Overdose
Hurtwave Lyrics
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It's killing my buzz when I hit the ground
A year and a half I was cleaning up
Then I heard you left him
So why do you want to be all alone?
Am I not enough to give you a home?
Do I lack the depth to believe in love
When you′re all I dream of?
It's a hard, hard pill to swallow
So I choke and spit it out
I'm tired of the in-between
The highs and lows you′re giving me
I′m falling (falling)
Falling down
Falling, falling down
I'm done with following your ghost
You leave me here to overdose
I′m falling (falling)
Falling down
Falling, falling down
Keep biting your tongue 'til you swallow blood
And tell me you know love is not enough
I′m tired of your disappеaring act
And how it affects me
I quit it, forbid it, don't need another hit, I need to
Rеtract, not relapse
But who am I to say? (Say)
I can′t really stay away from you
It's a hard, hard pill to swallow
So I choke and spit it out
I'm tired of the in-between
The highs and lows you′re giving me
I′m falling (falling)
Falling down
Falling, falling down
I'm done with following your ghost
You leave me here to overdose
I′m falling (falling)
Falling down
Falling, falling down
If you have a way to calm my nerves
Please just make it stop
I'm trying to forget how good it feels
You′re dancing through my thoughts
You cannot choose what addiction does to you
If I have to lose what I love most
I will overdose
I'm tired of the in-between
The highs and lows you′re giving me
I'm falling (falling)
Falling down
Falling, falling down
I'm done with following your ghost
You leave me here to overdose
I′m falling (falling)
Falling down
Falling, falling down
If I have to lose what I love most
I will overdose
If you paint it black over my gold
I will let you go
The lyrics to "Overdose" by Hurtwave delve into the complexities of a toxic and addictive relationship. The song illustrates the singer's struggle with the highs and lows of their partner's presence in their life. The opening lines, "Was high off your drug, now I'm falling down / It's killing my buzz when I hit the ground" suggest that the singer was once addicted to their partner, but now realizes the damaging effects of their presence. They had managed to clean up their life for a year and a half, only to hear that their partner has left someone else. This revelation leads the singer to question why their partner wants to be alone when they feel they have so much love to offer. They question their own worthiness and whether they lack the ability to believe in love, especially when their partner is all they dream of.
The chorus of the song emphasizes the difficult reality that the singer must confront. The line "It's a hard, hard pill to swallow / So I choke and spit it out" suggests that the truth of their toxic relationship is painful to accept, but they cannot continue living in denial.
The second verse explores the singer's frustration with their partner's behavior. They talk about biting their tongue until they swallow blood, symbolizing the pain they endure as they try to hold back their emotions. They express weariness of their partner's disappearing act and how it negatively impacts them. The singer acknowledges their own struggle with addiction and the desire to break free from it. However, they admit their difficulty staying away from their partner, highlighting the power and allure their presence holds over them.
The bridge touches upon the desperate longing for relief from the emotional turmoil caused by the relationship. The singer begs for a way to calm their nerves, desperate to forget the addictive and pleasurable aspects of their partner's presence. They acknowledge the inability to choose how addiction affects them and express a willingness to overdose, metaphorically suggesting that they are willing to lose what they love the most, even if it harms them, just to escape the grip of this toxic relationship. The final lines of the song, "If you paint it black over my gold / I will let you go" imply that if their partner continues to tarnish the beauty and worth they possess, the singer will finally find the strength to walk away.
Overall, "Overdose" portrays the struggle of being caught in a toxic relationship that feels addictive yet damaging. The lyrics reveal the inner conflict between the desire for love and the need to escape the destructive patterns that consume the singer's life.
Line by Line Meaning
Was high off your drug, now I′m falling down
I was under the influence of your love, but now I'm experiencing a devastating downfall
It's killing my buzz when I hit the ground
The sudden crash after losing your love is destroying my happiness
A year and a half I was cleaning up
I spent a significant amount of time trying to recover from the pain you caused
Then I heard you left him
When I found out you left your previous partner
So why do you want to be all alone?
Why do you desire solitude when I'm here for you?
Am I not enough to give you a home?
Aren't my love and support sufficient to provide you with a sense of belonging?
Do I lack the depth to believe in love
Do I not possess the capacity to truly believe in love?
When you′re all I dream of?
When you're the sole subject of my dreams
It's a hard, hard pill to swallow
Accepting the painful reality is extremely difficult
So I choke and spit it out
I struggle to accept it and try to reject it
I'm tired of the in-between
I'm exhausted from the uncertainty and ambiguity
The highs and lows you′re giving me
The fluctuating emotions and experiences you subject me to
I′m falling (falling)
Falling down
Falling, falling down
I'm descending into despair
I'm done with following your ghost
I refuse to continue chasing after your presence
You leave me here to overdose
You abandon me here, causing me to suffer intensely
Keep biting your tongue 'til you swallow blood
You continue to suppress your true feelings until it harms you
And tell me you know love is not enough
You admit that love alone is insufficient
I′m tired of your disappearing act
I'm weary of your habit of disappearing without warning
And how it affects me
And the profound impact it has on my well-being
I quit it, forbid it, don't need another hit, I need to
I quit this destructive cycle, I refuse to be drawn in again
Retract, not relapse
I need to retract from you, avoiding a relapse into heartache
But who am I to say? (Say)
But who am I to make such decisions?
I can′t really stay away from you
I find it incredibly difficult to distance myself from you
If you have a way to calm my nerves
If you possess the ability to soothe my anxieties
Please just make it stop
I implore you to bring an end to this torment
I'm trying to forget how good it feels
I'm attempting to erase the memories of the pleasure I experienced
You′re dancing through my thoughts
Thoughts of you are constantly occupying my mind
You cannot choose what addiction does to you
Addiction doesn't allow you to control its impact on you
If I have to lose what I love most
If I have to let go of the thing I cherish the most
I will overdose
I will succumb to the overwhelming pain
If I have to lose what I love most
If I have to sacrifice my greatest love
I will overdose
I will allow myself to be consumed by despair
If you paint it black over my gold
If you tarnish the beauty and happiness I possess
I will let you go
I will finally release you from my grip
Writer(s): Daniel Braunstein, Landon Tewers, Michael Karle, Rory Rodriguez
Contributed by Natalie R. Suggest a correction in the comments below.