Even If It Kills Me
Hatesphere Lyrics


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I have a book collection that sits and screams
It's chock-full of memoirs based on the thousands of notes
I wrote about you and me

Some say it's a long shot
I say not even centuries of sleep could prepare me
For what you had in store for us
And when the mechanics bend and the clock ticks




We can say, "If it kills you, it kills you"

Overall Meaning

The lyrics to Hatesphere's "Even If It Kills Me" are filled with pain and obsession. The first verse talks about a book collection that is filled with memoirs based upon the relationship between the writer and the other person. The writer has written thousands of notes about the other person, indicating a deep love and fixation on that person. The collection "sits and screams," perhaps a metaphor for the writer's inability to move on or let go of the relationship.


The second verse talks about the writer's determination to hold onto the relationship, despite the odds being against them. Some may see it as a "long shot," but the writer disagrees, saying that not even centuries of sleep could prepare them for what the other person had in store for them. This line perhaps speaks to the intensity of the love between these two people and the writer's belief that their love is worth fighting for.


The final line, "And when the mechanics bend and the clock ticks, We can say, 'If it kills you, it kills you'" is a poignant one. It suggests that no matter the outcome of the relationship, the writer is willing to take the risk and be hurt. They are willing to face the consequences, even if it kills them. This line perhaps speaks to the raw vulnerability of love and the way it can make us do things that are not in our best interests.


Line by Line Meaning

I have a book collection that sits and screams
I possess a collection of books that constantly reminds me of our past relationship.


It's chock-full of memoirs based on the thousands of notes
My book collection contains numerous memoirs that are based on the thousands of notes I wrote about our relationship.


I wrote about you and me
The notes I wrote were about our relationship and how it affected me.


Some say it's a long shot
Some people believe that our relationship is unlikely to work out.


I say not even centuries of sleep could prepare me
I strongly believe that nothing could have prepared me for the challenges and experiences that our relationship has brought.


For what you had in store for us
I was not prepared for the challenges and difficulties that you brought into our relationship.


And when the mechanics bend and the clock ticks
In times of adversity and hardship, when things seem to go wrong and time passes by.


We can say, "If it kills you, it kills you"
We can simply accept the consequences, no matter how severe, because our relationship has been worth the risk and the pain.




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