and my place in it.

Am I bound to live in squaller, will I ball 'til I fall?
I am unsure if I will remain in poverty or if I will continue to be successful.

I think the latter, I'm on my way up as it is
I believe that I will continue to be successful and that my life is improving.

Don't think that it even matter 'cause I get it how I live
I don't think it matters because I live my life in the way that I choose.

And as of late? I'm living real well
Recently, my life has been going very well and I am happy about it.

Tell myself that I deserve it 'cause I been through hell
I believe that I deserve my success because I have gone through difficult experiences in the past.

Steep grade downfall, downhill fast
I am aware that things can change quickly for the worse.

I be moving all alone I guess my Jill ain't found her Jack, but
I am still alone and have not yet found my soulmate.

Every king he needs a castle 'fore he finds a queen
Before finding a partner, a man needs to establish a secure and stable life for himself.

You ain't with it don't you worry, movin' on to better things
If someone doesn't support my lifestyle, I am not concerned because I will find someone who does.

See it's easy, I don't want no static TV
It's easy for me to move on from people who don't support me, and I don't want any negativity in my life.

You ain't with me for the long haul then you better fuckin' leave me
If someone is not committed to a long-term relationship with me, they should leave me alone.

That's real
This is genuine and authentic, not just an act.

Running through it all
I am experiencing everything that life has to offer.

Just to do the same tomorrow
I will continue to have the same routine and experiences tomorrow.

Talking to myself
I am thinking and contemplating my life and experiences by myself.