Icon For Hire has released three full length albums: Scripted, Icon For Hire and YOU CAN'T KILL US.
Released in 2011, their first album Scripted shattered first-week sales becoming the highest new artist debut in Tooth & Nail Records history. The record debuted on the Billboard Top 200, at No. 4, on the iTunes Rock chart, and No. 19 on the iTunes overall albums chart.
Icon For Hire released their second full length self-titled album Icon For Hire in October 2013 on the Tooth and Nail label. Producer Mike Green (All Time Low, The Wanted, Pierce The Veil) was at the mixer to follow up their debut album, Scripted.
After spending a remarkable 18 months touring around the world, the group returned to their hometown of Decatur, IL to write their new record. Icon For Hire is set to push the boundaries of music and fashion far beyond their debut. According to the guitarist, Shawn Jump, “We wrote and dreamed about this record away from everything. We needed a safe place where we could all get to “spirit,” and maximize our different influences.” Added drummer, Adam Kronshagen, “There’s been undeniable friction in the songwriting process. We love knowing that you will definitely hear the element of conflict inside of every song we wrote.
The band's video, “Off With Her Head,” received 200k views its first week. Frontwoman and fashion designer, Ariel, worked with the team for weeks to create an avant-garde interpretation of the hit song. The group spent two days in Compton, CA (South Los Angeles) filming the video with a variety of the hottest underground artists.
Icon For Hire moved towards a new chapter of the band in 2016. Adam Kronshagen left the band to spend more time with his family coupled with a split with their record label Tooth & Nail the band decided to go it alone, or so it seemed. The band put together a plan for a kick starter project backed by their own fans. The kick starter reached its target in a matter of days. The album YOU CAN'T KILL US was released in stages throughout the year to those who have backed the kick starter project and there were physical copies on sale in December 2016 when it was completed.
On October 23, 2018, the band uploaded a video to their YouTube channel titled "Supposed To Be Acoustic Sessions Video Teaser", announcing their first video session to come soon, as well as that the Still Can't Kill Us: The Acoustic Sessions album would be released on December 7. The band released their "Supposed to Be" Acoustic Video on October 26, their "Get Well II" Acoustic Video on November 8, and "Demons" Acoustic Video on November 23. The tracks were also uploaded to Spotify as singles. A new album The Reckoning was released in September 2022.
Ariel Bloomer - Vocals,
Shawn Jump - Guitar,
Adam Kronshagen - Drums,
Josh Kincheloe - Bass.
Panic Attacks
Icon for Hire Lyrics
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I′m sorry I'm starting to wear again
Sorry you're tired of hearing it
I′m tired of carrying all the comparison
Sorry I′m feeling it
I'm sorry I suck at concealing it
If I were real with you I′d tell it all
So who do you think you are?
Without me you′re nothing
Don't mean to cause no alarm
But I'm all you got
You treat me like you forgot how we got started
Now I′m discarded
Not sure what I did but I don′t belong here
If you don't need me I′ll hang back
But you're gonna feel me when the panic attacks
Yeah, remеmber that?
You and me, see, we go way back
Had your bеst interest, had your back
But you weren′t interested in that
And I do my best to shut up
'Cause that′s all you ever try to tell me when I come up
So I stay in the basement and try to hold the breakdowns back
But the basic math says this won't last
How much longer do you think you have
One of these days you'll totally crash
You′ll look at me like, "What just happened?"
That′s what I've been trying to keep from happening
So I keep you happy
I keep you happy
′Til someday, suddenly, sadly
You're snapping
Oh and the tiniest crack
Spreads like fire
Shatters the glass
You try holding it back
But beggars can′t choose when the panic attacks
I'm sorry I′m sensitive
But not really sorry 'cause you're just
Pretending it ain′t what it is
Ain′t what we are
Like you think you really got us this far
And that's all in spite of me
Really now?
And you wish I wasn′t here
Really now?
