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Hayley Lyrics

Rows and flows of angel hair
I used to see beauty in everything, no matter how delicate or fragile it seemed.

And ice cream castles in the air
I used to daydream about impossible things, like a castle made out of ice cream floating in the sky.

And feather canyons everywhere
I used to imagine landscapes that were made entirely out of delicate feathers, like a beautiful and surreal canyon.

I've looked at clouds that way
I used to see the world as a beautiful and magical place, full of wonder and endless possibilities.

But now they only block the sun
Now I realize that my optimistic view of the world can also cause problems, like neglecting practical concerns.

They rain and snow on everyone
Reality can be harsh and unforgiving, affecting everyone indiscriminately.

So many things I would have done
My overly idealistic worldview has held me back from taking practical steps towards achieving my goals.

Clouds got in my way
I've come to understand that my own optimistic illusions can be a hindrance, like a literal cloud blocking my path.

I've looked at clouds from both sides now
I've come to view the world from multiple perspectives, seeing both the positive and negative aspects of things.

From up and down, and still somehow
No matter how I've tried to see the world, I've always come to the same conclusion about the limits of my own perspective.

It's cloud's illusions I recall
Looking back, I realize that many of my optimistic and unrealistic views of the world have been self-imposed illusions.

I really don't know clouds at all
Despite my past idealism, I now realize that I don't truly understand the world and all its complexities.

Moons and Junes and Ferris wheels
I used to see romance and whimsy in everyday things, like the moon or summer months or even carnival rides.

The dizzy dancing way you feel
The feeling of falling in love can be exhilarating and all-consuming, like a dizzying dance that you never want to end.

As every fairy tale comes real
I used to believe that love stories always have happy endings, like a fairy tale come to life.

But now it's just another show
Now I see that love can be performative or superficial, like a show that people put on for others to see.

You leave 'em laughing when you go
When a relationship ends, people often try to save face by pretending that it wasn't a big deal, even if they're hurting deep down.

And if you care, don't let them know
Even if you care about someone deeply, it can be scary to express those feelings because you don't want to be vulnerable or rejected.

Don't give yourself away
It's important to be true to yourself and not let other people or circumstances change who you really are.

I've looked at love from both sides now
I've experienced love from multiple perspectives, both positive and negative.

From give and take, and still somehow
Regardless of how I've been in relationships, I still feel like I don't have a complete understanding of what love is or how it works.

It's love's illusions I recall
Looking back, I realize that my rosy view of love was just that - a self-imposed illusion that might not be totally realistic.

I really don't know love at all
Despite my past experiences and beliefs, I now realize that I don't have a comprehensive understanding of what love truly entails.

Tears and fears and feeling proud
Life is full of ups and downs, from high moments of pride to low moments of fear and sadness.

To say "I love you" right out loud
Expressing love can be difficult and intimidating, but it's important to verbalize that feeling when you feel it.

Dreams and schemes and circus crowds
Life is full of unexpected and surreal moments, whether it's achieving the dreams you've always wanted or getting swept up in a crowd of strange and diverse people.

I've looked at life that way
I used to see life as full of possibilities and excitement, no matter how difficult or challenging it seemed.

But now old friends they're acting strange
I've grown and changed over time, and people who were once close to me might not understand or accept those changes.

They shake their heads, they say I've changed
People might not always react positively to personal growth and change, even if it's necessary or healthy.

Well somethings lost but somethings gained
Change can be difficult and even painful, but there are always new opportunities and experiences to be had by moving forward.

In living every day
Despite the difficulties and changes of life, it's important to keep moving forward and living in the present moment.

I've looked at life from both sides now
Like with love and clouds, I've come to see life from multiple perspectives, both positive and negative.

From win and lose and still somehow
Regardless of my experiences or perspective, I don't feel like I have a comprehensive understanding of what life truly is.

It's life's illusions I recall
Looking back, I realize that many of my perceptions of life have been shaped by unrealistic illusions or beliefs that might not be completely accurate.

I really don't know life at all
Despite my best efforts and experiences so far, I still feel like I don't truly understand the complexities of life and all it has to offer.