Serotonin
INCONSISTENT Lyrics
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Forcing myself to blame anxiety for
Being a shitty friend one more time.
One more cigarette won′t hurt me i think i'll watch another movie.
Clearly i am having trouble learning.
And i don′t know what you're asking for i
Found your t shirt in my drawer and i miss you.
But i know i shouldn't.
Mostly i′m just overwhelmed by stress.
But i swear to you i′ve been trying my best.
I am scared of every question you ask,
I've been drinking too much water,
And i can′t seem to hear a word you say.
Breathing deeply doesn't help i wish that i
Was somewhere else getting high or feeling alive.
Mostly i′m just overwhelmed by stress.
But i swear to you i've been trying my best.
Sorry is the hardest word to say.
You′re not a painter unless you decide to paint.
I'll go home, tell my friends i feel alone.
I hate my job, i miss my family and my dog.
And honestly i don't know what to say,
Cause all of my words are stale anyway.
I don′t think you should call me back.
Mostly i′m just overwhelmed by stress.
But i swear to you i've been trying my best.
Sorry is the hardest word to say.
You′re not a painter unless you decide to paint.
The lyrics of "Serotonin" by INCONSISTENT depict the struggles and internal conflicts of the singer. The song begins with the singer acknowledging their self-destructive behavior, putting their own health at risk by blaming anxiety for being a "shitty friend." They indulge in smoking cigarettes and watching movies as a form of escapism, but deep down, they know they are struggling to learn and grow. The mention of finding someone's t-shirt in their drawer creates a sense of longing and missing someone, but the singer realizes that they shouldn't pursue those feelings.
The second verse delves into the singer's overwhelming stress and their difficulty in coping with it. They express fear and anxiety about answering questions, metaphorically mentioning drinking too much water, which could suggest wanting to quench their thirst for relief but feeling unable to. They struggle to focus and find solace, wishing they were somewhere else where they could find happiness and fulfillment.
The chorus repeats the idea of feeling overwhelmed by stress but assures the listener that the singer has been trying their best. They highlight the difficulty in apologizing and expressing remorse, stating that sorry is the hardest word to say. The line "You're not a painter unless you decide to paint" can be interpreted as a metaphor for taking action and not just passively existing.
In the last verse, the singer reveals their feelings of loneliness and dissatisfaction in various aspects of their life. They express disliking their job, missing their family and their dog. They feel at a loss for words, as everything they say feels stagnant and uninteresting. They suggest that the other person should not call them back, indicating a desire to avoid further complications or emotional entanglement.
Overall, "Serotonin" captures the inner struggle and emotional turbulence of the singer as they grapple with anxiety, stress, and a search for fulfillment and meaning.
Line by Line Meaning
Well here i go, putting my health back out of reach
I am willingly jeopardizing my well-being and ignoring the need to take care of myself
Forcing myself to blame anxiety for
I am using anxiety as an excuse to justify my behavior and distance myself from others
Being a shitty friend one more time
I acknowledge my past actions of being a poor friend and anticipate repeating that behavior
One more cigarette won't hurt me, i think i'll watch another movie
I convince myself that indulging in harmful habits like smoking won't have negative consequences, distracting myself with entertainment
Clearly i am having trouble learning
It is evident that I struggle to understand and improve my situation or behavior
And i don't know what you're asking for, i found your t shirt in my drawer and i miss you
I feel confused about your expectations, and discovering your shirt in my belongings reminds me of our connection and longing I have for you
But i know i shouldn't
Despite my longing, I am aware that pursuing you is not the right choice
Mostly i'm just overwhelmed by stress
My primary emotion is being heavily burdened by stress
But i swear to you i've been trying my best
I sincerely promise that I have been making an effort, despite the challenges I face
I am scared of every question you ask
I experience fear and anxiety when you pose any question to me
I've been drinking too much water
I have been seeking solace in excessive water consumption, perhaps as a means to cope with my emotions
And i can't seem to hear a word you say
I struggle to truly listen and comprehend your words, possibly due to my own preoccupations
Breathing deeply doesn't help, i wish that i
Even taking deep breaths does not provide me with relief, and I desire to be somewhere else engaging in activities that make me feel alive
Was somewhere else getting high or feeling alive
I yearn to escape my current state and find happiness and exhilaration through substances or experiences
Sorry is the hardest word to say
Apologizing is an incredibly difficult task for me
You're not a painter unless you decide to paint
To truly be considered a painter, you must take the initiative and actively create art
I'll go home, tell my friends i feel alone
I will return home and convey to my friends that I experience a deep sense of loneliness
I hate my job, i miss my family and my dog
I hold a strong disdain for my job, and I long for the presence of my family and my beloved pet
And honestly i don't know what to say
Truthfully, I am at a loss for words and unsure how to express myself
Cause all of my words are stale anyway
I feel that everything I say lacks freshness and meaningfulness, making it difficult to communicate effectively
I don't think you should call me back
I believe it would be best if you did not return my call, as I am unable to offer much in terms of meaningful conversation or support
Sorry is the hardest word to say
Apologizing is an incredibly difficult task for me
You're not a painter unless you decide to paint
To truly be considered a painter, you must take the initiative and actively create art
Contributed by Gavin A. Suggest a correction in the comments below.