Hatrix is a Cleveland based metal band formed in 1989 and fronted by Mushro… Read Full Bio ↴Hatrix is a Cleveland based metal band formed in 1989 and fronted by Mushroomhead lead singer Jeff Hatrix with Mushroomhead guitarist Dave Felton. The band has since released two albums which are titled "Collisioncoursewithnoplace" and "Revolution". Hatrix's biggest influence has to be Pantera with the guitars. Hatrix is still together, but they haven't released an album since 1994. Thought they did release a song on the Industry Compilation in 1996, and on the Mushroomhead Inc. Sampler in 1998.
Hatrix "re-united" in 2005 for a stint of shows in the Cleveland area.

Sick of myself
Hatrix Lyrics

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I wake up in the morning and I can't look at myself
A fading fleeting memory of something I'm supposed to be
Everything is my fault everything's bad because of me
I'm sick, I'm not well but you're caught up in
Yourself to tell it
Sick!
Sick of myself sick of you
You made my hell

With your abuse, sick
Not doin' it to get attention
I'm doin' it to get dead
A razor in the wrist or a bullet
Lodged in my brain
Everything's OK
Ignore it and it'll go away
I'm sick I'm not well
But you're caught up
In yourself to tell it
Lost my mind, I've gone insane
I think I'm goin' crazy
I think I've lost my sanity
Just another maniac on a suicidal
Killing spree
A hopeless babbling idiot
And no one really gives a shit
No one cares, who fuckin cares

And who the hell are you
To say I'm sick!

Overall Meaning

The lyrics to Hatrix's song "Sick of Myself" convey a sense of self-loathing and hopelessness. The singer wakes up in the morning and is unable to even look at themselves. They feel like they are a disappointment to themselves and to others, and that everything that goes wrong is their fault. Despite feeling sick and unwell, they feel like no one else cares or is willing to listen to their problems. The singer even contemplates self-harm or suicide as a means of escape from their current situation.

The song appears to be a commentary on the mental health struggles that many people face. It is common for those who are struggling with their mental health to feel isolated, as if nobody around them truly understands their struggle. The song touches on the themes of isolation, frustration, and despair that often accompany this type of depression.

Overall, the lyrics to "Sick of Myself" portray a deeply troubled individual who is unable to find solace or comfort in their relationships or their own sense of self.

Line by Line Meaning

I wake up in the morning and I can't look at myself
Every morning I wake up and am disgusted with my own reflection in the mirror. I do not see myself as anything worthwhile or of value.

A fading fleeting memory of something I'm supposed to be
I am constantly haunted by a vague memory of who I was supposed to be, but it is quickly fading away and becoming lost to me.

Everything is my fault everything's bad because of me
I blame myself for everything that goes wrong in my life and believe that I am the cause of all the bad things that have happened to me.

I'm sick, I'm not well but you're caught up in Yourself to tell it Sick! Sick of myself sick of you You made my hell With your abuse, sick
I am sick and in a bad place mentally, but those around me are too wrapped up in their own problems to notice or care. I am sick of both myself and the people who have mistreated me, causing me great pain and suffering.

Not doin' it to get attention I'm doin' it to get dead A razor in the wrist or a bullet Lodged in my brain
I am not acting out for attention, but rather to bring about my own death. I contemplate taking my own life with a razor or a bullet to the head.

Everything's OK Ignore it and it'll go away I'm sick I'm not well But you're caught up In yourself to tell it
I try to convince myself that everything is fine and that my problems will go away if I just ignore them. However, I am not well and those around me are too self-absorbed to recognize my struggles.

Lost my mind, I've gone insane I think I'm goin' crazy I think I've lost my sanity Just another maniac on a suicidal Killing spree
I feel as though I have lost my mind and am going insane, becoming just another person spiraling out of control on a suicidal killing spree, a danger to myself and those around me.

A hopeless babbling idiot And no one really gives a shit No one cares, who fuckin cares And who the hell are you To say I'm sick!
I feel like a hopeless idiot who is babbling incessantly, and nobody seems to want to help me or care about my problems. I am angry at those who call me sick, as they are not in a place to judge me or my struggles.

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