Slave
In Loving Memory Lyrics

Yeah she's blowing up my phone saying we don't talk
She constantly contacts me, complaining that we don't communicate enough.

And I'm thinking we can't make this work if we don't walk the walk
I believe that our relationship won't succeed if we don't back up our words with actions.

Told her 'Babe you knew the deal, this is how it goes'
I reminded her that she was aware of the situation and how things would be.

Gotta put myself at number one when I'm out on the road
I have to prioritize myself when I'm away pursuing my career.

I told her, You knew getting into this that it wasn't gonna be some easy shit, no
I reminded her that she knew from the beginning that this wouldn't be an effortless journey.

I can't apologize, I'm just tryna keep my eyes on the prize so
I can't say sorry for pursuing my dreams, as I'm solely focused on achieving my goals.

If you gotta go then go, I know you're feeling low
If you need to leave, then do so, I understand that you're feeling down.

But don't act like you didn't know
But please don't pretend like you weren't aware of the challenges we would face.

I'm a slave to the music that's in my veins
I am completely devoted to the music that flows through my veins.

I'm gonna chase it until I go insane
I will relentlessly pursue it until I reach a point of madness.

Even then, I don't think I'll break away
Even in the depths of insanity, I don't believe I can escape its grasp.

The love for the game got me feeling like a slave
My passion for the music industry makes me feel bound and controlled, like a slave.

Yeah the homies on the block don't fuck with me no more
My friends from the neighborhood don't support me like they used to.

They be thinking I still got the time to mack and drink and smoke
They believe I still have the leisure to flirt, party, and indulge in vices.

They think this music shit's a game but it ain't no joke
They consider the music industry to be a trivial pursuit, but it's not something to be taken lightly.

Tryna put us brown kids on the map because ain't nobody know what it's like
I'm striving to gain recognition for people of color like us, as nobody truly understands our experiences.

To grow up insecure because everybody making waves don't look like you
To feel inadequate because the successful individuals in the industry don't share your appearance.

So we say it's impossible for a kid like us to make it through
Therefore, we often believe it's unattainable for someone like us to succeed.

A change is due, and I wanna be the start
A transformation is necessary, and I desire to be the catalyst for that change.

So I gotta fight twice as hard
As a result, I must exert twice the effort and resilience.

I'd be lying if I said it didn't break my heart
I would be dishonest if I claimed that it doesn't profoundly sadden me.

That I gotta disappoint the ones who loved me from the start
It pains me to let down those who have supported me since the beginning.

And what makes it hurt the most is you just want what's best
What makes it particularly painful is that you only desire what is best for me.

For your little boy so he could have what you could never get
You want me to have the opportunities and experiences that were denied to you.

You immigrated across the world so I could flourish here
You made the journey to another country so I could thrive and succeed in this environment.

But I know that I could be much more than just an engineer
However, I believe that I have the potential to become something greater than just an engineer.

I'll keep you in my heart as I take my gift and run with that
I will always hold you close to my heart as I pursue my artistic talent with determination.

If I let you go for now, just know I'm coming back
If I have to temporarily part ways with you, understand that I will eventually return.