Not This Time
J.K. Wiechert Lyrics

If only you knew all the love I had inside
I wish you knew how deeply I loved you.

If only I told you
If only I had expressed my feelings for you before.

That you were my greatest pride
You were everything to me; my biggest source of happiness and pride.

If only I showed you just how good you made me feel
I regret not showing you how much joy you brought to my life.

Maybe I wouldn't be alone and you would be right here but
Perhaps things would have been different and we would still be together today.

I don't wanna do it over
I don't want to go back and try again with you.

The first time has gone away
Our past relationship is over and cannot be repeated.

You can't rewrite the past
We cannot change the events that happened between us.

All I can do is say
The only thing I can do is express my feelings to you now.

This time, I'll do it much better
If we try again, I promise to be a better partner to you.

Love you like I never
I will love you more deeply than ever before.

Ever loved you before
My love for you will surpass any feelings I had for you in the past.

Oh baby, now this time
I truly believe that this time will be different and we can make it work.

I'll give you my heart and soul
I will give you all of my love and commitment.

And every drop of my love
I will not hold anything back when it comes to loving you.

If you say yes I'll give you my best
If you agree to try again, I will give you my all.

This time, I'm gonna be stronger
I have learned from our past mistakes and I will be stronger this time around.

This time I'll do it all the way
I will be fully committed to our relationship and not hold back.

This time I'll be a better woman
I recognize the ways in which I fell short before and I am committed to being a better partner.

This time I won't get in my own way
I will not let my own fears or insecurities interfere with our relationship this time.

I could go back you never would have gone
If I could go back and change things, I believe we could have stayed together.

If I knew then what I know now
Looking back, I realize the mistakes I made and how I could have been a better partner.

I've told you all that I feel for you in my heart
I have been honest with you about my feelings toward you.

In my head I know what I should've said
Sometimes I think about what I could have said or done differently to save our relationship.

I know what I shoulda did
I am aware of the actions I took that hurt our relationship.

If looks kill then Melanie you a felony
You are so beautiful that you could be considered a crime.

We both hot I guess we couldn't take the jealousy
Our attractiveness may have contributed to the jealousy that led to our break-up.

All in my ear I had my homeboys telling me
My male friends were always in my ear, offering their opinions and advice on our relationship.

How to be a player, we fell off like Bill Bellamy
My friends were encouraging me to act like a player, which led to our eventual break-up.

MTV shhh, we used to watch Law and Order, NBC shh
We used to watch TV together, but now I watch alone in silence.

But now I'm watching solo on some empty seat shit
I am alone and the emptiness is palpable.

Thinking of you, I got a lot more drinking to do
The pain of losing you is so great that I need to drink in order to cope.

Reminiscing, though I seen it coming
I think back on our relationship, even though I knew it was headed for failure.

Yeah I had a premonition
I had a feeling that our relationship was in trouble.

Right beside each other and somehow it felt distant
Even when we were together, it felt like we were growing farther apart.

Lets rewind back when days sunny like Liston
Let's go back to the good times in our relationship.

Smile just glisten, your booty like a cushion
I remember the way you looked and how attracted I was to you.

Is this the moment where we making up
I wonder if now is the time for us to reconcile and try again.

And realise we tripping forever breaking up
I think we made a mistake in breaking up and should have stayed together.

And then I break you off, put you to sleep know its deep
I will make love to you with such intensity that it will be a sign of my love and commitment.

When the girl of his dreams is the same one to wake him up
You are the girl I have dreamt of and you have the power to make me happy and fulfilled.