Nightmare
I See The End Lyrics

This seems much harder than before
I am struggling to communicate with you and open up, and it feels more difficult than ever before.

Why can't I open up to you?
I am having difficulty being honest and vulnerable with you, and I am unsure why.

I know exactly how you feel
I understand your emotions and can empathize with you.

But it seems it just won't do
Despite my understanding, my efforts to connect with you are not enough.

So will you tell me now
I am seeking clarity and directness from you.

What am I waiting for?
I am unsure what action to take or how to move forward.

You're slowly slipping away
I am losing my connection with you, and it is happening gradually.

And I just don't know what to say
I am at a loss for words and don't know how to express myself.

You've given everything
You have provided me with all I could ask for or hope for.

That I could ever ask for
You have met or exceeded all of my expectations and desires.

It must tear you apart
My inability to reciprocate or fully appreciate what you have given me is likely hurting you deeply.

Never living up to what I had before
I have a sense of disappointment or regret about not being able to replicate past experiences or emotions.

This wasn't something that you could've prevented
The current state of our relationship is not solely your fault or responsibility to fix.

My heart's beaten and bruised
My emotions are damaged or hurt.

It's beaten and bruised beyond all repair
My emotional state feels irreparable or beyond fixing.

Love to me it's just a nightmare
I associate love with negative feelings or trauma.

I can't save you and I can't be what you want me to be
I recognize my limitations and am unable to fulfill your expectations or desires.

This is the me that you needed to see
I am presenting my true self to you, which may not be what you hoped for or expected.

I never amounted to anything
I feel like a failure or disappointment in your eyes.

Brought forward by the grip of lust
Our relationship or connection may have been motivated by physical desire rather than emotional connection.

Please can you just be honest?
I am begging for your honesty and directness.

You'll be the voice stuck in the back of my head
I will not be able to forget you or our relationship.

I'll stand here screaming your name until I'm fucking dead
My feelings are so strong that I will carry them with me until the end of my life.

Brought here by a fantasy
The expectations or desires I had for our relationship were unrealistic or idealistic.

Torn down by reality
The reality of our relationship did not meet my fantasies or expectations.

And my mind's a hollow place
I feel empty or hollow inside, and my thoughts are not fulfilling.

That will never be around this place
I feel like I am in a mental or emotional state that is not sustainable or healthy.

So will you turn your back on me?
I am fearful that you will reject me or abandon our relationship.

Buried by my broken thoughts
My negative or damaging thoughts are overwhelming me.

I will not fight for what I don't deserve
I do not believe that I am worthy or capable of fighting for our relationship.