So Close
J-Diggs Lyrics

You put my heart in a cage
I feel trapped and unable to express myself to you

I'm not walking away
I'm still holding onto hope that we can make things work

We're so close
Our relationship has potential to be great

Yet so far
But we're unable to make a real emotional connection

I'm reaching out to your hands
I'm trying to connect with you on an emotional level

Only you understand
I feel that you're the only one who can truly relate to what I'm feeling

I feel so close, yet I feel so disconnected
I want to be close to you, but our emotional distance is a barrier

But when I saw you I felt like we connected
There are moments where I feel like our connection is real

But tragedy struck and it wasn't what we expected
Something unexpected happened that had negative effects on our relationship

We both tried everything but it just wasn't effective
We tried to fix our issues, but nothing seemed to work

I gave you my all, I even gave you my heart
I invested a lot of time and energy into our relationship

But maybe that's the reason why we fell apart
Perhaps we were too invested and it put too much pressure on our relationship

You looked so beautiful to me like a work of art
I found you to be incredibly attractive and special

I know this is the end, but let's go back to the start
Even though it's over, I'd like to revisit the good times we had

So now I'm asking you was it because of me
I'm wondering if our problems were my fault

Because this isn't love this isn't how we should be
Our current situation isn't what love is supposed to feel like

I'm drowning in my demons I'm lost out in the sea
I'm struggling with personal issues and it's affecting our relationship

I don't care about the money you're all that I need
I prioritize our relationship over material possessions

I felt like we connected but maybe you knew
I sensed a connection between us, but maybe it was one-sided

I'm tired of being the only one, let's make it two
I want us to work together as a team

Let's go out for a drive and look out at the view
I want to spend time with you and enjoy the simple things in life

I guess what I'm trying to say is I still love you
Despite our issues, my love for you remains

I'm reaching out to you but I guess I still need help
I'm trying to communicate with you, but I need your support

Too scared of what you'll say, I don't feel like I'm myself
I'm afraid of your reaction and I'm not comfortable being completely honest

You played me off like a dusty record on a shelf
You disregarded my feelings and emotions

Now I'm doing drugs cause I don't care bout my health
I'm engaging in self-destructive behaviors as a result of our relationship troubles

So tell me if your listening, tell me if you're there
I need to know if you're willing to make an effort to fix our relationship

Tell me that you still love me, tell me that you care
I need reassurance that you still have feelings for me

Let's go back to the loving, like playing with your hair
Let's revisit the small, intimate moments that made our relationship great

I guess there's no point in fixing what we had
Despite my efforts, it seems like our relationship is beyond repair

Cause in the end all i did was make you sad
I realize that I contributed to your unhappiness

I took it too far and all because I was mad
I let my emotions and anger negatively impact our relationship

I just want to say sorry to your mom and dad
I feel guilty about how our relationship has impacted those closest to you

I guess that I thought you would understand
I assumed that you would be receptive to my feelings and emotions

I wanna say thank you for lending me a hand
Despite our issues, I appreciate the support you've given me

Even though it didn't go as we would planned
Things didn't work out the way we hoped they would

All I can say is what we had was so grand
Despite our problems, our relationship was special and important to me