Lighthouse
J.Cee Lyrics

26 acting like I should of settle down
At the age of 26, I was pretending to have my life together and be in a stable relationship.

I'm a 90s kids looking at this world so different now
As someone who grew up in the 90s, I view the world from a different perspective than others.

Feeling like I missed damn I thought I had it figured out
I have a sense of regret. I believed I had everything figured out, but now I realize I missed something important.

Guess that's how it is still I cannot listen to the doubt
Although this is the way things turned out, I refuse to let doubts hold me back.

Im beating I've been bruised
I have been hurt emotionally, leaving me feeling battered.

Hearts been broken hundred times
My heart has endured numerous heartbreaks.

But I never show the truth
I hide my true emotions and put on a facade of being fine.

Always acting like im fine
I constantly pretend to be okay, even when I'm not.

Hard notice who you are when things are built just to compare
It's difficult to truly understand oneself when society constantly encourages comparison.

Used to look up at the star and see my future way up there
I used to be optimistic and dream of a bright future.

Take a this as a message show you who I really am
Consider this song as a message that reveals my true self.

Kill off all persona's feeling like a better man
I want to shed all the false personas I've created and become a truer, stronger version of myself.

Now the passions faded don't know where i'm supposed to be
My passion for life has diminished, and I feel lost, unsure of my purpose.

I'm losing the faith so just tell me what I need
I'm losing my belief in something greater, so I'm searching for guidance and direction.

Moved across the country help me see the world in different ways
By relocating to a different part of the country, I hoped to gain new perspectives and insights.

I was promised something but the life I wanted never came
I had expectations for a certain kind of life, but it never materialized as I hoped.

People call me lucky I can work on music and it pays
Some people perceive me as fortunate because I can earn a living through my music.

But it all means nothing when no matter whatever I do it's all the same
However, despite the external success, it feels empty and insignificant because everything I do feels repetitive and unfulfilling.

I don't focus on regrets cause if I did I'd go insane
I choose not to dwell on past regrets because it would drive me to madness.

Used the bottle for the stress but never seemed to ease the pain
I turned to alcohol to cope with stress, but it never truly alleviated my emotional pain.

I'd get lost in music now I'm feeling lost in music
In the past, music provided an escape, but now it simply adds to my feelings of being lost and disconnected.

Wish I could go back to betters days
I long for the past when things seemed better and simpler.

Nah nah nah
Repetitive vocalization with no specific meaning.

I'm losing my faith so just tell me what I need
My belief is wavering, and I'm seeking guidance and clarity.

Stuck inside my head right now
I feel trapped in my own thoughts and emotions at the moment.

Feeling closer to the end right now
I have a sense of impending doom or the end of something.

Dreams were bigger when I Left my town
When I left my hometown, I had grand aspirations and dreams.

Now im lost like I'm searching for a dead lighthouse
Now, I feel directionless and futilely searching for guidance like a lighthouse that no longer functions.