knocking
Hosanna Poetry Lyrics

I feel you so close to me.
I sense God's presence near me.

I feel you right next door to me.
God is incredibly close to me, nearby and accessible.

I hear you approaching my steps
I sense God coming closer to me.

Walking closely knocking upon this entrance for me clearly
God is intentionally and unmistakably trying to come into my heart and life.

you're caressing this doorknob asking open up your door please.
God is gently but persistently asking for me to let Him in.

I hear you on the other side of this
God is present on the other side of the wall I've created.

pillar framing the outline to my haven of safety.
God is the foundation of my true safety and security.

I hear you breathing on the other side of this wall
God is very close, even though I've put up barriers.

Whispering Please let me in and I wish that I could let him.
God is gently asking to be let into my heart and life, and I want to let Him in but am struggling with fear and doubt.

But there are walls that stand between him.
I've built walls of doubt and fear that are keeping God out of my life.

The mere fact that there is a door to knock on proves that I've already locked him out with walls made of planks of doubt fear that I'm not worthy.
The fact that there is a door for God to knock on means I've already closed myself off to Him with walls of doubt and fear that make me feel unworthy of His love.

God I know you say you want to come in but have you really seen me.
I'm questioning if God truly knows me and all my flaws and sins.

My insides are dirty.
I am weighed down by the guilt and shame of my sins.

My heart is sickly.
My soul is sick and in need of healing.

My house is filthy still.
My heart and life are still filled with sinful behaviors and attitudes.

I can hear him knocking and he's knocking on these walls made up of sinful structures.
God is trying to break through the sinful barriers I've set up in my heart and life.

There have been deeds by other men that have hurt me first and convinced me that a life of sin.
I've been hurt in the past by others, which has led me to believe that a life of sin is all I deserve.

A life of sadness a life of insecurity was all that I deserved.
I feel unworthy of love and acceptance, and my life reflects that belief.

So I've lived my life trying to live up to all these lies that I've heard.
I've believed lies about my worth and have struggled to escape their hold on me.

Putting up walls to block out God so I can sit here in my sin trying to figure out how to self heal my hurts.
I've built walls to keep God out so I can try to heal myself from my own sins and hurts.

But still I can hear him knocking and he's knocking on these walls made up of guilt and shame.
God is persistently trying to break through the walls of guilt and shame I've built around myself.

I know I am to blame for how my life has turned out.
I take responsibility for the choices I've made and the direction my life has gone.

I am not the little girl my parents raised to be holy and wholesome and set apart.
I've strayed far from the values and teachings my parents instilled in me as a child.

And I don't want God to see me this way.
I feel ashamed of who I am and the choices I've made, and I don't want God to see me in this state.

I don't want him to see me as I'm straddling the lines of purity with my boyfriend.
I'm living an impure lifestyle and don't want God to see the ways I'm compromising my values.

I don't want him to see me as I'm hungover from the alcohol I've used to quench my depression.
I've been struggling with depression and have been using alcohol to cope, which I am ashamed of and don't want God to see.

I don't want him to see me as I'm hooking up with strangers just because I can't be patient.
I've been engaging in promiscuous behavior out of impatience and don't want God to see the ways I'm acting out of line with His values.

I don't want him to see me. I'm starving myself trying to look like the world idea of perfection.
I am fixated on worldly ideas of physical beauty and am engaging in disordered eating behaviors in an attempt to conform.

But still I can hear him knocking but I stay locked in putting up as many walls as I can to protect myself from getting hurt again.
Even though God is knocking and trying to reach me, I'm still resisting His love and protection because I'm afraid of getting hurt again.

Allowing heartbreak to come in again to hide myself away so that God can't see who.
I am allowing heartbreak to enter my life as a way to avoid facing my own sins and hiding from God's loving gaze.

I really.
I am struggling.

And I know.
I am aware.

I'm in a box.
I am trapped by my own sins and fears.

I know these walls are being closed but really I'm getting used to this roof.
I'm starting to feel comfortable in my own misery and sin, even though it's keeping me separated from God.

And really this place has become home within these walls within these sins.
I've become comfortable with my sinful lifestyle and have made it my home, even though it's keeping me separated from God.

I am comfortable.
Even though I'm living in sin and away from God, I've grown comfortable with this way of life.

But this home is a prison.
My sinful lifestyle is actually a prison, trapping me and keeping me away from God's love and grace.

These walls are more like bars holding in a free man who's chosen to be captive by choosing the sin that slowly seeps into our heads our hearts are hands and with them we've built this separation.
I have chosen to lock myself in this prison of sin and have built the walls that are keeping me away from God, even though I have the freedom to choose differently.

But still I can hear him knocking it I'm starting to wonder what it would be like to be set free.
God is still knocking, and I'm beginning to wonder what life would be like without the walls of sin and fear that are keeping me away from Him.

I'm getting claustrophobic with all this condemnation cluttering me.
I am feeling trapped and overwhelmed by the condemnation and guilt that are weighing me down.

I'm getting asthmatic. With all of this in that suffocating me
The weight of my guilt and shame is suffocating me, making it hard to breathe and be free.

and my ears are almost growing deaf with how loud I can hear God knocking for me screaming toward me I hear him shouting You don't have to put up walls for safety.
God is speaking louder and louder, urging me to tear down the walls of sin and fear that are keeping me from Him and promising to be my safety and protection.

I'm your protection. I am your satisfaction your joy.
God promises to be the source of my protection, joy, and satisfaction if I open myself up to Him and follow His ways.

Your wholeness there is healing there's forgiveness there is redemption there is restoration there.
God offers healing, forgiveness, redemption, and restoration to all who turn to Him for salvation and wholeness.

Is salvation from your sinfulness.
Through God's love and grace, we can be saved from our sins and reconciled with Him.

Open up these walls you've used to hide from me.
God is asking us to tear down the walls we've built up in our hearts to hide from Him and let Him into our lives.

Open up the door.
God is asking us to open the door of our hearts and lives to Him.

For. And. I don't know.
The artist acknowledges that they don't know what other people's struggles and sins might be.

If your walls or if your prisons look anything like me but no matter why you might be hiding.
The singer acknowledges that other people may be struggling with their own walls and barriers, but encourages them to still listen for God's knock and respond to His call.

If you listen carefully you two can still hear him.
God is still present, even if we've built up walls and barriers to keep Him out.

Knocking knocking knocking.
God is persistently knocking, seeking to come into our lives and hearts.