Head Over Heels
Hit the Lights Lyrics

i miss the way you make me feel
I long for the sense of isolation and loneliness that you caused me to experience

so cold and alone, so cold and alone
You made me feel alienated and detached from the world

i miss the way you make me wait
I yearn for the time in which you kept me in suspense, waiting anxiously for you to respond

by the telephone to tell you i'm trying to get by
I would attempt to communicate with you in the hope of trying to keep myself afloat

learning how to tie my own noose
I'm attempting to acquire expertise in self-destructive behaviors because of you

because you win and i lose
You always come out on top, leaving me to fall behind

it's been so hard but you've been so smooth
It's been an arduous journey for me, but you've always been composed and unbothered

so play it off and pretend
Act like none of this ever happened, feigning ignorance

you never know what you got yourself into
You recklessly entered into a situation without truly understanding the implications

i'll play it off and pretend
I too will act as if it was all meaningless and insignificant

i never meant a word i said
Everything that I have ever said to you has been a lie

now i'm starting to realize
It has taken me some time, but I've finally figured out

that getting lost in your eyes
Losing myself in your gaze

was the worst move, you win and i lose
It was the worst decision I could have made, and you came out victorious once again

forever isn't long enough
No amount of time is sufficient to forget

to get over giving so much up
I gave up an enormous amount for you, and I can't seem to recover

to someone who will throw it all away
To somebody who will easily and carelessly discard everything that I had given them

and a smile can only hide so much
Even the most convincing facade can only conceal so much

i choose death over your touch
I would rather die than feel your embrace again

i fell head over heels into my grave
I overcommitted and now I find myself buried and overwhelmed

i count my lucky stars
I am thankful for my good fortune

i thank God i've seen a smile like yours
I'm grateful for having seen a smile as beautiful as yours

but don't take it as a compliment
Don't take this as flattery

just know it's straight from the heart
I genuinely mean what I say

now i'm driving around yeah to get lost
I'm now aimlessly driving around to confuse myself

just to find myself at any cost
Seeking any method to rediscover myself

if i hit the brakes my heart will stop
If I slow down, my heart will break completely

i'm taking comfort in the dark
I'm finding refuge in the shadows

i keep saying i know you're not mine
I constantly remind myself that you belong to another

but i'm praying that you'll be alright
Despite all of this, I'm still hoping for your wellbeing

because it's hard to let go of the ones you love
Because it's difficult to move on from those who hold a special place in your heart

and i keep hoping for the best
I'm still wishing you the best in all things

as this wound heals in my chest
As the pain in my heart improves with time

i know one day my best will be enough
One day, I will do my best and it will be enough