Gave you the warnings, gave you the signs
You just ignore me, pay me no mind
You left me no options
I gotta stop this
Can't have you thinking that you really got this
Not sabotaging
Just trying to caution you before you put us straight in the coffin
I′ll make you nauseous
Feel like you lost it
Head to the basement
Make you my hostage
For so many years I couldn't stop it
But now I′ll make you feel like I feel
I promise
Oh and the tiniest crack
Spreads like fire
Shatters the glass
You try holding it back
But beggars can't choose when the panic attacks
Oh and just the tiniest crack
Can break you into pieces just like that
There's no holding it back
′Cause beggars can′t choose when the panic attacks
(I'm sorry, I′m sorry, I'm sorry, I′m sorry, I'm...)
I′m sorry I doubted you
Sorry I made you shut up
I couldn't face the truth
It scared me too much
So I kept you locked up
'Cause I didn′t know
Know that I needed you
′Til you let me know
I'm sorry I doubted you
I′m sorry I made you shut up
I couldn't face the truth
′Cause it scared me too much
So I kept you locked up
'Cause I didn′t know
Know that I needed you
But I do now
Oh and the tiniest crack
Spreads like fire
Shatters the glass
You try holding it back
But beggars can't choose when the panic attacks
Oh and just the tiniest crack
Can break you into pieces just like that
There's no holding it back
′Cause beggars can′t choose when the panic attacks
I'm sorry, I′m sorry, I'm sorry, I′m...
"Panic Attacks" is a song by the American rock band Icon for Hire. The song is about a person's inner voice or their inner chaos, represented by the lines “I’m sorry I’m here again…” The song describes the struggle of an individual who tries to keep their panic attacks under control, but the slightest crack can cause everything to break apart. The lyrics also depict a relationship between the singer and an unspecified second party, where the singer feels unappreciated and disregarded, as conveyed by the lines "You treat me like you forgot how we got started / Now I’m discarded."
The song also portrays the singer's inner rage and frustration, as they try to caution their partner about the repercussions of ignoring their impending doom. But eventually, the singer gives up and takes control of the situation, as conveyed by the lines "For so many years I couldn’t stop it / But now I’ll make you feel like I feel / I promise." The song talks about the importance of acknowledging mental health issues and the significance of seeking help when needed.
Line by Line Meaning
I'm sorry I'm here again
I apologize for being back in this situation
I′m sorry I'm starting to wear again
I apologize for starting to feel overwhelmed again
Sorry you're tired of hearing it
I apologize for burdening you with my struggles and understand if you're tired of listening
I′m tired of carrying all the comparison
I'm exhausted from constantly comparing myself to others
Sorry I'm feeling it
I apologize for feeling this way, but I can't help it
I'm sorry I suck at concealing it
I apologize for not being able to hide my feelings well
If I were real with you I′d tell it all
If I could be completely honest with you, I would share everything with you
If you were real with me you'd tell me you don′t think I'm real at all
If you were honest with me, you would tell me that you don't think my struggles are legitimate
So who do you think you are?
Who do you think you are to doubt or dismiss my struggles?
Without me you′re nothing
Without my struggles, you wouldn't have anything to validate your own existence
Don't mean to cause no alarm
I don't intend to cause any worry or panic
But I'm all you got
I'm the only thing that makes you feel like you matter
You treat me like you forgot how we got started
You're not showing me the same support and understanding we used to have
Now I′m discarded
You're acting like my struggles are no longer valid or important
Not sure what I did but I don′t belong here
I don't know what I did wrong, but I don't feel like I fit in anymore
If you don't need me I′ll hang back
If you don't want or need my struggles, I'll try to keep them to myself
But you're gonna feel me when the panic attacks
You'll see and feel the effects of my struggles when I have a panic attack
Yeah, remember that?
Remember the good times we used to have and how I supported you?
You and me, see, we go way back
We have a long history and connection
Had your best interest, had your back
I always had your best interests in mind and supported you
But you weren′t interested in that
But you didn't care about my support or interest in you
And I do my best to shut up
I try to keep quiet about my struggles so as not to burden you
'Cause that′s all you ever try to tell me when I come up
Because you always dismiss or downplay my struggles when I try to talk to you about them
So I stay in the basement and try to hold the breakdowns back
I isolate myself and try to avoid letting my emotions overwhelm me
But the basic math says this won't last
However, it's clear that this coping strategy is not sustainable
How much longer do you think you have
How much longer can you keep ignoring my struggles and minimizing my pain?
