Story Of Mine
Hopsin Lyrics

Y'all now in the place to be and you rocking with the H-O-P
Introduction to the story Hopsin is about to tell

I'm a tell y'all a story of mine about how the lord put the weight on me (that's right)
Hopsin is going to tell his story about the hardships he faced in life

Pay attention closely to my story (all right)
Hopsin wants his audience to actively listen to his story

Mom ain't never had shit, neither did pop
Hopsin's parents were poor and struggled to provide for their family

And that's exactly the reason that he beat her a lot
Hopsin's father was physically abusive towards his mother due to the financial struggles

So shit, as a kid I had to be a cheater and rob
Hopsin turned to stealing because of the poverty he grew up in

Dealing with the consequences of me getting caught
Hopsin faced punishment for getting caught stealing

Life appeared to be cool when I was young 'cause I didn't notice things
As a child, Hopsin was unaware of the financial struggles his family faced

Rent was paid every month with no problems so it seems
Despite the struggles, Hopsin's family managed to pay the rent every month

And as I got older I would catch onto things
As Hopsin grew older, he began to understand the financial difficulties his family faced

Then I start to notice that shit ain't the way it's 'posed to be
Hopsin realized that their situation was not ideal and something needed to change

Come to find out we've been up in a rut
Hopsin's family has been stuck in a financial hardship for a long time

My mom feeling like she got a knife stuck in the gut
Hopsin's mother was feeling emotional pain due to the financial struggles

And dad tripping out for no reason cussin and stuff
Hopsin's father was reacting negatively to the financial struggles

I'm trying hard sucking it up like fuck it it's sus
Hopsin tries to remain strong in the face of the struggles his family faces

And Christmas in the house was not that popular
Hopsin's family could not afford to celebrate Christmas with gifts

'Cause all we ever receive was socks and boxers
The gifts that Hopsin and his family received were practical items such as socks and underwear

My friend got a power ranger toy and a megazoid
Hopsin's friend received exciting and fun gifts for Christmas

It was official market on our fucking family four
The gifts that Hopsin and his family received were indicative of their financial struggles

When I was 17 my dad moved out
Hopsin's father left the family when Hopsin was 17

He refused to try help for us get a brand new house
Hopsin's father did not help the family improve their living situation

So that just me, my mom and my sister
Hopsin and his family were left to live on their own

And it was up to me to be the man to polish our future
Hopsin felt responsible for ensuring a brighter future for his family

We was slowly falling apart
Hopsin's family was struggling and their situation was getting worse

I felt the pain all in my heart
Hopsin was emotionally affected by his family's struggles

When my mom would go and crawl in the dark
Hopsin's mother was suffering emotionally and would have moments of despair

And cry lungs out 'cause she knew that our good times was up now
Hopsin's mother was aware that their family's situation had taken a turn for the worse

I ain't know how to deal with none of it I was strung out
Hopsin was struggling to cope with the stress of his family's situation

Finally my 18th birthday hit
Hopsin turned 18 years old

I would had left, but I had to help her pay rent
Hopsin wanted to leave home but felt obligated to help his mother with expenses

My homies got their own place, they living very nice
Hopsin's friends were living comfortably in their own homes

Sipping on some Bacardi and throwing parties every night
Hopsin's friends were able to afford leisure activities such as drinking and partying

They mom buying cars, new 3-50 Z's
Hopsin's friends had parents who could afford to buy them expensive cars

Well my moms in debt, at least 50 G's
Hopsin's mother was heavily in debt

That means I have to work harder just to get by, 'cause if I don't we'll be struggling for the rest of our lives, fuck!
Hopsin felt a heavy burden of responsibility to work hard and overcome his family's financial struggles

God I hate to cuss to you, but I hate my fucking life
Hopsin expresses his frustration and dissatisfaction with his life

Nothings right it's cold in my world, it's never summer time
Hopsin feels that nothing is going right in his life and is stuck in a perpetual state of darkness

It is a test giving me this mediocre lifestyle
Hopsin sees his difficult life as a test he must overcome

If I'm a get then it needs to happen right now
Hopsin wants to achieve success quickly and is impatient about it

I'm one week away from jumping off a cliff
Hopsin is experiencing extreme emotional distress and contemplating suicide

Or putting heat up to my head, and then dumping off a clip
Hopsin is contemplating a more direct and violent form of suicide

I know you think I'm just lying, 'cause last time I stood next to a cliff side, I bitched out but I'm a do it this time
Hopsin acknowledges that he has previously backed out of suicide attempts, but is determined to follow through this time

Man forget it, we both know I'm not
Despite his desire to end his life, Hopsin ultimately decides against it

I just say that stupid shit 'cause I'm so low on gaup
Hopsin is feeling desperately low on motivation and hope

But for real tho, God man you have to help me out, 'cause I know the road I'm rolling on is not a healthy route
Hopsin turns to faith and asks for divine intervention to help him overcome his struggles

From now to back to the day I was a little kid, shit didn't brighten up a little bit
Despite his efforts, Hopsin feels that nothing in his life has improved

Now wouldn't you be a little pissed if this was you
Hopsin asks his audience to empathize with his struggles and the frustration he feels

Yeah I'm cursing this the truth
Hopsin is speaking honestly about his experiences

Looks like I'm a have to resort to violence to get the loot
Hopsin is considering resorting to criminal behavior to overcome his financial struggles

Thank you for listening to my story (all right)
Hopsin concludes his story and thanks his audience for listening