Disappear
Holy Ramen Lyrics

The rackets in my head
The constant noise and thoughts in my mind

Be driving me mad
Causing me to feel overwhelmed and crazy

240 down the highway
Driving fast, trying to escape

Just doing a dash
Speeding recklessly

The force's compelling
Feeling pressured and driven

Sucking away my cash
Taking all my money

What you think about that
What are your thoughts on my situation

I keep search for a higher power but nothing comes my way
Continuously seeking guidance or meaning, but finding no answers

I'm the hero I'm the villain in this game I play
I play both the role of a hero and a villain in my own life

Happy birthday
A sarcastic remark towards someone's birthday

Soon it's your dooms day
A dark and negative prediction for the future

Don't wanna be a prey
Not wanting to be a victim

So Imma grind away
I will work hard and persistently

Dancing around doing ballet
Metaphorically moving gracefully through life's challenges

Your words giving me a stomach-ache
Feeling upset and uncomfortable by what you say

Circoviridae
A scientific and medical term referring to viral infections

Pardon my naivete
Apologizing for being naive or unaware

I don't wanna face
Avoiding confronting something unpleasant

Rather run away
Preferring to escape or flee

Meticulously spending calculating
Carefully and methodically managing money

Stacking bills till I'm fantasizing
Saving money to the point of imagining possibilities

Crashing down from the aggravating truth
Coming to terms with a frustrating reality

That you'll never find your footing
Realizing that you won't find stability or a solid foundation

Tripping over shoestrings
Getting caught up in small, insignificant issues

They got you upside down
Feeling disoriented and confused

But you still think you got the upswing
Believing things will improve despite the challenges

Isn't that berating
A sarcastic question about the situation being demeaning

Isn't it debilitating
A rhetorical question about the situation being disabling

The devil's knocking on my door
Figuratively representing temptation or negativity in life

But it's only 6am (Shit man it's too early)
Expressing annoyance at being bothered so early in the morning

I tell him to come back later
Rejecting or delaying the negative influences

Would you do me a kind favour
Asking for a favor in a polite and friendly manner

What you do what you say is not the same
Highlighting the inconsistency between words and actions

Like Pythagoras I am self-proclaimed
Comparing oneself to Pythagoras, claiming personal wisdom

Am I a genius or just insane
Questioning one's own intelligence and sanity

Motivated and driven by the pain
Using personal pain and struggles as motivation

Flailing about acting erratic
Behaving in a wild and unpredictable manner

You're such a little fanatic
Describing someone as overly enthusiastic or obsessed

Carrying around a semi-automatic
Symbolizing a burden or dangerous mindset

Never thought life would be so traumatic
Expressing surprise and disappointment at life's difficulties

Don't be so irrational
Advising against acting without reason or logic

Why'd you kill her
Asking for a motive for a violent action

I don't know
Admitting confusion or uncertainty

Oh I'm so sensational
Sarcastically expressing excitement or thrill

In exile
Feeling isolated or disconnected

What a letdown the world is these days
Expressing disappointment in the current state of the world

Broken promises no longer face
Losing trust in people's ability to keep their word

If you want something done right do it yourself
Encouraging self-reliance and taking matters into one's own hands

Ain't nobody else giving you their wealth
Recognizing that others won't willingly share their resources

I'm my own goddamn woman
Asserting independence and strength as an individual

Self-made as hell (yes I am)
Proudly stating that personal success was achieved independently

And I'm feeling unwell
Expressing emotional or physical discomfort

The world is on fire and I'm caught in the midst of it
Feeling overwhelmed and trapped in chaotic and destructive situations

What the fuck is my luck there ain't nothing left to fix
Expressing frustration and hopelessness at the current circumstances

Standing on opposite sides
Being in opposition or conflict with someone

Born enemies till we die
Having a long-standing rivalry or animosity

Never becoming the dignified
Not achieving a sense of honor or respectability

These tears streaming down my face are just a side effect of my maniac episode
The tears are a result of a period of intense emotional instability

It's quite an overload
Feeling overwhelmed and overwhelmed with emotions

Self-imposed disciplinal
Taking strict measures and rules on oneself

Might overdose on fentanyl
A reference to the dangers and risks of drug abuse

It's about time that you should know
Suggesting that it's necessary for someone to understand something

You should let 'em go
Advising someone to release or relinquish something

I'm an addict
Revealing a struggle with addiction

I'm addicted
Admitting to being dependent on something

To the salvation of the conflicted
Finding solace or relief in the midst of personal struggles

Shaped by martyrs
Influenced and formed by individuals who suffer or sacrifice

We think we're smarter
Believing to have a higher level of intelligence or insight

Just to fall back into the same charter
Returning to the same patterns or behavior

Hypocrite
Acknowledging one's own contradictions or inconsistencies

Affectionate
Expressing care and fondness

Philanthropic
Being generous and benevolent

Narcissist
Referring to someone with excessive self-interest and vanity

It's so intricate, it's so delicate
Describing something as complex and fragile

Why not destroy it for the hell of it
Questioning the motivation behind causing destruction or chaos

I'm not evil just misunderstood
Clarifying that one's actions are not malicious, but often misinterpreted

Always turn bad but I'm tryna do good
Despite past negative experiences, attempting to make positive choices

Use to wanna make it to Hollywood
Previously desiring fame and success in the entertainment industry

Now I'm just tryna make a livelihood
Focused on making a sustainable way of living

I hear preaches of peace, but I never see
Being exposed to messages of peace but witnessing little actual harmony

Just more lies to appease unrelenting pleas
Recognizing that promises and assurances are often insincere

Every living day is a raging war
Every day is a constant struggle and battle

I keep searching for a higher power
Continuing to seek guidance or strength from something greater

But nothing comes my way
Finding no answers or assistance

I'm the hero I'm the villain in this fucking sick game I play
Taking on both heroic and villainous roles in one's own life, acknowledging the internal conflict

If you want something done right do it yourself
Promoting self-reliance and taking responsibility for one's own actions

I'm my own goddamn woman
Asserting independence and strength as a woman

And I am here
Emphasizing one's presence and existence in the world