One of these days you'll totally crash
One day, you'll see how much I really need your support and validation, and it will hit you hard
You′ll look at me like, "What just happened?"
You'll realize how much you've been dismissing my struggles and it will be a shock
That′s what I've been trying to keep from happening
That's what I've been trying to avoid by keeping my struggles hidden from you
So I keep you happy
I try to keep your life and emotions stable and drama-free
′Til someday, suddenly, sadly
Until one day, unexpectedly and unfortunately
You're snapping
You reach your breaking point and finally see the extent of my struggles
Oh and the tiniest crack
Even the slightest bit of pressure or stress can trigger a breakdown
Spreads like fire
It quickly and easily becomes overwhelming and all-consuming
Shatters the glass
It completely breaks down your emotional barriers and sense of control
You try holding it back
You attempt to suppress or hide your emotions
But beggars can′t choose when the panic attacks
However, you can't control when these intense emotions and panic will strike
I'm sorry I′m sensitive
I apologize for being emotionally sensitive and vulnerable
But not really sorry 'cause you're just
But I'm not truly sorry, because my sensitivity is a valid part of who I am
Pretending it ain′t what it is
Denying or ignoring these struggles won't make them go away
Ain′t what we are
These struggles and emotions are a part of who we are
Like you think you really got us this far
You can't take full credit for our progress or growth as a result of these struggles
And that's all in spite of me
Our progress has happened despite my struggles and not because of them
Really now?
Is that really the truth?
And you wish I wasn′t here
You sometimes wish my struggles didn't exist or affect our lives
Gave you the warnings, gave you the signs
I've tried to communicate and prepare you for the potential impact of my struggles
You just ignore me, pay me no mind
But you often disregard or dismiss my concerns and warnings
You left me no options
Your lack of support or validation has left me feeling helpless and stuck
I gotta stop this
I need to find a way to overcome these struggles and not let them consume me
Can't have you thinking that you really got this
I can't let you believe that you're in control of these struggles or that they don't exist
Not sabotaging
I'm not trying to harm or destroy our relationship
Just trying to caution you before you put us straight in the coffin
I'm just trying to warn you that if we don't address these struggles, they could ruin our relationship
I'll make you nauseous
I'll make you uncomfortable or distressed by sharing my struggles with you
Feel like you lost it
You'll feel like you've lost control or stability in your life
Head to the basement
I'll isolate myself and become withdrawn to avoid burdening you with my struggles
Make you my hostage
I'll make you feel trapped or obligated to deal with my struggles
For so many years I couldn't stop it
I've struggled with these emotions and issues for a long time and couldn't overcome them on my own
But now I′ll make you feel like I feel
Now, I'll make you understand the extent of my struggles and emotions
I promise
I promise to be open and honest about my emotions and mental health moving forward
Oh and just the tiniest crack
Even a small trigger or stressor can have a huge impact on my emotional state
Can break you into pieces just like that
It can completely overwhelm and break down your emotional barriers in an instant
′Cause beggars can′t choose when the panic attacks
I don't have control over when these intense emotions or panic attacks occur
I'm sorry I doubted you
I apologize for not trusting or believing in you before
Sorry I made you shut up
I apologize for not listening to or valuing your perspective before
I couldn't face the truth
I couldn't accept the reality of my struggles and how they were impacting my life
It scared me too much
I was afraid of the potential consequences or implications of facing my struggles
So I kept you locked up
I kept my emotions and struggles hidden from you and didn't share them with you
'Cause I didn′t know
Because I didn't know how to handle or cope with my mental health issues
Know that I needed you
Now I realize that I need your support and understanding to overcome these struggles
But I do now
I now understand the importance of being vulnerable and seeking help to overcome my struggles
Writer(s): Amy V A Jump, Shawn M Jump, David Thulin
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