Trust
I.V.A Lyrics

She say she love me but can't trust me and with that shit I'm the worst
Despite claiming that she loves me, she cannot trust me, and as a result, I feel like the lowest of the low.

Got me standing here when I just wanna leave this earth
Because of her lack of trust, I feel like I have nothing left to live for and just want to die.

Insecure and lonely I'm familiar with the words
I constantly struggle with feeling insecure and lonely, and these emotions are all too familiar to me.

Depression and anxiety familiar with the hurt
Along with my insecurities and loneliness, I also deal with depression and anxiety, which cause me immense pain.

And she wanna get together I'm the best at what I do
Despite everything, she still wants to be with me, because I am amazing at what I do.

Got her screaming out my name just telling y'all the truth
My talent is so great that it leaves her screaming out my name and telling everyone the truth about my skills.

And the crowds do the same cause I'm turning up the youth
My performances are so electric that the crowds respond with the same level of excitement and I am inspiring the younger generation.

Screaming loud through this pain when I'm burning up the booth
Even though I am in pain because of my mental health issues, I still give it my all in the recording studio and turn out amazing music.

She refer to me as Diffic she don't even know my name
Even though she calls me by my nickname, she doesn't even know my real name.

Damn this shit gone end and return a great pain
This relationship is going to end badly, and I will be left in deep emotional pain because of it.

Felt lost in this place since like grade eight
I have felt lost and disconnected from the world around me since I was in the eighth grade.

And it got worse with every girl that I date
My emotional struggles have only gotten worse with every girl I have dated.

And I got a problem I know it
I fully acknowledge that I have a mental health problem that I need help with.

Scared to be alone I show it
One of my biggest fears is being alone, and I display this fear in my actions and behavior.

When its real I always blow it
Whenever I have something real and meaningful in my life, I always end up ruining it somehow.

Fucked up without no one knowing
I am struggling and suffering, but nobody knows the extent of my problems.

I don't have a chance of slowing
I feel like there is no chance for me to slow down or take a break from my hectic life.

I don't have an answer for you
When people ask me for answers or solutions to my problems, I don't have any to give.

I wont put this cancer on you
I refuse to burden others with my problems and will keep my struggles to myself.

I wont follow after you
I won't chase after someone who has hurt me and betrayed my trust.

Walk around with this guilt in my pocket
I carry around a deep sense of guilt and remorse with me wherever I go.

Wishing I could drop it
I wish I could just let go of my guilt and move on with my life.

I don't know how to stop it
I am at a loss for how to overcome my struggles and stop feeling guilty all of the time.

Yeah but how the fuck you gone leave
Even though she has betrayed my trust, I still can't imagine her leaving me.

You stab me in the back and now you there watching me bleed
She has hurt me deeply, but she still watches as I suffer the consequences of her actions.

Behind that makeup is a mind full of greed
She may appear beautiful on the outside, but inside she is full of greed and selfishness.

I got no chance to succeed
I feel like I have no chance of succeeding in life because of my struggles and emotional pain.

I got a hundred texts left on read
I have sent numerous text messages that have gone unanswered, leaving me feeling ignored and alone.

But I'm so fucked up I don't remember what I said
My mental health issues are so severe that I can't even remember what I said in some of my messages.

Then she told me she don't know who I am
Even the person who is supposed to love me doesn't truly know who I am as a person.

I looked back said bitch you was never in the plans
I realize now that she was never truly meant to be in my life, and I am better off without her.

You was never them fam and you will never understand
She was never really a part of my inner circle, and she will never truly understand the struggles I am going through.

You will never be there when I'm up there counting these bands
Even if I do achieve success and wealth, she will never be there to share it with me.

I got I got a lot of shit to figure out
I have a lot of personal issues and struggles that I need to overcome and work through.

Baby you if you want me too
Despite everything, I still want her to be there for me if she is willing to support me.

Come lay with you
I want to be close to her and find comfort in her presence.

Let me down its true
She has let me down in the past, and I am struggling to fully trust her again.

Baby you you let me down its true
Despite my love for her, I can't ignore the fact that she has hurt me and let me down.

Stab me in the back
She has betrayed me in a deeply hurtful way.

I don't fuck with you
Because of her actions, I can no longer stand to be around her or have her in my life.