This Is Who I Am
Heather Russell Lyrics


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Now this it
Cause of you
You made me feel alone.
Now cause of you
This is it
I'm okay alone
This is who I am
Who I want to be
Nothings going to change that this is who I am
Who I want to be
Nothings goinna change that for me, ahhhh
So fed up
With myself
Feelling like a foool
No more silly games
No thanks to you
I'm right where I want to be
This is who I am
Who I want to be
Nothings going to change that This is who I am
Who I want to be
Nothings gonna change that and I try and try and tried
To help, to help
And tried and tried and tried
To help, help, help
OOOOHH
This is who I am
Nothings gonna chnage that This is who I am
Who I want to be
Nothings gonna change that For me




I try I try I try
To help, help, help

Overall Meaning

Heather Russell's song This Is Who I Am is about self-acceptance and the realization that the only validation we need comes from within. The song starts with the singer expressing that someone made her feel alone, but because of that, she learned how to be okay alone. She has embraced who she is, and nothing is going to change that. She's done playing silly games and is right where she wants to be. She acknowledges that she made many attempts to help someone who was likely toxic, but she can now let go of that futile effort and focus on being herself.


It's common to get caught up in trying to please others, but this song reminds us of the importance of self-love and the autonomy to embrace who we are truly without validation from anyone else. It's a message that could have mass appeal and help people embrace their individuality.


Line by Line Meaning

Now this it
This situation I find myself in


Cause of you
Because of your actions


You made me feel alone.
You caused me to feel isolated


Now cause of you
Presently, because of your influence


This is it
This is the final outcome


I'm okay alone
I accept being by myself


This is who I am
This is my identity


Who I want to be
The person I aspire to become


Nothings going to change that this is who I am
Nothing can alter the reality of who I am


Nothings goinna change that for me, ahhhh
I will not allow anyone to change me


So fed up
I am very irritated


With myself
At my own actions


Feelling like a foool
I feel foolish


No more silly games
I will cease playing games


No thanks to you
I achieved this without your help


I'm right where I want to be
I am at the desired place in my life


And I try and try and tried
I put in considerable effort


To help, to help
To be of assistance


This is who I am
My identity remains the same


Nothings gonna chnage that This is who I am
No circumstance can modify my identity


Who I want to be
I remain determined to achieve my goals


I try I try I try
I keep pushing forward


To help, help, help
In order to be of assistance




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Most interesting comment from YouTube:

@shutupandeaturgrass8872

duh, i don’t need to say more bout ur foolishness

we ppl who can sing knew the girl is ego and wanna show off his vocal skill but she just prosecuted the song vibe awfully, Katy sang her own song perfectly, every feels in on point, the laziness laying on bed feels. It’s a slight erotic love song, the girl just sang it like a national anthem that don’t have feelings.

If the girl sang “Someone Like You” the same way, she will be criticised too, her singing is just simply soulless,

Katy jealous ?!! for what ? for the shitty performance of the girl ?

This girl didn’t sing better than Katy. And Katy can sing like that. It’s just you can’t. There’s hundreds thousands of singers that can sing that on the internet, you think this girl is so unique ?!! lmao your ignorance. This girl vocal is so not special, there’s too much ppl on Tiktok cover that have the same vocal. and her interpretation of the song is soulless.

This girl vocal is unimpressive with the amount of ppl that can do the same, Katy can sing like her, but this girl can’t sing like Katy. Go find how much online singer able to cover Fireworks or Dark Horse decently

the audacity to claim Katy can’t sing like her, do u even watched this show, Katy sang too many times in the show to prove her vocal. You just suck at singing that you think every vocal showcase is equivalent to good performance.

this girl is like Violently playing Beethoven Moonlight Sonata, that’s no good.

🙄you have no taste in music, she’s suck and your opinion is idiotic and invalid. You got it so wrong, Katy put soul into the song, and this girl has no soul in performing it. This girl just using the song to flexing the vocal. The song was meant to be chill, relaxing vibe, the melody has to be sing softly like whisper in the ear on bed to be erotica and seductive. This girl just like scream out the melody, she’s like hitting hard on piano keyboard to play Beethoven Moonlight Sonata, there’s no soul in her singing. Singing Christina Aguilera/Whitney Houston to “Hey Jude” is not consider a soulful performance of a song.

this girl ruined the vibe of the original song, Katy sang her song perfectly. And your comment just showcase how ignorant you are and can’t differentiate “vocal flexing” from “interpret song/melody correctly”.

the melody was meant to be chill, Katy brought out the soul of the song, this girl kill it, y’all are shallow minded have no idea bout music at all. Just thinking oh singing loud and show off vocal skills is equivalent to “good”.

that’s why they are the judges and y’all aren’t. Y’all judging by sentiment and not rationality of based on analysis, breakdown of the song. And how the melody is interpreted.

y’all are ignorantly wrong

Having vocal skills doesn’t mean she perform the song decently, it’s like pressing hard for every keynote on piano, every song has it best way of interpretation. And this girl just “weightlifting” on the “ballet” (song). she got disqualified for not performing right, we’re not saying singing vocally outstanding.

also she didn’t sing better than Katy, Katy can do the same whatever this girl showing off, Katy no need to jealous of something she can do. Katy critics is on point.

i think she overdone and ruined Katy’s song, she can pick any other song, this girl just want to show off her vocal but she picked the wrong song, not every song is suitable for this.

Listen to Katy’s original first, the melody of the song was meant to be seductively chill like a island honeymoon vacation and delicately ended the notes of every line, then with a hint of powerhouse run on in bridge.



All comments from YouTube:

@adamb5477

It’s interesting to me how they pick and choose who to be hyper critical of. Like they tore her up about her runs and vocal tricks? But I just watched them praise to the high heaven 10 people who were legit screaming but they called it power. This girl has pipes and she knows how to use them. It’s stylistic. Ever heard of Tori Kelly? Mariah Carey? Arian Grande? Come on now.

@RonVelvet

THIS. 💯💯💯💯

@ariberad

PERIOD!!

@janya80085

It’s all constructive and they did build her up too! They said she could be the next AI :)

@LolnoobZ27

Yea they’re just harder on the ones that they think can truly make it far so that they don’t just slack off and think talent alone will carry them. Gotta put in that work and stay humble!

@Hi-tx2zb

ikr this girl was one of the best

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@PrettyBlack972

This young lady has first class runs. I love her voice. She actually made Katy's song sound better.

@victoriaalvin2446

Her put the " soul" in this song! That's what was missing from Katy Perry's version.

@avw145

I wouldn’t agree with saying she’s the best but she’s pretty good

@ifyoudontshutupbish1679

Not really

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