Once Again
J-US Lyrics

Through the blood on your hand
Your actions have caused pain and harm to others, and it's evident by the blood on your hand.

Are you a victim of your own mind
Are you struggling with your own thoughts and emotions, feeling trapped and unable to escape?

But your vile delusion is turning into
But your twisted and distorted perception of reality is becoming worse and more dangerous.

Worse and worse, day after day
The situation is getting increasingly dire and unbearable with each passing day.

Bleeding for love to continue
You're willing to sacrifice and suffer for love to persist, even if it's toxic and damaging.

You belong to me for always
I believe that you're mine forever, and I won't let anyone take you away from me.

I'm alone, today
I'm feeling isolated and lonely today, perhaps due to the effects of our relationship.

Something's not right about this long day
I sense that today is off, that something is amiss and unsettling.

Once again, how do you want to love and share?
We've been through this before, but I still wonder how you want our relationship to work, how we can love and share in a healthy way.

Once again, I love you baby, in my own way
Despite the issues and complications in our relationship, I still love you, albeit in my own unconventional and problematic way.

And I know, I treat you with too much desire
I'm aware that I'm fixated on you to an unhealthy degree, that my desires for you are intense and overwhelming.

Once again, I don't know why you don't want me
Once again, I'm confused and frustrated by your lack of desire for me, even though I'm convinced that we belong together.

Once again, my hands are bleeding of your face
Once again, I've harmed you physically, leaving you injured and scarred from my violence.

And I know you're wondering why I did this
I understand that you're questioning why I've hurt you, but I don't have a rational or justifiable answer.

But I was trapped by my obsessions, I was trapped by my craziness, I'm sorry
I was consumed by my irrational and destructive fixations on you, unable to resist my impulses, and I'm remorseful for the harm I've caused.

You came by my parents
You visited my parents after we broke up, perhaps to try and reconnect with me through them.

After we parted, you stayed away
After we ended our relationship, you distanced yourself from me, likely due to the pain and trauma I caused you.

I won't talk about the old days
I don't want to dwell on our difficult and tumultuous past, preferring to focus on the present and the future.

But tell me what you did, you never told me
But I'm curious about what you did during our time apart, as you haven't been forthcoming with me about it.

Remember, when you lied to my lawyers
I'm reminding you of the time when you deceived my legal representatives, likely in relation to our relationship and its legal ramifications.

If you care about being surprised
If you're interested in being caught off guard and surprised, then I have something to tell you.

I don't want to let you down, no
I don't want to disappoint or disillusion you, but I feel compelled to share this with you.

But something's telling me that I'm wrong
But I have an intuition or feeling that what I'm about to say or do is misguided or harmful, even though I can't articulate why or how.